So i went for my scan today and after failed natural, medical and finally an ERPC it looks like all 3 methods finally gave me the result i needed. Even if it has taken 12 weeks from start to finish with alot of blood loss tears and pain along the way!
Dr did Abdo ultrasound and said it doesnt look to me that there are any products left!
THANK CHRIST FOR THAT!!!!
He said he couldnt see anything on the scan that he could attribute the pains ive been having to and said he doubted there would be any or enough pregnancy hormones left over to be causing my pelvic, tail bone and hip pain.
The DR was the same one i saw 2 weeks ago who recomended i go for surgery, he was a nice one i dont know if im alone in this but i have found the few male drs that work in gyny are alot more understanding and nicer than the women? They also seem to know what they are talking about!!!! i.e none have ever told me crap!
So as far as im concerned im suffering from a bad case of constipation stress and anxiety after the 5 months of turmoil my body and brain have been through!
Well let me tell you all, i may have broke down at work today and last night "Rock Bottom post" but i dont blame me, it probably did me the world of good iam exhausted but pleased to finally be closing the door on the nightmare of pregnancy and miscarge.
I now know that the next time i start bleeding it will be my period and i will then allow 2 cycles to pass and go onto the pill.
I look and feel a mess, ive lost weight, im spotty, my skin is falling to bits my hair is thin and coming out too much but hopefully my body will now heal! Now that i know there wont be anymore frights around the corner to do with miscarrage!
So im gonna take a load of laxatives, relax eat well buy a good face wash and make it to the weekend without breaking down or worrying about what could be causing me pains!
I have a scan for my entire abdomin and pelvis booked for next wednesday so if there is anything other than constipation causing my pains then i will find out soon! But between now and then i really am not worried cause im happy really happy the relief to know my body is gona be normal again soon (once my periods return).
I know im rambling just kinda feel you guys would understand this more than most...
So my journey has been an experiance one i will take to my grave, i dont know if i could ever face another pregnancy but i guess thats because everything is raw.
I need to get my body back to 100% my mind back to 100% and then think about what it is i really want for my future other than nights out and hoolidays in the sun with my OH!.
I know the rest of this week will be tough for me at work but i know its something i need to get through as part of my getting back to 100%.
I am looking forward to christmas a week off with my oh and insterad of decorating bevans bedroom iam sure we will be out having fun with friends and drinking and eating and pain free!
Thank you all for reading my badly spelled rambles and good luck and strength to you all!
I hope very much my next post will be very soon to say i got my dreaded periods back!
I doubt i will ever not moan to much but thats my personality im a right winge bag once i get going lol!
