Shmoo75's TTC Journal of TTC Madness!!!

Well for those of you who will read this and not know anything about my TTC history here it is and as a reminder for myself!:

Feb'08 came off BCP had my normal pill induced AF
1st cycle was 42days
1st day of AF was 05/04/08
My body went to a 28day cycle as I had mayor OV pains and EWCM on CD15
I tested on CD29 and got a really faint :bfp:
Tested again on CD32 and got a proper :bfp: on my cheapie dipstick s & CB digi

Me and OH were over the moon to say the least especially at getting preggers 1st mth of TTC. Sadly:cry: I m/c 3wks later started on the evening of 27/05 and it was confirmed by blood test and ultrasounds that there was nothing left:cry::cry: My body had done what it was suppossed to do when there is something wrong with your LO. I have come to the conclusion that, my body saved me from having to make the ddecision to terminate as, there had to be something seriously wrong for my body to reject my LO at such an early stage I was 7wks+4days when I started my m/c. At the time I was very upset and hated my body but, as the wks have turned into mths I understand and thank my body for this. However, I am not liking my body at the moment!!! If you take the 28/05 as the 1st day of m/c as, that was the 1st morning I woke with blood as CD1 I had a 34day cycle as :witch: showed up on 01/07/08. I thought great a bit shorter than my 1st cycle after coming off of BCP fingers crossed I should get back to a 28 day cycle!!!! No such luck!!!! I swear I OV'd between CD14 & CD16 as I had a wk of OV pain and symptoms prior to this. Now I am on CD40 and no :witch: and all I get when I test is :bfn:!!!! I keep getting cramps on and off to varing degrees, bloated stomach on and off and also, my boobs are sore and tingly on and off(which is nothing new as they are always like this no matter what!!!).

I will go to my GP on Tuesday 12/08 as that will be CD43 if :witch: still hasn't shown up as, that will be my longest syscle so far.

Sorry about the really long post but, I thought it best to put it all down straight away so, my future posts in my journal will be shorter.

That is some journey. Sorry for your loss :hugs:

I hope you get a sticky bean soon

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I am so sorry for your loss. :hugs: Welcome to the journals and I hope you get a sticky bean soon.

hey shmoo hope your feeling better n you get yr cycles sorted very soon...lots of luck at the gp

sara

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Sorry for your loss.
Good luck with your journal, TTC and the docs! xx

Well I have been off of B&B this weekend as, I have taken a couple of days out being at my parents with OH. Having a complete rest and relax, drinking some booze, eating far too much good food and, genrally having myself a good time!!! It seems to of worked as, at about 11:30am today :witch: has started her visit!!!!!! About bloomin' time I say!!!!! So, CD1 of my new cycle will be tomorrow as, I did not wake up with :witch: visit. This happened last mth as well. :witch: appeared on the evening of 30/06. Hopefully I will have a shorter cycle this one:
1st cycle after m/c = 34 days
2nd cycle after m/c = 42 days
Hoping 3rd cycle after m/c is 28 days. I have my fingers crossed!!

Here's to me starting charting my temps from tomorrow to see if I can pinpoint my OV.

Well today is CD27 and up until yesterday FF (which I have only been charting from this cycle) said I OV'd on cd17 but, my temps had been gradually declining over the last couple of days and FF now says it can't detect OV:hissy::hissy::hissy: My bloomin' body!!!! When I started temping I was on holiday for 2wks so, I was getting at different times now, the last couple of weeks I have been back at work and temping at :hissy:6:30am every morining except sunday's as that is only day OH has off so, not fair to disturb him at 6:30am. He is also the type of person that once awake he can't get back to sleep so, it would be really unfair of me to this to him on a sunday. My boobs yesterday and this morning are driving me mad on and off tingling and also had a stabbing like pain in my right breast. Did a test and needless to say it was :bfn: it is possibly to early as could only be 10DPO at the most although, according to FF I haven't even OV so, in their eyes it would be a :bfn::rofl::rofl::rofl: Lets see what the next couple of days of temps tells us.

Keeping my fingers crossed for your :bfp:

Hope you're having a good weekend! :hug:

Keeping my fingers crossed for you, hope you get a sticky bean

Well my temp has started rising again. I put in Mon and Tues temps and FF put in dotted red lines saying I OV'd yesterday. Problem with that is me and OH only BD on Thurs so, hopefully it will be enough. Oh well time will tell

I hpe you got the eggy!!

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Just had a 41 day cycle:hissy::hissy: I felt really positive about that cycle thought for some reason it was the one but, oh no :witch: had to start flying in yesterday with spotting and is light flow today:hissy::hissy::hissy: Had some :cry: last night as I always do when :witch: 1st flys in.

Plan for this cycle is start taking Actus Cactus and use OPK's. I bought the AC on saturday so I can start taking it today and, I have just ordered 40 OPK's and 10 ultra early HPT's from access diagnostics so, they should be here by saturday. I will start using them from CD12. I have also told my DH that once :witch: has gone I will be grabbing him for :sex: everyday and he had better not say no. He has agreed. So here we go again