I found out at 9dpo last Friday that I was pregnant again after two miscarriages (August 12, 2008 @ 7w1d and February 9, 2009 @ 17w1d). I was absolutely over the moon and had all the symptoms during the last week. I was nauseous all the time, constipated, super duper hungry, extremely tired, boobs hurt, etc, etc.

I had a doctor's appointment yesterday, but left feeling less than positive. As a result, I thought I'd do another test this morning to make myself feel better. Unfortunately, it alerted me to the fact that my levels were almost undetectable on a FRER (I'm 17dpo today, so they should be). At 14dpo, I had a nice line on a FRER.

I haven't started bleeding yet but I've been spotting all day. I'm not bloated at all tonight like I had been. I haven't felt nauseous all day. My boobs don't hurt anymore. I've got cramps that are the same ones that I get when AF is coming.

All of that coupled with an almost invisible line on a FRER and a completely invisible line on at IC, I'm saying with 99% certainty that I am suffering another loss and am starting again.

That now means that we've been trying for almost 16 months, have had three losses (2 early and 1 late), and still have nothing to show for it.

I am not as upset this time as I was last time, but I was nowhere near as far along. I'm frustrated, disappointed, and angry at the world because it can be so unfair sometimes, but I know I'll get through it.

I'm a strong woman. I have a goal and I always get what I want. This won't be an exception.

There has to be something good come from any trying experience in a person's life. In this one, there have already been a couple things. I've seen yet another side of my hubby that I had yet to have the pleasure of seeing. He's been so incredible and protective of me. He makes me feel so supported and loved.

Secondly, I have a new resolve to not let any doctor tell me that this happens to many women. Only 1% of the population experiences three losses in a row. I'm absolutely sick of hearing that they happen all the time and that I should just keep trying. I've now hit the magic number --- 3 pregnancy losses. It's time that they did something about it and started some proper testing.

I haven't lost my perspective. Hubby and I are going to be fine. We're going to get there and we'll appreciate what we have with every ounce of our being when we do.

Thanks for listening.

jessa, i just came accross a post you made in another post and noticed your "don't know" and then stalked you over here... i am so frustrated for you that you are getting bfn's now after a bfp... its not fair!! i really hope you get an answer from your dr and get it sorted. big

Oh no hunni I really hope you are wrong and bubs is fine in there, I really do hope so.

It is "nice" to hear you sounding so positive and still determined though

I am here if you need me hunni x x x

I really hope your wrong jessa... try and stay positive! I am here if you need to talk. I hope Dr. Obrien can help you.

Oh Jessa, I'm so sorry.
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So sorry that you have to experience this again darling.
I know that your little one is wanting so desperately to be with you. Please do not let Doctors tell you this is common. It is not. No woman should have to wait until they have 3 losses in order to get help/assistance in getting pregnant. I'm sorry that they kept you from getting the help that you deserve to get your little one.


All the best...

life is just so crappy and unfair at times, really hope you manage to get the support you deserve from the dr's
take care of yourself
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im so sorry jessa, i really hope ur wrong tho, life can be so so cruel.
fingers crossed for you that bubs hangs on xxxxxxx

oh honey i don't no what to say, i am so so sorry i pray you are wrong, and think you are so amazingly brave you are in my thoughts sweetie xxx

You're right, don't take the doctors shite! They kept telling me it was bad luck! Was it fook, it took 5 MC's to discover my problem.

I'm so so sorry!



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