Why is the weight of the world always feel like its on my shoulder?

some of u may have seen my thread about my awful tw@t of a boss and how he was screwing me over well that continues hes decided to pay me my owed holiday from when i was only able to work 20 hours a week as he was the main cause of my depression, so now im broke and have no money to pay zanes nursery

ive got a new job so yay i start next week but to be able to work i need zane in a nursery so i need to find £600 i havent got tax credits yet as other crap was going on at the time so i cudnt apply.I also have to travel 2 hours there and back on the bus along with gettin me n zane ready thrn takin him to nursery b4 i go to work!!!!

now my oh is acting like a prat and i need space from zane as i can feel my depression coming back and i dont want to take anything out on zane, oh hardly helps with zane and when he does i have to scream at him to do so.

are car is broke (we live middle of knowwhere n i cant drive) im just feeling trapped and unhappy

Hun I wish you had told me what was going on, if you had a passport hon, I'd pay for you and Zane to come here *hugs*

its all built up and im just starting to explode! the car is costin so much he expects me to get a loan for him! im just tryin to figure out away to pay zanes nursery and my bus until i get my wage thru then things would be gettin better. oh is just starting to really get to me

*hugs* its a shame the nursery wouldn't give you a little bit of time to pay them off

all the nurseries ive seen need the payment upfront for a month i could pay week by week but they wont do it! i think iam guna apply for a loan im just sick of it all being me!

*hugs*, what about an au pair? they seem cheaper then a nursery, thats the route we are going down.

i wanted to but havent found any in this area

hope you feel better soon hun