This sounds so silly and I should be thankful for what I have. I am thankful but I always feel so lonely around this time of year. Dunno why! Christmas always makes me sad. Most of my childhood christmases have been full of stress. Mom gets pissed, causes arguments.. fights break out.. etc etc.. its been a regular thing. Hence why the tension is still with me even now I dont even live at home and I end up somehow taking that out on my OH. I just want one of those christmas times that you see on the tv - happy families. they prob dont exist? hehe!! XXX I have so many things buzzin round my head that make me wanna cry.. all the christmas songs are so sad (lol - emotional wreck aint I?!). I do love christmas but be glad when its over. bah humbug!