Hi Elizabeth,
Just got your lovely little message in my journal and have popped by to read yours. I find mine very therapeutic and hope yours does you the world of good too. I think it will as there are so many folk with worse problems than your own ... or the same in fact ... that it makes you feel grateful for small mercies.
You would be right to concentrate on some positive aspects and compare it with the 'I hate' list:
1 It's true that you are both lovely and young with time on your side.
2 You have a wonderful relationship which I doubt will ever lead to you appearing on the Jeremy Kyle show.
3 Your bodies are perfectly normal and healthy putting you in the best position possible to conceive.
4 You actually have a job (which puts you in a better position when going for interviews for another job that you would prefer).
5 You have the ability to feel and are obviously a sensitive person, which means you have compassion, which is a very important ingredient of being a mother.
6 You have a wonderful mother yourself who lends you the right type of support and is someone you can turn to. (I doubt she will be on the Jeremy Kyle show either)
7 Weight is only a temporary problem and perhaps like millions of others you can't loose it on your own. Maybe Weight Watchers or another group would work for you and give you back your self worth. Stress can cause weight gain (it does with me), so when you start to loose a lb or two, your stress levels will decrease. You can do it, you just need to push a little bit harder and you will see results. Even a simple thing like drinking more water can work wonders so that's an easy, inexpensive thing you can try for starters.
8 You look lovely in your photo, so looks are on your side. Your babies will be really gorgeous.
9 You're in love and are loved just as much back.
10 Money is good, but I would prefer to have my health than money. You have good health and so does your husband.
11 You've already taken a right step in relieving the stress of obsessing and charting. This shows you have strength of character which means you can overcome any obstacle put in your way.
12 There are no obstacles, just lack of patience sometimes that overwhelms you and millions of other women. But we all carry on regardless and statistically, each month you try brings you closer to success.
Hope this list of positives helps you feel better.

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for your journal.