gaby

MIL told DH about a great job going that would pay enough for us to at least rent somewhere. He's excited about it, but thought the deadline was the 6th so has left filling out the application form until now. Honestly i dont know why he didnt do it earlier. Oh yes, i remember now... he's lazy as hell! When he left school it took him a YEAR to find a job, and then it was witha company that would accept anyone. I know i've been out of school months, but we only got back from my failed uni attempt in october and i have problems -_-

Anyway... When he told me the form didnt have to be in til the 6th i said "erm, no... the letter said the 3rd" so he looked at it and just went "huh, so it does" and goes back to playing sodding grand theft auto! I asked him why he doesnt just do it know rather than rushing it tomorrow and he said he's not up to it right now and needs to lose himself in a game. That's all he ever does! I'm so glad he's going back to work tomorrow. At least that way i dont have to watch him killing brain cells with that game. Yeah, i play games a lot and tend to stare at the computer all day, but at least i do interlectual stuff as well, like this forum and a trivia chat game i found. My brain cells are still being used.

In all honesty i guess i do want a degree, because i loved learning maths, but i hate the social side, i hate lecture style teaching and frankly i wouldnt last more than a week again if i tried to go to uni again. And i feel like crap everytime my dad says i wont be happy in a job without a degree, because he's right. But i dont want to have a job, i want to be a stay at home mum, but the damn government have made sure that's not possible anymore haven't they!

Damn it, i sometimes i still think dh would be better off if i just killed myself...

sorry. erm, yeah. just needed to rant a bit. I have no one to talk to except people online *Sigh* Wish i could find a job, i really do. DH snapped at me last week about how he has to go out to work while i stay at home playing on my laptop. But i'm so bored! I refresh the forum every 5 mins to see if any one has posted -_-' I feel like my a levels mean nothing now. Its like the ONLY reason to get them is to go to uni. No jobs even mention a levels. Its degree this, degree that, or for the really crap jobs they want gcses.

sorry if you bothered reading this.

Dippy Yvanne

awww hun its pk 2 have a rant on here hell im well known 4 it!!!

gaby

thanks

aw, now my tea's cold

Dippy Yvanne

get him 2 get off his butt n make u 1

gaby

meh. he's gone to bed now. i said that i'm not going up yet cause i'm waiting for the tumble dryer to finish, but really its cause otherwise he'll notice i'm upset and then i'll go all insane and we'll have some huge 2 hr long argument. -_- If he asked me why i'm upset i tend to go into "zombie" mode you see, and totally ignor him, which just makes things worse. This way only i'll be upset.

Dippy Yvanne

men are unable to think!!! well unless it is about themselves of course

Arcanegirl

Gaby
Its how men are! Rob was looking for a job for almost a year before he found anything. I managed to find a job before he did and used it as leverage to get him to try harder by saying that it wasnt fair on me to pay all the bills, hes now found a job

Is there nothing you could do as a basic job to start off with? I only have GCSE's and for now i dont have any intention of doing college as i want to work my way up the ranks where i am.

KX

I don't have a degree, and couldn't be arsed getting one, I have my GCSE's and A Levels and Im in what people describe as a "good job" but I'm still not happy.

Life sucks

gaby

There's just no jobs around here that dont require experince Except call center type things, but i couldn't do that because i HATE it when ppl phone up trying to sell stuff / with a "curtesy" call. I really want to do accountancy but that's still 3 yrs of learning. It would be ok if i did the vocational version of it, but no companies around here want to take on a trainee unless they're already qualified or soon to be qualified. Plus there's part of me that keeps wanting to not have a job because i am seriously petrified of dealing with people. I have about 5 things that urgently need sorting out by phone but i go over conversations in my head before i have them and then start worrying i'm gonna sound stupid or not take in what the other person's saying. If DH tries to encourage me to make a call or go out to do something that needs doing i start to cry. I'm so pathetic. I had councelling when i was 16 and they told me i have anxiety, but i stopped going after 3 sessions cause my mum didnt like me going. And she wouldn't have even known about it if my damn doctor hadnt broken my confidentiality by writing my parents a letter! Oh well. DH thinks i ought to go to councelling again, but of course my anxiety's got so bad now i'm petrified of doing that


We're so lucky we have no bills to pay. If FIL wasn't so nice to us we'd never afford to actually live.

KX

When u have a bambino you have to deal will loads of people. Its hell