Thanks for all the kind words and thought, its really helpfull!!!
I feel a bit better now, a few hours on having bawled my eyes out

.. My main thought now is what to do next.. although I'll have an another scan next week I know (!) there's little hope and even the midwife said that is looks bad since i had a positive pregnancy test jan 7th so there's no way im only 6 weeks along.
My next question to you all then is, what to do next? I hate the feeling of having to wait for 'nature to take its course' as i'd like to move on as soon as possible and not to walk around with this dead baby inside of me and to still feel pregnant but not being pregnant. Should i opt for the operation and are there any side effects? Anyone have any advice?