well, it's 2:15am and I cannot sleep. I have to get up at 6:30, and I know if I go to sleep now I will never hear the alarm anyway. Besides that I cannot get to sleep. I guess I have too many things on my mind and nobody to talk to about them, especially when they are about my boyfriend.
the thing is, we are so broke, and I know everyone says that this time of year. But I mean it. My BF spent all our money on christmas presents for his family, then we went and overdrew my bank account by 200 dollars, and all of that is going on his family except the 45 dollars I am allowed to spend on mine. I may sound bitchy, but his family doesn't even deserve it. THey are stingy, spoiled people.
I didn't get to spend but 10$ on my mom and she does so much for us. She offers us a place to live for FREE, with no bills etc; she got us nice stuff for christmas, she is spending 800$ on a brand new stove and refridgerator for our new place, she is spending 350$ on the bedding that I wanted for Colton's room so that we dont have to buy it, and she is making his scrap book (which she has already spend 150+ on and she isn't even half done).
However, Jamie spent 40+ dollars on just his mom, who makes us pay half the bills because her sorry ass (excuse me) boyfriend wont help her do anything, told us we could give her 75$ for her 93934802 year old stove, and considers her baby present fixing up a room for him in her house!?
Then his mom kept saying we needed to buy a christmas present for her boyfriend, who is a sorry ass worthless .... uuuuuhhhhh!!! He isn't buying anything for anyone anyways, he isn't even buying anything for HER! He even said that to her face. Like, this morning he was bitching (which woke me up) for over 4 hours about how he only got 100$ for a christmas bonus at work. WHAT THE FUCK?! Nobody else in this house got ANYTHING and you dont hear them bitching. It's not like he is buying presents, which is what a CHRISTMAS bonus is for, he is just pocketing it. so what the fuck does it matter?!

Anywaysss, sorry for ranting so much, and all the cussing. I just get so aggravated. It's like my family tries so hard for us to help us, and Jamie just doesn't care. His family is always first and all they do is care about themselves. I cannot get my family anything good for christmas, I was lucky to be able to spend 40 dollars on my mom, step dad, and three brothers; however he got 200 dollars to spend on his family.

See.. there I go again.. starting to rant. Then I start to get all emotional, and cry like a baby. I'm done.

OH March I am sooo sorry you are having such a hard time. It sounds like the apple didn't fall far from the tree with your boyfriend's behavior. I wished I had some kinda of solution for this but I don't.

Oh sweetie i dunno what to say

OH, I am so sorry to hear you are having such a rough time. This time of the year is always stressful, regardless of the additional stressors. I understand about what you mean, our finances are really, really tight and the gifts will be few this year. I agree with the PP about the about not falling far from the tree. You are really going to have to put your foot down with your BF and his controlling ways.

Big hugs to you,