I'm so sick of leaving eva to go to work. i only do 2 1/2 days but i just want to stay with her all the time. she has been poorly since thurs with temperatures and stuff so i stayed off today but now i have to work tomorrow, wed and thurs to make up for it.

I said give mama a kiss to her the other day and she went to kiss my mam I miss her and I wish i could stay home with her again. I've only been back at work since August.

DH said after we have our next baby I can leave work, but that feels like a lifetime away.

Anyone else in the same boat? xx

Im working in a restaurant and only do the odd day shifts, I usually work the evenings when Ella goes to bed so its not too bad from that point of view, but I never have time with OH never have the evenings to relax anymore! I want to get a day time job for that reason, but at the same time I love spending my days with Ella, so I dont know what to do at the moment, its horrible isnt it!

dont, im starting to dread going back

i go back in may but its coming rund so fast, nursery is all sorted etc. im going to miss them so much.
my life is being a mum and thats all i want i dont want to leave them. but i have too. i just hope they dont miss me. i can cope but ild hate to think they were upset

do you both have to work? financially I mean?

I think we'd be ok if I left but we would be skint and just have enough to get by, rather than having enough for the odd takeaway etc. I only do 17.5 hours but it does help take the stress off financially. I would rather be skint and be with eva though i really would.

I hate leaving jamie, somedays i burst into tears coz ive missed him so much ! i work 12.5 hour shifts 3 days a week, (7.30am-8pm) so if my days are all in a row i dont see him for 3 days !

It's so awful isn't it on a monday and a wednesday I get in at 6.15pm ish and she goes to bed at 7pm. It sucks!

same here, i go to work at 7 and hes usually still asleep, then get home at 8.30pm and hes gone to bed ! my training ends in august so hopefully i can get something part time when i finish!

what are you training are you doing if you don't mind me asking? x

Its my nurse training Vic, its a full time course so 37.5 hours a week. The ward im on at the minute only do long days but im only there for another 3 weeks so not too bad! i go on then to the day surgery unit , start there in march for 6 months then im finished ! so i keep telling myself i havent got long and should stick with it ! but have been tempted many times to gove it all up and get a part time job !
Just feel like ive been training for ever ! its a 3 year course but i took a year out when i had jamie then went back to it when he was nearly a year old.

Sorry waffled on as usual !!

What is it you do Vic?

I'm in customer services. It's ok but when I've had my second and they are in nursery/school I'm going to do some courses and look into other jobs I think.

Stick it out and you'll get there soon! are you planning any more kids? oh i think i've just seen you post winter time for trying? xx