Well ladies - it was confirmed today. I went to the ER and spent several hours doing ultrasounds and blood work and dictating my horrible weekend of clotting and bleeding. After telling the story of being at Denny's and the sharp pains, and seeing what looked like ....something it shouldn't have coming out of my body, I could see the look in my dr's eyes.
Just as I had suspected, the baby was no longer with me. I'm heartbroken, even though this pregnancy wasn't planned, it certainly wasn't unwanted. I know that I should be thankful for the two beautiful daughters I have, but I feel a whole inside of me.
I didn't realize how much I wanted this baby till I lost it ... and I know it happens for a reason, god only gives us what we can handle, time heals all wounds... still just doesn't take away this hurt and pain.
My DH wasn't too thrilled about this pregnancy and when the comment was made about trying later, the roll of the eyes came and the "probably not" comment was made. I felt like that was my last chance of making our family whole.... I just don't know what to do.
