Suz

Ok....I am not trying to be the downer of BnB history. I am not trying to be a MindyK.

I am just so losing it. Please note that I am on my second bottle of wine.....But I feel that this post is needed for my sanity. As I have posted in the Girly area, I have been going through some major personal issues. At this point I feel that I am about to break. I just dont know how much more I can take.


In September I lost someone to Overian Cancer. That was a 2 year battle. Just recently I learned that My Best Friend has Termanal Colan Cancer.

My Mother-in-Law was arrested of a Feloney.....(Bogus Charge that we will Fight) I posted the bail and am resposable for her going to court.

Now my husband and I are trying to make a family.

I just found out that I have a virus that is linked to cervical cancer. I go in for a Coloscopy on December 14th.

Here is the POINT BREAK FOR MY SANITY. I AM SO FUCKING LOOSING IT. (Sorry for the F word)

My husband and I went to his doctors apointment today...... They found a Heart murmur. They have refured us to a heart doctor. We need to run tests. They think my husband may have a hole in his heart.

WHAT THE FUCK.. THIS IS MY FUCKEN HUSBAND WE ARE TALKNING ABOUT....WHY.
WHY
WHY
HE IS MY FUCKING ROCK.
I LOVE HIM SO FUCKING MUCH
I CANT TAKE THIS
WHY HIM
WHY NOT ME
THIS IS SO NOT RIGHT
THIS IS MY HEART WE ARE TALKING ABOUT
MY LOVE
MY LIFE
WHAT THE FUCK


I NEED HELP HERE
I DONT THINK I CAN DEAL WITH THIS
I MAY BE ABLE TO DEAL WITH CERVICAL CANCER
BUT NOT MY HUSBAND BEING SICK TOO
THIS IS SO NOT RIGHT.


IM SO SORRY FOR THIS POST. WE ARE VERY QUIET PEOPLE AND THIS IS THE ONLY PLACE FOR ME TO SPEAK.

We had lab work done today. And we go see the heart doctor on the 15th. THE FUCKEN DAY AFTER WE SEE IF I HAVE CERVICAL CANCER. and to top it off the same FUCKEN week we go to court for his FUCKEN MOTHER.

AAAARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGG!!!!!!!!

Jo

I'm so sorry hun, for all the shit you are going through
I can't imagine how hard it is for you

I don't have any advice except take one day at a time

we are here for you with loads of hugs and love

loulou1980

oh suz

KX

Suz we are all here for you hun

vicky

aww suz so sorry hunny

Dippy Yvanne

suz we are all here 4 u

Cat

Aw hun this is so awfull for you, I know they say bad luck comes in threes but this is taking the piss!

I dont really know much on the topic but I believe that many people can carry on like normal with a heart murmer and if your husband has been fine so far, there is nothing to say this will cause a prolem for him. The tests are prob more of a check to see if their is any major problem. Aparently 1 in 100 are born with congenital heart defects, which may be picked up on early in life, or go undetected untill a lot later in life, so try to take some comfort in the fact this is relativly common, and may well not be a cause for major concern.

I read your post before with regards to your abnormal cells coming up on your smear test, and again, I cant imagine how scarey this must be for you, but I know a lot of people who have had the same thing, it doesnt mean you have cancer, and by identifying the cancer causing cells early they can treat you to prevent you getting cervical cancer in the future.

I know it must be hard hearing all these bad things at once, you must feel like everything is falling apart, but you have to try to stay positive, you will get through this, and you have the support of all of us here if ever you feel like you need someone to talk too.

Big hugs and go and eat a big bar of chocolate!

Iwantone!!!

OMG HUNNY WHAT A SHIT WEEK KEEP UR CHIN UP

Wobbles

Quoting Cat:
"I know it must be hard hearing all these bad things at once, you must feel like everything is falling apart, but you have to try to stay positive, you will get through this, and you have the support of all of us here if ever you feel like you need someone to talk too."

Suz I second what Cat has said sweety & I am thinking about you so much I read this when I got up & I felt so gutted for you I didn't know how to reply! Here as much as you need us to be & as much as we can!

x x x

ImTheDaddy