I think I'm having a miscarrige and I don't know where I belong anymore.
Can't be first tri, but it hasn't been confirmed by the doctor so theres a part of me in denial here too.

I had an internal examination today and she said the bleeding was coming from the neck of the womb and likely to be coming from the womb itself -so that was 'typical' of m/c but that my cervix and womb area wasn't tender or painful at all which isn't, so that was a 'positive'.

My mum found me shaking on the toilet with blood all over my hands and arms just staring at it and my OH has run out of boxer shorts since I've stained them all in a matter of 24 hours. The doctor/nurse any other Tom, Dick and Harry in a white coat was looking up me with the same night fishing torch my step-dad has in our shed and I can't get over how fast things can change in a day. My midwife called to arrange the first appointment yesterday and I was so excited.

I'm due an appointment at the early pregnancy unit on friday to have another blood test to see if my HCG levels have risen. Maybe a scan. But I know it's gone, theres too much blood. Its been a day and I've already been told I'm young and I can try again, I've also heard in the fog that is my brain "At least you weren't further along" and "It wasn't a baby it was an entity"

I can't write anymore, someones come in to take my washing and I want it back. I've lost my baby. I've had my legs akimbo and someone look up there with a torch and poke me with a phallyic shaped contraption to 'open my cervix'. I've really left my dignity at the door today and noones washing my bloody sheets and knickers but me.

Iam so sorry about your loss my heart is breaking for you i just wish i could tke your pain away hunny xxxx

no point me saying a word...you no my thoughts and feelings, xxxxxx

I am so sorry for what has happened. Fingers crossed that everything is still ok. Either way, I've found the ladies on this forum have been wonderful support.

Cat
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so sorry to hear about what you have had to go through... i hope and pray things go well for you when you get your HCG tested. xxx

I'm so sorry to hear about your bleeding

I just wanted to give you some much needed