Here i come with my tail between my legs

I have been wanting to pst all day but i just keep thinking that you will all be mad at me. I have tried other forums but none are as friendly or feel the same as this one. Last night as i was typing my goodbye post, i new i would regret it but at the time i felt so low and i just wanted to have all my close links with people pushed away and out of my life. I know it sounds childish but i thought if i did that i cant get hurt. I even pushed my family away. I guess that is the little girl coming out.

I have been feeling down for week and have even considered harming my self. But then i look at Aidan and think how selfish am I. I am thinking about making my child motherless and not being greatfull for what i have a beautiful healthy baby boy that a lot of people would kill for. I rang my health visitor today as my mum said i really needed to and she said it sounds like it's PND but she will come round on Wednesday and have a chat about my options. Why am i depressed, i don't understand, I have no need to be!! I know the events of the last week have affected me but that's not really a major issue and i have no other reason to be depressed But i am. I mean come on heather GET A GRIP. I keep telling my self to pull myself together and stop being so silly but i cant

And then i go and make it all worse by throwing the one outlet i have and the one place i can be myself and have kind people to talk to and that you lot and this forum. I mean stupid or what!!

I just hope you accept me back
xx

Glad you spoke to the HV hun. You know we are all here for you.

Of course we do, welcome back

of course you can come back silly we arent mad at you,

pnd cant be helped love, its just something that happens so dont start asking your self why, it just a rush of hormones, and until they settle down, you may feel like this. but we are here always and if you need to pm i dont mind. one thing im glad about you said you wanted to self harm yourself, you are 1 step closer to getting on top of this deppression because you admitted to your self that it would be selfish to leave LO motherless, well done hun. and also you have addmitted to your self that you have pnd and youve got your self some help, most new mums wont admit and it never goes, h/v will hlp you sooo much and we will tooo. welcome back hun. xxxx

hi hun
course your welcome back if you ever need some one to talk to then just msg me as we have things in common we both have gorgeous sons who were born days apart and were simular ages hope you ok

Welcome back. Glad you are looking for some help, with what could be depression.

mwah of course u can come back... xxxxxxxxxxxxx

AWw sorry to hear you are down, not spoken to you before but hope your chat with HV goes well! x

Glad your back! Hope you feel better soon. xx

Glad you are back hun, we are all here to listen and offer advice or just listen if that's what you want no matter how good or bad things are......that is what is great about her, people don't ignore or run when things go from rosy to bad. I am glad you came back and hope that the next few weeks things start to turn around for you xxx