Feeling insecure and down (long post, sorry)

Hello all. I haven't felt like myself for quite some time now. Since having my son I have been in and out of the hospital due to gall bladder problems. I just recently had my gall bladder taken out (had some complications) and hopefully on the road to recovery now. I still can't work out or lift more than 10 pounds and have been instructed to take it easy (I still do more than I probably should) :blush:. I see my doctors next week to see if I get a clean bill of health (crossing my fingers). I have been instructed to be on a low-fat diet for about a month now and have been eating lots of grilled chicken, deli sandwiches and Subway. I wasn't allowed to eat greasy or fatty foods because it would've hurt me (and still can).

With all this going on, I still haven't lost weight, except for these past 3 days that I've been on a clear liquid diet and I could tell a (very) slight difference. Today I get to start back on solids but have to stay on a low-fat diet for a couple of weeks. I have been medicated, proded and poked and I'm just tired of it all. :growlmad: I just want to go back to normal, eat a healthy diet and be able to excercise for once. I hate my body, I don't feel attractive and I think having to go 12 hours to 24 hours at a time without breast feeding has messed up my schedule (due to anestetic, sp?).

Sorry for such a long post but I have been through a lot in the past month (especially just this past weekend). I have even smoked 4 or 5 cigarrettes in the past 3 weeks because I feel stressed. Everyone has said that breast feeding would aid in weight loss (just help, not work miracles), but in my case, it hasn't helped at all. If anything, I think it is making me gain weight. I haven't even had a period either and don't know if I will ever get one. Again, sorry for the moan, but I'm just feeling down and out about myself. Thanks for reading if you read this far.

I'm sorry you're feeling so rubbish. At least maybe the worst is over? I'm not surprised not being able to breastfeed for that long has messed up your schedule but hopefully now it'll reinstate yourself. Anyway I didn't want to read and run :hugs:

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I'm going through the feeling like crap stuff right now, too. My naturopath told me that pregnancy reaks havoc on your gall bladder and liver. She has me on some supplements to get them cleaned out. BF has not helped me lose weight at all, some people won't. Sometimes your body holds onto the extra weight so you don't starve. Something you might want to try while you are on the all liquid diet. I did it for PP depression and it worked wonders. I drank and ate nothing but raw apple juice and raw apples for 2 days. The end of the second day you drink the juice of 1 lemon, 1/2 grapefruit and 1 C. Olive Oil. After your body processes that you go to the bathroom and I swear to God, you feel like a whole new person!!

:hugs: Be patient with your body, you've been through a lot. It took you 9 months to put it off, it's going to take 9 months to take it off.

I'm sorry you are having such a hard time. I'm going through the feeling like crap stuff right now, too. My naturopath told me that pregnancy reaks havoc on your gall bladder and liver. She has me on some supplements to get them cleaned out. BF has not helped me lose weight at all, some people won't. Sometimes your body holds onto the extra weight so you don't starve. Something you might want to try while you are on the all liquid diet. I did it for PP depression and it worked wonders. I drank and ate nothing but raw apple juice and raw apples for 2 days. The end of the second day you drink the juice of 1 lemon, 1/2 grapefruit and 1 C. Olive Oil. After your body processes that you go to the bathroom and I swear to God, you feel like a whole new person!!

:hugs: Be patient with your body, you've been through a lot. It took you 9 months to put it off, it's going to take 9 months to take it off.

Thank you for posting. I'm no longer on the liquid diet (thank goodness), I finally got to switch to solids today (but have to keep it bland for a couple of days, otherwise I would have tried this. I don't know if I would have the discipline to do this now that I can eat again. My husband may even be interested in this. I know it takes time, but it just seems like my health keeps getting in the way of me getting back into a work out routine. Pregnancy did a number on me. I guess I just have to be patient. Sorry to hear about your pp, that would be so hard, hope you are getting better.

Awww, hun.. you've been through hell. :hugs: hope you feel better soon, x

:hug::hug: Aww honey, I hope you feel better soon!

Everyone has said that breast feeding would aid in weight loss (just help, not work miracles), but in my case, it hasn't helped at all. If anything, I think it is making me gain weight. .[/QUOTE]

:hug: hun i do hope you feel better soon.

i agree with the breast feeding bit - i don't think it helps weight loss either (well, in my case it hasn't). i actually think it is making me hold onto weight. i am eating really healthy and expressing loads of breast milk - so you would think a weight loss would happen - nope. i lost loads in my first week (about 2 stone) but i was carrying LOADS of fluid. since then i have just stuck. it is very depressing!

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Christine
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