The chronicles of Angelmarie ttc ;)

I thought I would start a diary of our journey to baby #2.

I already have a 5 year old son and we decided we would try for number 2.
I had a Mirena coil fitted for just over three years which I had removed May 08 2007. My cycle has been completely muddled having only had 4 periods over the course of 14 months. I finally got :bfp: but then began to spot. I was booked in for an early scan on the 7th. I was up at 6am that morning with cramps and heavy bleeding. The scan confirmed that I ad miscarried. :cry::cry::cry:

We are going to try again straight away - its a relief to know that we can actually conceive as we were booked in to see a specialist this month!

My miscarriage has been particularly hard as my sister in law is, as we speak, in labour with a little girl!!! I have tried so desperately to try to remain focussed and happy for her but selfishly I keep feeling so jealous. Ive been rushing around buying baby clothes and hospital stuff and none of its for me. Its been hard and I have been feeling very down about it :cry:

With a bit of luck we will strike lucky soon. Keep your fingers crossed for me!!!

:dust: for all you lovely ladies!!! xXx

Big :hug: try not to feel down, it will be your turn in good time!

does your sil know about your miscarriage, as i'm sure she will understand how your feeling.

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Hi :hi: Welcome to the journals! Good Luck! :dust:

Thanks for your words, girls :)

Littlestar: Yes, my SIL did know about my miscarriage but it all got put into perspective when my SIL had to have a caesarian and her little girl was stillborn at 38 weeks!!! :cry::cry::cry:
I was (am!) so incredibly angry with myself that I even felt the slightest bit jealous of her! How could I be so terrible? I mean, I guess jealous is a strong word - I just felt all sad that I was not buying stuff for our little one as well as her... and then this terrible thing happens. It certianly put what I went through into perspective.

We have since seen a specialist who basically 'fobbed' us off for 6 months as we have obvioulsy proved we can get pregnant and there is a high chance we can do it again (fingers crossed). SO its back to the drawing board (or the bedroom! ;) ) Hurumph - this is nearly 16 months of waiting.

Up til now I have totally sat back and let nature do its thing but not now... I have become OBSESSED with charts and OPKs and cervix positions! :rofl: Im CD18 now and no signs of anything yet! Grrrr

Its just quite frustrating that DS was such a surprise! ANd this time things are proving so difficult!!!

Oh well - all we can do is keep trying eh?!?! *sigh*

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good luck in your ttc journey!

:hug: sounds like your both having a rough ride at the moment

Sorry to hear about your loss and that of your SIL's, it must have been really hard on you two :(

Hopefully you will get your :bfp: this cycle :)

Love,
Amy.