jacky24

CD10 and starting the bedathon tonight

Me and OH had our 3hour cry and fight last night, was horrible at first as me and OH never fight, as in ever....

Got all our feelings and emotions and thoughts out in the open, and now i now how OH feels and OH knows how i feel.

I trully miss CJ more than i will ever admit to, i miss feeling his wrigles inside me, and his kicks and just the amazing feeling of having a life grow inside me, i wish i have done alot of things diffrently and i wish i could turn back the hands of time.... BUT i can't i need to look forward and pray me and OH future holds many more amazing adventures and joys for us.

OH admitted he is so longing for a baby as well wich threw me off alot, i never knew he wanted it as much as me, and now we know both how much having a baby means to us, it will not change our marraige or our happyness neither our love but a baby can only give us more, love and happyness and i know deep down we deserve to have our precious gift from above...

Sorry long post today but this is my little outlet area each day and i know i can always come here and say exactly how i feel.

yaya

Hope this is yr month to get yr baby miracle Jacky. You two are going to make fantastic parents!

Yaya xxx

Suzanne

LMAO @ Bedathon!

I know there are times when you are really down hun! And times when you miss CJ so much but I absolutley love your positive outlook that always comes bouncing back!

celine

Awwww Im so glad u and dh could let it all out like that, it can only bring you closer

jacky24

Thanks hun, i am trully blessed to have him as a husband, believe me if i married any of the other frogs i would probably be in a mental instatution today

I feel the more we n talk about our feelings the less pressure there would be for that and now knowing he want's it just as much as i do

i see we are entering our bedathon hun

celine

Bedathon is so true Jax, Im hoping that if this was an olympic game, I wanna win!!

jacky24

Then i want to be snatching a GOLD in the twin swimming medly...

Or syncronized diving, as it is an art we shall be performing the next few days, and years of experience and years of love can make our dreams come true.....

What the hell are we going to do in the 2WW..... i need a hobby....... for now it is sex and watching the olympics.... oooo so you think you can dance starts tonight, yes as always south africa is behind you all.....

O did you hear about the boy that got beheaded at school yesterday morning at school, the school is across from my sisters street about 8houses away from her and 10km away from me... scary... he is claiming satan told him to kill the children..... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

celine

Oh my! That is terrible (the beheaded boy) very scary country at times

Jax Im hoping my hubby will get gold in scynchronized swimming :P

Im in holland so I only see so you think you can dance in dutch haha!

jacky24

In dutch

It is very close to afrikaans you should be able to figure it out... or not

Geen spreakend den duetch????

Sorry i know to many languages, i should stop as i always get myself into trouble, last year i arranged the visas for my directors to the world cup in france when SA won the world cup, and i spoke to the embassy french and my boss came in and i felt like such an idiot as i had to try and translate all his brochures when they came back...

I have confirmed, me and OH is having dinner with INLAWS yipppeee im so looking forward to that then so you think you can dance and ye well i can't go into to many details but we will be doing a dance of our own * boesman lambada*

celine

LOL @ boesman lambada ok now Im gonna have that song in my head the whole evening hehe

Hope dinner with inlaws goes ok *hugz*