chefamy1122

Hey honey - sorry I have not been on my journal in a while (nothing new to really report!)
Nope- those ASSHOLES never did respond about the commercials. I am still glad that we sent emails. Even if they did not care, it still made me feel better!

chefamy1122

So.... I just sat down with a calender.... I am now on CD 159!!!!

chefamy1122

Well.. figured it was time to update the journal with .... well nothing

STILL no damn period... since June 27th.. how many days does that make me now?

I am looking into buying a book called the fertility diet. A friend of mine suggested it (the same friend I found on Facebook after several years that now is the mother 2 beautiful twins after her 2nd IVF) so I figured it can't hurt, right? I want to try to lose at least 10 lbs (honestly about 50, but trying to be realistic) or so before I go back to the fertility dr and he starts me back on all the injections. I am getting tired of waiting and want to do it NOW. I am tired of getting jealous over something I have no control over. I want it to be me announcing my

Soooo.. right now I am still just kinda hanging out waiting for SOMETHING to happen, getting my mind and body ready for all the fertility drugs. Getting the ovarian hyperstimulation so bad last time freaked me out a bit.

Okay this was pointless, but figured I would update my journal for anyone that cares to read.

miel

i care to read !

well i am the weight loss mood too...just weight myself and it's bad!!! just wnet from 158 pounds last year to 176 !!! devastating!!!

i wonder if this over year ttc thing took a toll on my mind and self inner so i let myself go ?
but anyway i decide i going to lose it so i can have everything i want a hot body and a hot BFP that will turn my body back to a 176 pounds in couples of month anyway !!!

good luck to you my friend

chefamy1122

I think you are on to something there!! I have found a lot of comfort in food this last year. I am right around the 176 pound mark myself .....probably more but I am scared to weigh myself, last time I weighed I was at 170 and I know I have gained some weight since then. I hate looking at myself in the mirror now, it really bums me out. After last weeks trip to the emergency room with my husband, I need to get serious about losing weight to help motivate him.....
Miel, I think if we both put our minds to it, we can lose the weight and be looking HOT! Then of course we will get our and get big and fat, but then we would actually be happy about being big and fat!

miel

i am already looking on making my own apple sauce and yogurt for snack at the shop....because you see for me at the shop i get bored and i go across the street and i will eat all big bag of m&nms no problemo !!!

looking into granola bar as well

i love to cook so if i cook my own stuff i won;t eat as fast either and savor each bite !!!

we have to be smoky smoky for the bfp!!! after who care !!! LOL!!!

miel

i bought my yogurt machine last night did the first batch last night vanilla flavor and i made the apple sauce too !!! yummy!!!

chefamy1122

oh yum that sounds good! Now I want vanilla yogurt.......