Well because i've been home sick I guess i've had some time to think about everything. This pregnancy, our financial situation and the future.
I'm feeling quite stressed out about it and thats probably why I got sick. Ok i'm going on a rant..

My OH is self employed and works in the contrsuction industry. He hasn't gotten any big basement development jobs in a while and we are falling behind in everything. HIs work got slow and our rent is due on the 1st of every month. We have no money...The money I make isn't enough. I use it for my own personal debts and buying pet supplies and gas etc. Paycheques are 500 dollars if Im lucky. And I'm working my ass off now at my job and I can't take on any more hours or i'll work myself sick. I can't do that with a baby inside of me.

Im just stressed because we never have money for anything. All the money he makes goes towards bills and rent. We are still waiting to hear back if we are pre-approved for a mortgage which I highly doubt we are. We really want to get a place of our own so that I can actually start putting together a nursery for our baby. We only have 2 bedrooms in this house. One for us and the other for his daughters. I want to rent closer to my parents but we can't save up the money for a first months rent or damage deposit!!!
I just feel like we're stuck in this rutt and have been since we moved into this stupid house. And I feel guilty because before I moved in my OH only paid 800 a month to rent and he used to have money. Now it feels like we have nothing ANd now there's a baby on the way. I feel like i've burdened him.

I really don't want to bring this baby into this kind of life. I want to be stable and well settled. We weren't prepared for this. And I kind of just wish that the OH would get a job with a wel established construction company so that we can have a steady income and he can actually have taxable income. I hate guessing all the time and not knowing from one month to the next if we're going to make it... It's starting to take a toll on our relationship too because we arn't happy and hes always stressed out. I just don't know what to do

End rant. THanks to anyone who takes the time to read this. I just need to vent...

Sorry to hear that your going through a stressfull period,When i had my first son my DH and I were poor and living in a 2 bedroom box of an apartment,was soo small.I know how you feel,we did the best we could and managed somehow.Don't let it control your relationship,and try not to worry too much(I know easier said then done),concentrate on what is good in your life and hopefully things will turn around soon.

Sorry to see your feeling low. Bills come first thats the first thing and taking care of yourself.You have a roof over your head? and bubs will be in your room for a while so you have the essentials to buy for if your careful and not stressing you will do this Is there any way family could help towards the baby things maybe by suggesting to them whet they could buy? Most families love buying for the baby but its a bonus if its something you could really use? maybe consider this?

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