Alexandra

That's just proposterous and you know it!

Keep that pretty chin up!

genkigemini

Thanks, Honey. I have been feeling really dramatic lately so I guess it is showing. I know it is unlikely but it is a fear none the less.

Yesterday I totally had a when I read in the news about that man that killed his wife, 4 adorable children and then himself. I seriously cried. It is so damn frustrating. Sometimes I just want to freak the hell out. I looked at a male co-worker yesterday who is expecting his first baby next month (I threw the baby shower for his gf a few weeks ago who is also a co-worker) and said, "I don't really mean what I am about to say but I am going to say it anyway. If there is really a god why would he let such fucked up people have kids when good people can't." Then I started crying and Scottie gave me a hug. I have been so pathetic lately.

On a bright side, I only have about 5 weeks until my next appointment and I can try something different! YAY!

Capuru

genkigemini

So, Last night at work, I had a really long talk with my (VERY) pregnant friend Liz about TTC and how I am feeling and she listened without really talking too much and I honestly feel a lot better. She didn't say too much that everyone else doesn't say but maybe it was just how she didn't talk to me with pity but just with a "the world is so fucked up" attitude that I seemed to react better too.

Anyway, I am feeling a little better today. I told my husband that I was frustrated and down about TTC and he told me, "I can tell. Every time I try to get close to you, you push me away." So, I need to make a mental note to stop doing that. I do not mean to but sometimes I just get all stupid about things.

Overall, I have the next three days off of work. I am going to relax. Jump back on the TTC train and stayed excited about life and the baby DH and I will have in the future!

Phexia

Good luck sweety I hope you enjoy your days off work. Your OH sounds so great, I can tell by the way you talk about him that you two have a deep connection, you're very lucky

for your journey.

By the way .. is there no way you can go to the docs sooner than 5 weeks and just get the clomid already?

Alexandra

That's the spirit!!!

Samo

woohoo for a break from work and some relax time! Welcome back aboard the TTC wagon! We have punch and cookies... a punch to the face and some cookies for the munchies!

genkigemini

HAHAH! Thanks ladies.

So, I am feeling so much better. After my talk with Lizzie and then last night I spoke with another good friend Tanya so I am doing really good. I think I just needed to just vent for hours to someone or some people instead of just saying, "I'm fine. I'm fine. I'm fine." You know. I think after a while, you just have to let it all out and now I have and I am good.

I considered calling the doctor about getting on Clomid early but then I figured I would be a good patient and wait. Since my periods have not come at all since starting Metformin, they will have to give me that progesterone stuff so it kickstarts my cycles. I am a little nervous about that but oh well. It is all for the greater good! So, since there is more to it than just getting handed a pill, I will wait until the appointment. (Then I will be like, "WTH!" LOL)

Overall, I am happy, more relaxed and really to start BD-ing. (I just wish I knew if I was going to ovulate anytime soon... Doesn't seem very likey.) In a few and a half, it will have been 3 months since my last cycle. This is normal for me as I average 6-9 months a cycle but I was it now! :P

Thanks you all for helping me through my rough patch. ^_^ I love you all!

genkigemini

Just checking in...

Nothing new to report but my spirits are better about TTC so that is good news. Yesterday my bbs started tingling for like 30 seconds but who knows what that was about. LOL

Only one month til my next Dr's appt. WOOHOO!!!! Clomid here I come!

Samo

time is flying by!!! and ooo tingly bbs wonder what it could be

I started going out with one of DH's coworker's wife lately (now that i live closer to her, we've grown a bit closer) and i learned she's pretty much in the same situation you are. I felt like "i've heard this story before..." and it hit me that i've read all about it from you! She's been waiting on AF for 7 months now and it's been heck for her TTC. Couldn't help but think of you, Sarah Can't wait to hear good news from you when you go to your appointment

lots of extra !!