So, I am pretty blank right now in terms of how I feel about this month. I just can not get hopeful anymore but by no means am I being negative, I am just going through the motions and have decided to just take things as they come.
I am finding it harder to deal with people who have children and I have no patience for stupid people with children. I am afraid I am becoming overly judgmental but it is true.
DH is really praying for this month because he hates moving and does not fancy the idea of moving cross country again at all (even though he sorely misses the east coast and would be totally happy once we were settled.)
If I DO get pregnant this month, I have no idea how I will react. I think I would just call Suz on the phone and cry. I don't even know how I am supposed to act. This is essentially year 9 of TTC since we first started trying in early 1999 and without a single
... geez...
So, anyway, I know I am just rambling but this is my journal so I guess it is okay if I do it here.
Gained another .4 lbs this week. I ate pretty good though but I have been on the steroids and Clomid this cycle and hitting the gym a lot so I will chalk it up to that since I am still losing inches. My size 13's are falling off my ass so I guess it is about time to try a smaller size.
I guess that is all for now.
