Maccys TTC Journal

OK I am starting this so that next month I can look back and say yes I have that symptom before and not keep freaking out and getting all excited that I could be pregnant. :rofl: only to be let down 2 weeks later.

Well it's been 3 months and 2 days since my miscarriage and I feel so much better emotionally and my body has returned to normal (well is there such a thing) Since the m/c I seem to be having 31-32 day cycles and the next one is due Aug 22nd.

This month I think I have failed in my quest cause I tested using the cheap op's and got nothing last Mon then a faint line on Tues, we got down to the Baby Dance when we were interupted by telephone for OH, long conversation later I fell asleep ...whoops!!! But I thought that as it a faint line I still had time to catch. Wed took another cheapie still the same strength in the line, but hubby was not around that night so that was that night out. Thurs I tested and the line has just about vanished, Oh couldn't see any trace of it, I majorly panicked and said that we had to BD right away, so we did.

So to remind myself we BD'd Sat (no line present...just for fun) then Tues and Wed got faint line and Thurs Bd'd.

So Mon 11th 3 days after the BD'ing felt twinges in tummy and tingling boobs with the odd shooting pain. I am putting this down to ovulation pains.

Tues 12th felt totally exhausted last night really sore boobs although not enlarged or swollen. Had a bath cause just felt generally crappy!

In bed was very very very hot, even hubby said I was like radiator, window wide open too?

My opinion I am coming down with something.

Wed 13th Hot flushes, pains in my kidneys, breasts still tender, tired. Also lots of creamy cm past couple of days too and on weekend def weeing more although not now.

This is good should have done one of these last month, then I would have been able to look back...silly me!!!

Welcome to the journals hun :hi: I hope you get your :bfp: this month!

Thank you glad I'm doing one now as I'm always imagining preg symptoms. lol

HIIIIIIII!!!!

Just passing by and thought Id drop by. Lovely to see you here!

Heres some lucky :dust: :dust: :dust:

Don't rule yourself out just yet hun as you never know!!

:hug: Kerry

P.S You should drop by the BAW club sticky and say hello!

Thurs 14th.

Had some twinges in my lower back this morning, feels like when u pull a muscle.

Cried last night to hubby, very emotional yesterday, even cried watching Laguna Beach...WTF!!!

Also cried this morning cause found out friend is pregnant, but she is the most deserved person ever, two years of trying. Just happy tears and can't wait to be pregnant with her.

Blocked nose this morning too although I always get that.

Feeling a bit desperate this month cause I really think that I have missed it and it feels so long before you can try again next month I know it's not just feels that way.

Ok so it's Thurs 14 pm and I feel crappy, boobs hurting, I have a 'heavy back' and feeling crampy in my stomach, has some stretchy, slippery (tmi) white mucus today too, is that normal, gonna search and find out.

Friday 15th, strong strong feeling that I am not pregnant u always have that glimmer of hope I suppose but with my last 2 pregnancies I knew like 4 days after ovulation so I am planning next month already!!!

Sat 16th

Got Spots and greasy head, weird!!! But then my skin does sometimes get bad around AF.
Feeling sick this morning but I sometimes get that anyway...need some sugar!

Ordered some 10miu cheapies from Ebay as all mine have nearly gone now, I have has them for months though...yay me!!

Can't believe this wait it seems unbearable, and I'm pretty sure that I'll hav to go through it again next month.....unfair!

Symptoms sound good honey - do you temp or chart? sometimes helps with working out your timings etc xx

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No don't do it, maybe I should start, seems complicated though.

Had my tests through this morning and couldn't resist, BFN though, I know it's still early but you know what it's like when you see those tests. lol

Hi Maccy

Sorry you got a :bfn: but as you know yourself its still too early yet!!! We'll get our :bfp:'s!!!! :dust::dust:.

There are a few of us testing on the 21st if you fancy joining our little cycle buddy thread. its the 24th July one. We already have had our first :bfp: of the group so hoping we have a 100% success rate.

Not long left now until we can :test:. Are you going to :test: on the 21st or are you going to give in to temptation :rofl:

This cycle I started using OPK's and I found it really fun, its also great when you see the double lines. Although it would be better to see the lines on a HPT instead.

Hope you have a wicked weekend

Kerryxxx

Ah Thanks hun, I know I shouldn't have tested but couldn't resist the temptation ya know?

I'll pop in on that thread and have a look.

Hope to see you there!!

I fear that the witch is on route, craving for the sweet stuff and moody, she'll be here by the end of the week.

Ok Feeling more positive today, 99.9% sure that it's not my month, so focusing on Sep, gonna drop a bit of weight in next few weeks, hopefully start new job and get that BFP!!!! I will have a bump by Christmas I am determined to!

My baby that I lost in May would have been due Dec 3rd, so I thought I would have had it by Christmas so need the bump to get me though it.

Off to take LO to the cinema in a bit, in all this rain what can you do?

Nice to see you looking so positive about TTC!! Yey! :happydance:

I know what you mean about having a bump by xmas. Even if it is just a lickle one. I was due 17th Dec ish. It will be hard if Im not pregnant by then. But we'll get there, youre armed and ready. Although you may not need to use the pre-seed and OPK's. Have you used PP's lucky HPT?

No not yet it's a digi so I am keeping it till i get a positive on the cheapies. lol

Tested yesterday and BFN !!!!

Ah well I knew that was the case anyway, I will catch that bloody egg next month!!!

PMA!!!

Hi Maccy, just thought I'd drop by and thank you for popping by my journal and see where you are up to on this whole ttc rollercoaster. Sorry for your loss, I can understand exactly why you would want a BFP by Dec, really hope you get one asap.

All the very best of luck....x.

Hi Newbie thanks for popping in, nice to have some more friends on here, alot of the girls I m.c with have now moved on to the 1st trimester.

Hiya

Sorry about the :bfn: today. Its soo hard even when you know what the result will be part of you is hoping and praying that you might be wrong.

Thanks for popping by my journal. If the worst happens and we dont get our :bfp:'s we can enjoy a whole new cycle of fun and frolics together!!

Fingers crossed we can go to 1st Trimester together!!! :dust:

Well the :witch: has got me...gutted :cry: but now at least I can get on with next months trying 3 days sooner.

Such a bad head today I knew she was on her way, now I am keeping her with me girls..stay away from the others evil one!

Maccy - Sorry she got you..... However I think that with your supplies you should get your :bfp:!!! :hug:

Hope so hun!
Feel ok today though, seems like there were quite a few BFP yesterday too...yay!!!
I am away all weekend so at least I can have a little drinky!!

When you gonna poas Kerry?

hi...:wave:

Sorry she got you! :witch: but as you say you can now get all geared up for september! good luck - fingers, toes, eyes (everything) crossed for you september.

Sorry for your loss.

h x

Maccy - Im going to try not too!! I would rather face the :witch: than a :bfn: iykwim. I'll let you know how long I can hold out for!! Ive you heard much from PP?? I keep trying to keep tabs on her but I dont think shes been on much. Where are going for the weekend??? I would get very very :drunk: if I were you because you wont be drinking at all very soon!!

Thanks hun I am going to West Wales to my caravan it'll be a nice break even if the weather is shit!

I can see what you mean bout the witch though. I spoke to PP last week, I'll pm ya now.

I was reading some of the LTTTC posts yesterday and just felt a bit silly really in sometimes stressing out over the fact I have not got my BFP yet. I think that it must be so hard LTTTC and I have been blessed once with my little girl who is a dream come true. I think the miscarriage is so hard to overcome and me and hubby were talking last night I caught in March, lost in May and desire to 'feel pregnant' again can be all consuming. With my first I had no major problems and looking back I feel that I didn't savour every moment of the pregnancy. we had one of those big sort out chats yesterday, not only bout TTc but also bout, money, jobs etc etc. It was good and I feel like we cleared alot of stuff up.

Anyway... gonna continue onwards and upwards now, more trying and less stressing!!!

Hi Maccy,

Glad you feel like your chat with your OH has lifted some of the weight you were feeling. I don't know how anyone copes following a m/c, it must be all consuming. Really hope you are lucky this cycle. Thought I'd drop off some...

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Ok so the :witch: has just about left me, very short stay which is good. Still got a while before the big 'O' occurs but gonna get some practice in soon. :rofl:

I have noticed that I am having really bad cramps just after ovulation till the :witch: arrives then everything calms down, it's only been like this since the miscarriage so I hope it's got nothing to do with the fact I am TTC.

Really tired today though, so gonna have a relaxing bank holiday weekend!

hey hun just had a nosey, sorry to hear of you loss, hope you get that :bfp: very soon n have a lovely b/hol weekend

sara

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HI Maccy,

Glad that you are being positive!! I think I understand what youre saying re:- Since MC. But I cant put it into words as soon as I can I'll let you know. Its good to have deep and meaningfuls with OH's every now and then because I think they find it hard to understand the desperation to have a baby. Esp as Im sure they think you can get preggers anytime of the month!!! Even when explained to them.

Hope you are having great family time in wales. It looks like the weather this weekend is going to be good.

Catch up with you soon

:hug:

Kerry

Hiya hun, just read through your journal :) I hope the :witch: is doing her final rounds on us all and that we get a rest from her for 9 wonderful months. A PMA and lots of :sex: is in order i think?! Good luck this cycle sweetie. :hugs:

I don't know what is with me today, I am such a bitch, think the :witch: left me with a leaving present! I am very :muaha: I am loosing it with my beautiful little girl, I am tetchy, emotional and bloody miserable.

We have decided that we are gonna move house, and so this morning I go to arrange a viewing and snoby cow bag lady on other end is all upity (sp?) and doesn't want us to look at the house we really like cause ours is not on the market yet...WTF!! So that has stressed me out! Trying to tidy up ours so it looks it's best. We are skint at the mo...as is everyone I suppose, we trying to sell our car too, now our house maybe up on the market, TTC and I am looking for a new job. ARRRGGGHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So all in all feeling a bit stressed out.

I am trying to me the calm me and tell the stressy me to chill and whats meant for you won't pass you by, but then I forget all that crap and get stressed again. :hissy: :hissy: :hissy: :hissy:

In 12 months I have lost my business, losing alot of money following which I had severe depression and then as I started to appear from that black cloud, on the day someone took over my lease I found out I was pregnant, :cloud9: then two months later had the miscarriage. :cry:

Ah well that rant has been let out maybe I'll be cool for couple of hours!

Hun, sounds as though you've had a difficult time :hugs: and now you will be entering into another stressful period with selling the house etc. Although I tend to find if I have one project to concentrate on I don't get the same results as I do when I have 3 or 4!!! I bought my first house, met my OH and got a new job all in the same month! All the very best for this cycle and for your other projects....

:hug:

Thanks hun, I have my viewing booked now at least!
Just trying to stay sane! lol

Thanks hun, I have my viewing booked now at least!
Just trying to stay sane! lol

Good luck for the viewing!!! Let us know how you get on...

:hug:

Maccy :hugs: I hope you feel better soon hun :hug:

Well its amazing what a good nights sleep can do for you, feeling much better today!

Think I may do a practice run with the pre-seed later, just so that I know it'll work fine when it comes to the crunch...what???? I gotta try it, haven't I ?
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Have fun 'trying' the pre-seed out!! :rofl: :rofl: Just make sure you dont 'try' it out to much before OV and run out!! :rofl:

GLad you are feeling much better today chicken.

Maccy, I'm so glad you're feeling better today! :hug:

Had the worst nights sleep ever, got up at 2 not back to bed till 5, posty knocked and woke me up this morning at 8, then LO got up, so now I up well and truly up but not with it!! http://yoursmiles.org/tsmile/sleep/t2215.gif


Thinking things through over and over last night, wondering does TTC ever stop anyone else doing things. Cause I started this road to TTC No 2 in Jan I didn't want a permanent job after my business closed because I thought I would be pregnant in 9 months. :cry: Obviously didn't expect what happened to happen. So went on to do supply teaching, I don't like it and want a permanent job not inteaching or anything just little part time one so that I can be there for my DD and new bubs (when it comes) I always think I won't go for it cause I be preg soon, but it hasn't happened so far and so it may take another 9 months. So gonna go look for one and just see what happens.
Thats my decision now anyway!!

Also tried the pre-seed last night, good but didn't notice any differences to normal lub though, so keeping it to the 'special' times.

You know what will happen Maccy, as soon as you get the new job you will be pg! Always works that way, but not a problem and n o point in waiting around, will give you something to take your mind of ttc at least! Good luck chick.

Get an early night if possible, I hate missing my sleep, lurve the stuff! x.

I hate missing sleep! :growlmad: Good luck this cycle hun! September feels very lucky for all of us! :hugs:
:dust: :dust:

Started testing with the OPKs last night got a feint line did one this morning and the same gonna try again in a bit and get some Bding in tonight to be sure!

Had a fab day at a car show, then onto look at new kitchens for our possible move, then Sunday lunch..diet starts tomorrow.aarrgggg!!! It's been nice today just DH and me, LO was at a party with her granny, so got to spend some quality time together which is such a rarity (sp??)

Anyway off to POAS now hopefully get a stronger result!

Had a terrible evening after a lovely day my husband got in a fight with a neighbour and the guy punched him. WTF!!!!!! So they were full on scrapping I have never seen anything like that since I left school 12 years ago, I didn't know what to do, so I pulled the guys hair and threw in couple of punches whilst screaming to get off my dh, My hubby was so shocked he's never been in a fight before bless him!!!! What a nutter of a guy they have only just moved in, so now I wanna move out even more!


We got some great BDing in last night though so hopefully the liccle spermies will be there waiting for that egg when she decides to make an appearance!

Morning hun, thought i'd catch up with your journal as i have been busy with my poorly boy. Seems like you had an eventfull evening! I would have done the same and smacked the guy.. I hope those :spermy: are laying in wait ready to ambush that lovely little egg... :dust:

What an eventful night!! Hope that OH is ok.

Looks like you got some well timed :sex: in :happydance:

Chuffed with my house valuation today!!!! :happydance: Think we gonna make the move and go, it's a lot of work, but we done it before we can do it again and it's a nicer area, with all my dd friends living nearby so worth it for her alone!

Also been doing well on the diet front.

Breakfast - 1/2 grapefruit, banana, yogurt
dinner - egg salad sandwiches, brown bread, apple
1 cookie home made...so had to try incase I poisened anyone
Dinner - think gonna have jacket pot, salad and chicken

Yay!!!!

Congrats on the housey bits!!! Good luck selling !!

Had a stronger line earlier on the OPK not as strong as control line though, but I been using em for two months now and never had line as strong as control line, so gonna get some http://yoursmiles.org/tsmile/sex/t1514.gif in tonight as well.

LO first day back been phoned to collect her as she bumped her head...poor thing she looked so sorry for herself, she's now curled up on settee watching Alice in Wonderland.

Diet still good, have not cheated at all!

Well done with the diet, hope your LO is ok, poor thing.

Good luck on the B'Ding tonight, want a nice BFP at the end of this cycle hun....x.

Awww poor LO hope shes ok. Great news on the OPK's !! :wohoo: The plan of attack sounds very good!! Best of luck sweetie.

Well I tested at 10am 4pm 8pm yesterday and 10am was the peak, it gone back down now so I am guessing I am ovulated last night I had some pain from the left side so hoping that was it...I was crying at Big Brother ...WTF!! I have Pre Ovulation Syndrome as well as PMS. :rofl:


On the up side ...literally...:rofl: we got some great :sex: in last night so hoping we have enough there now to catch that egg.


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Good luck catching that eggy!

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Fed up of this bloody http://yoursmiles.org/tsmile/subject/t57070.gif it is absolutly peeing it down!!!!

Didn't get any bding in last night waayyy too tired!!!! But hopefully we have done enough!!

Can't believe I am in the dreaded 2ww already....fingers, toes and everything else crossed!!!

My house is up for sale...my car is going...I'm looking for a new job...so I need that :bfp: to complete my fresh start!!!!!

You cant possibly get a :bfn: with all that carefully planned :sex:!!
Best of luck! It HAS to be your month!! Hope that the Dreaded 2WW passes really quickly for you.

Sounds fab on the fresh start front, you must be feeling really positive about things. Good luck with your BFP this month, hope the 2ww doesn't drag too much!!! x.

Oh Kerry I hope so hun. It would be so nice!

Yes Newbie I am feeling positive bout the future at the mo. It's all go.

Fed up of this bloody http://yoursmiles.org/tsmile/subject/t57070.gif it is absolutly peeing it down!!!!

Didn't get any bding in last night waayyy too tired!!!! But hopefully we have done enough!!

Can't believe I am in the dreaded 2ww already....fingers, toes and everything else crossed!!!

My house is up for sale...my car is going...I'm looking for a new job...so I need that :bfp: to complete my fresh start!!!!!

Good luck with everything! It'll be our turn for the rain on Saturday, courtesy of Tropical Storm Hannah.

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Just gonna do quick update for myself to save looking back.

Bd'd Wed no line present...Sun faint line, Tues peak at around 10am bd'd that evening.

I can't do anymore I have low sex drive as it is, plus I am exhausted and I think hubby is too he's not used to 3 times a week.. lucky if he usually gets that per month. :rofl:

2 Dpo today this evening I am noticing that my @@ are tender but looking back to last month they were too (this journal thing really coming in handy now)

Diet gone bit awal today took my nan out she wanted fish and chips and how could I refuse a sweet 89 year old??? U know what nans are like ...why in you eating etc etc, then had some chocolate...whoopps, straight back to it tomorrow though!!

Hiya! :wave:

Just wanted to say THANKS for listening to me whinge on over the last couple of days. I really do thing the POS (pre-ovulation syndrome) is real. I get so emotional around OV time. Wishing you all the luck EVA for a :bfp: this cycle.

Today feel bit low, my friends had a scan and all is good which is fab news, but just brings back those sad memories and I have shed a few tears.

I can't believe how much desire I have for a little baby. I am not feeling that positive again this cycle, my dd was on about having a little brother or sister asking when God would put his hands in mummys tummy to give her a baby to look after I was nearly sobbing. :cry:

I'm sorry you're feeling down. :hugs:

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Well haven't been feeling very good last couple days, really down, thinking bout the m/c 2 of my friends are pregnant, showing me scan pics and stuff and all the time I am smiling inside I am crumbling!!! :cry:

I really think that I have missed it again this month, I don't know how or why just having been pregnant twice before I know how my body responds just days after ovulating I feel pregnant and boobs are pumped etc, and now 6dpo I feel nothing so I guess it's another months wait. :cry:

It's all getting me down and I know it's only been 4 months since the m/c of ttc but I started trying for no 2 in march...will I ever get this baby? :cry:

How the hell do you pull yourself out of the shittiness that you feel after a m/c somedays are fine and others feel like today.

Awwww :hug: :hug: :hug:

Im sorry you are feeling rubbish. I know that its hard sometimes.... Unfortantley I dont know you pull yourself out of the crap. I dont think we'll ever get 'over' our losses, I just think it gets easier as we go along. Just remember how many bad days we had before compared to how many good there where. The good days now are getting more than the bad. We will get our babies, when....... I dont know .... I wish I had all the answers to give you.

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Thanks hun, I know you know how I feel as we were there together guess it's just my turn for down day today! The fact that I have stinking cold doesn't help either. I'll pick myself up again soon I'm sure.xxx

You are allowed to be upset sometimes. You wouldnt be human otherwise.
You need Sofa, duvet, crap TV, hot chocolate, chocolate biscuits and tissues for a good cry.

Sorry you've got this cold, it really doesn't help things when you're feeling ill. Will keep my fingers crossed for you that you get a BFP asap, really deserve it....x.

Thanks for all your supportive comments girls, I am feeling bit better today. I think that I have missed it again this month, you just get that feeling don't you? but it's ok, I am applying for a new job as we speak and with the house move and everything maybe I'm just a bit stressed this month. I am gonna chill out and let fate take over I think, my body went through a natural m/c and maybe just needs time to recover before it gives me my little bubs!!!

Anyway, off to do some cleaning, ironing and washing (I get a new machine today after a month without one...I am so excited!!!!)...it doesn't take much :rofl:

You never know, you're not out until the ol' bag shows her face, but I know what you mean, sometimes you just have a feeling. Good luck with the new job, maybe everything will happen at the same time like I mentioned in an earlier post, some things happen that way for a reason.

Glad you're a little better today...x.

I'm glad you're feeling a little better today. :hugs:

Sending lots of :dust: :dust: :dust: :dust: your way!

:hug:

Glad you are feeling better today. Its rubbish that it seems to come in waves, normally when you least expect it. Best of luck with the job hunting, it will be good to have something to take your mind off TTC for a while. Newbie is right its still aint over yet treacle!!!

Take care

Love

Kerry xxx

How are ya today Maccy???? x.

Hiya hun

Where are you???

:hug:

I'm here! http://yoursmiles.org/msmile/pozitive/m1218.gif I'm fine, absolutly no symptoms though, and kinda thinking forward to next month already!

Been shopping picked up some fan daby dosy bargins for the LO for Christmas, then been washing with my new machine :laundry:

I have 7 days till :witch: shows...

Im praying and praying for our :bfp:'s this month!! I really want to be preggers by my due date. 17th December

I think you will hun, how can you have missed it with all that well timed booty shaking lol lol, yes I know what you mean I would have been due 3rd Dec I have to be pregnant by then!!!!!

No pressure MR Storkey!! :rofl:

I booked an appointment with a chinese remedy Dr for saturday!!

Whoo sounds exciting hun, tell me how it goes!!!!

Well 6 days before I can POAS but will I last that long...I am 99% sure that it's not my month but I'll still probably cave at about 4 days b4!

Nothing much else going on, except I am skint skint skint!!!! Damn this Credit Crunch!!!!!

Oh Maccy - you never know! Got everything crossed for you hun!

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HIya, everyone I think I have got my first evap, just cracked under the pressure seeing most of team kokpelli getting evap lines. lol I see a line hubby doesn't but no colour to it so prob an evap. I'll test again later when I can wee again (lol) to check.

Gonna enjoy nice lazy day today with the LO and Hubby!!!! The sun is shining at last!!!

I mc last year and no joy since, so I know how you feel about 'is it ever going to happen?'

I think we all get down at the point in the month that we realise it aint happening this time...

It's not so much that we do something to pick ourlseves up, but that that realisation also leads us on to AF, a new cycle and a whole new month of hope!!

Glad you are feeling better x

Don't know if this is gonna show up at all but just did another test and got same result, trying my best to get a pic but it doesn't seem to be showing up. Grrrr!!!

This may be better

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMFG OMFG OMFG!!!!!


I just took First Response as I had one here and thought what the hell and I think I have my :bfp:....ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am in tears, in shock, in denial is it really happening. I though I was so out this month have had no symptoms at all just thought what the hell forget about it till next month now this. AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Please someone tell me this is true....I want a sticky bean sooooooooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Maccy,

Im sat here in tears!!!:cry: Its a nice :bfp: and Im so glad its happened for you!!! So so so pleased for you I cant describe in words. Save me a seat in 1st Trimester!

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Oh Kerry I am in complete shock, I hope I can hold onto it this time, I want you with me in 1st tri hun, I really really do you have been a complete and utter diamond to me throughout the m/c and everything and there is no-one I would want more than u to join me. ....now i'm in tears. xxxxxx

:cry: still crying here too!!! :rofl: What are we like!! Atleast you can blame your hormones!! I know that its going to be hard not to be scared but try try try your best to enjoy these moments, you only get 9 months to enjoy it!! I have every belief that this lickle beanie will be a super sticky one. But I do understand.

Heres some super sticky vibes though....

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Oh and did I say CONGRATULATIONS???!!! :rofl: :rofl:

Thank You, and heres some dust for you, :dust: :dust: :dust: :dust: :dust:

I am still crying and stressing bout everything already, :cry: :rofl: I don't wanna leave you behind though, you were right after me with m/c then in wttc, then in ttc so odds are on u'll be following me.

I better be there in 1st trimester soon!! :rofl:
Please stop stressing NOW!! MACCY :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: You need to use PP's lucky :test: tomorrow OMG. You're making me want to POAS now 6 days until testing for me :rofl: :rofl: even though Ive done one already. Hmmmm I could just have one lickle go.....

Go on Kerry test test test!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hi Maccy. Just wanted to stop by and let you know I was thinking of you... as a fellow waiting to test girl! :hug:

Rubbish rubbish rubbish!!! :bfn: :rofl: Im only 8dpo though :rofl:

Well I am 11 dpo today and had a negative test 2 days ago, so there is plenty of time hun, keep peeing...keep testing...

OMG! Congrats Maccy!! :yipee: I'm so happy for you!!!!!

OMG! maccy I am sooo happy for you :happydance::happydance::happydance:

You have made me feel excited & given me hope hun :hugs: xx

Got my digi, Pork Pie's magic worked on this one!!!!!!!

:happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance: :happydance:

It feels weird starting to sink in now, but still early days :happydance: :happydance:

Now I've had tome for it to sink in..well sort of. Just wanted top make a quick note to myself. I can't believe how wrong I got it this month I was convinced that I had no chance as I had no symptoms, looking back now I think I had a few twinges here and there but I did last month also so just passed them off as ovulation pains.

My husband can't believe it well not until I showed him the digi..now he can and we both so excited but also apprehensive about the whole thing cause of last time.

With the miscarriage I had thought everything out so carefully even started planning xmas dinner and how I'd have this new baby etc, looking at prams, choosing names etc etc then all went wrong. So I am being alot more caucious this time round. I am remaining positive but sensible!!!

Those 4 months ttc is nothing to people that have been trying years but to me it felt like an eternity, I remember how I felt 'left behind' by friends who got their BFP's and what I used to think when people would moan on about their preg symptoms, so I will not forget my friends still ttc and will be hovering around all of them till they follow my path, booking a whole row of seats in the 1st tri and I will try my best not to moan about pregnancy symptoms, so when my head is halfway down the toilet pan I will try and smile.

I am so happy and on :cloud9: please God make this pregnancy happy and healthy giving me and DH the baby that we want so much and making my beautiful daughter the happiest big sister in the world!!!

Hi hunny

Just wanted to say a great big thank you for the PM you sent. Hope that you are well today and that the fact that you are PREGGERS is finally sinking in!!! Have you made an appointment to see the DR yet or are you waiting abit longer??

Sending you lovely sticky vibes http://i179.photobucket.com/albums/w288/Liontasha/Vibes/thstickyvibes.gif

:hug: Kerry

Congratulations sweetie - change your status!!!!

So, so pleased for you....sticky vibes all the way....x.

Thanks for the messaged girls, I will change my status now!!!

Kerry - I am gonna wait to see the Dr, I know I cannot see a midwife till 8 weeks thats how they do it in my surgery anyway, but I will wait till I am 6 weeks to go down and demand my early scan! I can't face putting a preg ticker on yet just incase but as soon as I know I'm ok then on it will go.

Ah i don't wanna leave this TTC journal, I'm gonna stick around here for a bit till my scan!

Its rubbish that you have to wait until 8 weeks until you get to see someone. But I hope that your surgery will be more understanding given the circumstances. Fingers crossed you get an early scan, as I know that will put your mind at ease.

Im glad that you're going to stick around for a wee bit longer before moving on to the dark darkside. Fingers crossed that I get my :bfp: then we could hold each others hand and move over together.

Try to kick back and relax!! Enjoy being preggers, god knows you deserve to enjoy it but I understand how incredibly hard that must be.

:hug:

P.S I cant believe PP's prediction!!! I think I need to borrow her crystal ball!!! :rofl:

Hey Hun,

Just swining by to see how your doing!!! Hope all is well and your taking it easy!

:hug: Love me!

Good afternoon, how is Miss Maccy today??? Glad to see the status change, woo hoo....x.

Yes I'm good, working today so not been around. I'm not suffering with any symptoms yet, just enjoying it at the mo.

Luv ya lots. xxxx

I bey you cant wait for the MS to start!!! :rofl: however you might be lucky and not have any!!!

I did with my dd but it didn't start till 10 weeksnd I never had it with the last one as never had the chance... so just waiting. It's so worrrying though, every twinge and cramp and I had a dream that I was bleeding last night, I had that same dream last time and it came true so I was freaked this morning.

Sorry you're having bad dreams, it is bound to affect you though, anxiousness. Not going to say relax as I know that is pathetic! You over in 1st tri as yet? Not that I am trying to get rid of you, will miss ya! Good luck...x.

awww hun, I wish I could take the worry away so you could enjoy your :bfp:

This little bean is a sticky because I told it so!! And no-one argues with me!!! :rofl:

LOL - Kerry!!!

oooo I am in bad mood today and a lazy bitch can't be arsed to do anything!!!

I had to stay late at school last night cause the other teachers cars were blocking me in and they won't shift them till they were ready...evil!!!! They don't care much for supply staff!!!

Still skint, heard nothing back from the job and it's bloody cold here today on the Welsh hills. Cor in I a miserable cow? lol

But I do have my liccle bean so yay!!!

When are you going to start your preggers journo??

I dunno it's like tempting fate. Maybe I will...ummmm. Typical Libra!!

ha ha ha :rofl: Dont blame you though!! Maybe you could start after your 8 week appointment.

Good idea...I just don't wanna leave you thats what it is. lol

OK so I caved and started on the other side so saying bye bye...from here:cry: hope you come see me in my preg journal and join me over there soon. :hugs:

Congrats on your :bfp: and good luck the future.

:wine: Here's to happiness and health over the next 9 months :) x