oh whyme
what you are feeling is completely natural and will eventually allow you to heal spiritually.
Keep strong and remember it WILL be your time again when you are both physically and mentally ready.

Hi there, I am so sorry for your loss.

I hope my story brings you hope. I am 42 in two weeks, and am 35 weeks pg with my second Daughter after a 9 year gap. In the last two years I have had 5 MC, the last one last Feb. I didn't give up, but just relaxed, ate well, took Agnus Castus every day, and half a baby asprin, it worked for me. I truly understand how you feel, feel free to pm me any time. Good luck.

Hi all, have just returned from a night in hospital. I started to bleed on Tuesday night, took the the first tablet for the induction yesterday am and started to miscarry at home last night at seven, two hours later, I was bleeding excessively and advised to get to Casualty ASAP, finally at 1.10 this am it was all over ( physically anyway), sadly the baby was the last to leave my body, with the help of the doctor. I am in pieces. The nurses and doctor were wonderful and stayed up talking to them til 3.15, (rather than be in the bed, dark and alone). Eventually I did sleep, but when I awoke, had this horrible feeling of emptiness. Scan this am shows my body has done its job ( I couldnt face seeing this empty scan), but the dark days seem to be looming ahead.
I asked the doctor all questions, why me, what did I do, what did baby look like . I asked was I too old - he said when you have your first hot flush, then you are too old, but until then, never - just take your time, grieve and you will both know when the time is right, there is no reason why you can't suceed next time.....

Keep strong! Thinking of you. It will happen, when the time is right, don't give up.