I know this may sound strange and i feel guilty for it but i just want so very much to be ok and to be able to just function again, it'll be 3 weeks wednesday since i had the d&c and i just cant function.Its really annoying me, my constant crying and feeling bad is just really frustrating.I knew it would take time but im actually getting to the point where im like just get it the hell together will you!! Im tired of hearing myself think i just want to get the hell out and live right now! everytime i try and get back to some kind of normality i just fail at it, i dont want to go out with my friends and theyre all at college now anyway.I know i'll never forget him and i know i'd never want to but i also know there comes a point where you have to pick yourself up and carry on as best you can.The fact that everytime i try this i fail miserably is really really annoying me, nobody understands why im still upset and i get that they havnt been there and thats fine but it just makes it so much harder when everytime i try and go out or get myself together again and fail theyre all like what the hell is wrong with you.I just feel useless and angry, i want to get it together and move forward but i fall at every hurdle sorry that probablly makes no sense but i needed a rant sorry

It made sense, i know how you feel!

You've got to be less hard on yourself; you already have a history of depression and then this has happened. Although it may seem to you that you're failing as you think you're falling apart; I think you've handled things very well considering what a massive physical and emotional shock this has been. Remember when it happened how you just felt there was absolutely no hope whatsoever? You're a very strong person and stronger than you yourself realise. You're not going to get over things overnight and its unreasonable to expect yourself too. Just take things one day at a time. xxxx

I understand totally and get the impression from alot of people that Its time now to get over it which makes me feel worse that I don't feel I can be coz as you said hurdles stop you in your tracks. I had an awful emotional weekend and ontop of that was annoyed at myself for still feeling like this. My work has suffered and am awake at this stupid hour worrying how I can sort myself out before I get into trouble

everyone tells me on here that 4 months on I still need time. I don't know if I will feel better once the edd is out of the way.

I have no answers for you- just wanted to let you know you are not alone xxx

Thanks so much, i think im doing ok and im trying really hard its just so frustrating! When did ye begin to feel ok again? Im just so sick of feeling like this it feels differant to anything ever its insane, i just feel like everyones reached the end of their tether with me and i dont blame them im sick of listening to me aswell if im honest.Argh and i cant sleep either thanks sophster your so amazing ive seen you post here time and time again always knowing just what to say, you and mrs doddy are the best for that so from me and everyone thank you

It took a few months to get over the shock and to accept it had happened and that there was nothing I could do to bring my baby back- now the grief is different that I am sad for the loss and sad that I should be about to go on maternity leave and looking forward to the birth of our baby. It's such and empty feeling. Now I guess that I have to accept that isn't going to happen either and to stop thinking about it as I'm going round in circles

I'm not the strongest person to be advising you how long you will ferl like this hon - all I can say is that it's still so raw for you at the
moment xxxx

I really can't say much else apart that I feel like that a lot of the time... so much so that I have started putting an act on for how I really feel for a lot of people so that I don't end up with the awful advice of get over it...

I have a feeling that although it is naff, it is also comletely normal...