Lyrah

I've realized lately that I suffer from paranoia very, very badly.

It's starting to take control of my life. I'm paranoid of what people think of me, if people are laughing at me, if people think I look horrible, if I say the wrong thing to someone, if someone stops talking to me I'm worried I've annoyed them, if someone blanks me I'm worried they don't like me.

Everything possible. It's got to the point where it's really stupid now.. and I'm really fed up of it. I haven't told anyone about it at all but my OH knows that I'm like it. If someone hurts me a lot, my OH wants me to get them out of my life, but I end up feeling guilty for it, even though I've done nothing wrong.. and then I get paranoid that I'm a complete bitch and everybody hates me.

Please help someone.. I really don't know what to do.

Mynxie

maybe you could see your GP about referring you to a counsellor?

Chris77

Yeah I agree with Mynxie. See if your GP can refer you to a counselor. Other than that, I really don't have any other advice. Has this just started recently or have you always been this way and it's just recently got worse?

Lyrah

I think I've always been slightly paranoid.. I know that I've always been a worrier and I panic about the tiniest things and I get myself worked up into a state. Lately though, it's got really awful. I feel very embarrased about going to my drs about it.. not too sure why. I had counsilling when I was 12 and 13 years old and I had a bad experience of it, the person actually made me worse. But I may give it a go.

enigma

The important thing is, you have realised that something isent right, and you want to make it change. Well done you, its really hard to pin point our own insecurities.
I agree that you should go see a councillor, it helps to talk about the stuff thats floating around in your head, you start to see it differently once you have heard your self say it.
Good luck hun.

Chris77

I agree with Enigma that at least you've realized something isn't right. That's a huge piece right there. I know how you feel about being hesitant to going back to therapy after a bad experience. I've had bad experiences with therapists as well until I finally found one I loved and I stayed with her for 7years. So, definitely give it another shot! Good luck!