Right you woman I have said this to you on the phone & I’m going to say it now that you are in NO WAY to blame for this. I can’t imagine or pretend to know how you are feeling all I know is I am gutted for you hun that you are going through this shit in the first place.
You in the safest of places for the care you need for you & bump even for Maddie & Gav – you will get through this.
You’re not useless – you have to make yourself better that’s all.
You could not have prevented this, you weren’t in control & you were NOT to blame … Being incapable of looking after Maddie isn’t really the right word sweetie your VERY capable of being a Mummy, you have such a happy smiling daughter she’s a little gem to have (bar at 5am

lol) your just a little poorly at the moment .... that has no reflection on your parenting abilities.
As for sick of hearing you whine I don’t think anyone would not understand that you want to let off a bit of how you are feeling – an you should babe

If listening helps then I’m 100% sure everyone here is happy to.