Ugly and Pretty Days

~~~ABOUT ME~~~

My name is Jacqueline but I like to be called Jakie. I'm 20 years old and will be turning 21 in March 2009. My husband is currently 26 years old and will be 27 in January. We just celebrated our one year anniverssary this past Sunday (Aug. 3). We are truly happy together and very much in love. We have been together for a total of 4 years.

Back in December of 2007 I got pregnant and we didn't know it. Until New Years when I began to bleed heavly and came to find out I was going through a miscarriage. Since then I've been off my birth control and haven't have a normal cycle yet.

On Feb. 1st, 2008 I got my first period after the misscarriage and never got a period again until June 5th, 2008 when I was put on provera for bring on a period. Now I'm on my second cycle and of course I didn't get a period after 32 days so I'm five weeks late and :bfn:

My next appointment is on August the 18th and we will see what happens. I don't like these long and irregular cycles because it makes it harder to concieve but then again I'm in no rush.

Hubby and I decided to get pregnant because he would like a child before he hits 30 years old and I love children and would love a child of my own. I'll be updating my journal everyday! Come again and best of luck and blessings to all!

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Hi and welcome to the B&B Journals! You will love it on here - everyone is really lovely!

I too have irregular cycles...it's a real pain not knowing whats going on in there! So good luck on your journey and I hope you get your :bfp: very soon!


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Welcome :howdy:to the mad addictive world of Bnb !! sorry to hear all you have been through in the past few months hope you get your :bfp: very soon
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sara

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:hi: Welcome to the journals! I hope you get your :bfp: soon!

Hi Jackie,

Good Luck for that :bfp:

:hug:

Lorna x

Hey girls! thankx so much for all of your comments! I'm loving this site so much! Everyone is great and supportive here! I'm so happy and I feel so welcomed! Its nice to have a great support team!

Well today I woke up happy as can be. :happydance:

Don't really know why but I'm happy to be happy. I'm working with Skeleton Crew today because almost everyone is out and those whoa re here at work are all leaving after lunch time! :dohh:

Af is still not here today. Last night I had horrible cramps on and off and esp. when it was time for bding! lol But I still managed to have some fun with my hubby.

So far so good today. How is everyone else doing?

So I'm very tired and fustrated right now!!!! That stupid :witch: won't hurry up and get here! I can't wait until the 18th when I have my appointment :happydance: I'm tired here at work, busy making copies! Soon off to meet up with church friends to have a blasting night! and then maybe some of this :sex:

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Morning everyone!

Well today I'm on cd 69!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :shrug: The :witch: still isn't here yet. And this mornign I got a :bfn: but I'm not sad or anything. In a week is my appointment and hopefully I can get some insight to this long cycle. :sad1:

My weekend went by super fast and I was super busy so I'm sorry for now keeping up with my journal over this past weekend. Its just so hard when you're a busy bee like me. I work full-time, work in my church full-time and go to school full-time!

Anyway. Much love to everyone and best of luck to those TTC!

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Well today is cd 70 for me and still no :witch: or :bfp:!!!!

I woke up this morning very very :hissy: and wanting to fight with everyone! lol I have a lot of back pain and I don't know from what.

People at work are already getting on my nerves and making me even more :hissy:!!!! When the cats away the mice will play! And that is so true in my office!

Anyway, I have a huge headache and just in a bad mood over all! I wish I can go home and curl up in my bed and sleep all day!!! :shhh:

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Hope the world of journalling brings you good luck Jakie! Sorry to hear about yr loss hun. :hugs:


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Yaya xxx

Thank you Yaya!

It already is. The girls on here are so very nice! and caring and of course very welcoming to new girls like me.

Its nice to log on and be able to release some of my stress by just being able to write it all out. Esp. when I really can't talk to anyone in person about all the TTC! Its like people who aren't trying don't care so I enjoy chatting and blogging here with others who are in the same position as I am.

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Jackie

Welcome Jackie

Hope your journey gets better and is a short one. You have already had to deal with a lot so I hope your cycles sort out soon. so you can get your :bfp:


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Well today I woke up and I found myself facing cycle day 73 with no :bfp: and no :witch:

my doctors appointment is for Monday morning at 10am and I can't wait :happydance: because finally I get to talk to a doctor about my cycle issues! :cry:

Anyway, this morning I test with a dollar store pregnancy test I got a very light pink positive line. But I have gotten colored evaps before so I don't want to trust that test and hoefully I'll be getting a blood test done on Monday.

I'm sorry I haven't done a post in like two days. I have been super busy both at work and at home.

Love to everyone and baby dust to all

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Jackie

Well today is CD 76!!!! And I'm back at work after going into the doctor's office this morning. :happydance:

I have to go in for blood work tomorrow morning (fasting) because he is testing for PCOS :cry: and also my husband has to go for a sperm analysis tomorrow morning as well. He is so embarssed but oh well :rofl:

I start my provera today:happydance: and then Clomid once af starts! I'm excited because finally I'll be able to ovulate (hopefully on Clomid).

How was everyone's weekend?

Good Morning girls!

Well I’m doing great this morning. I’m so excited :happydance: about starting provera and seeing AF show her face again.

However I didn’t start provera yet because my appointment for Clomid isn’t until September 2, 2008 and I have to be only on cd 1 or 2. If I start provera today I’ll be on cd 5 the day of my appointment.

I hope round one works.

Good Luck Jaytee - Hope this works for you.

:dust::dust::dust: for a little extra help lol!!

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xx

Thank you noddysgirl! How are you coming along with your cycle?

HEY EVERYONE!!!!!

Well today I got a call regarding my blood work that I did on Tuesday! It felt like no one was ever going to call but the news is:

I don't have PCOS, I just have really really long cycles! My clomid prescription was sent to the pharmacy because OBGYN wants me to start on cd 1 with it. I hope cd1 is sometime next week, That would be awesome. Tomorrow is my last day on provera

Hope everyone is doing great!

Hey girls!

I'm so bad that getting on this journal everyday but at least I try :oops:

The :witch: still hasn't come but I'm not expecting her until the last Thursday morning because I did take all of my Provera. If she isn't here than I have to test on Friday and see if I might be pregnant.

After picking up my Clomid on Friday afternoon I read on the prescription to start on cd5 instead of cd1, so what is best I will do. I will do anything for my :bfp:

If Af starts this week just as planned I will be able to test on Sept 26, 2008.

Other than this I have been very very busy at work and at home. I hope everyone is doing great!

[/[SIZE="3"]SIZE]I'm having a great and wonderful day today! After miscarrying back on New Years Day my husband lost his job two weeks later. And today he got a call and he's hired for a position that he applyied for!!! I'm so very excited!!!! I feel like this upcoming cycle is reallyour turn! He got a job and I'l be on Clomid to make me ovulated earlier than when I usually do. I hope I get my:bfp:!!!!

how was your weekend hun??

how was your weekend hun??

Hey! My weekend was really busy! lol I'm a very active member in my church so I was busy with our dance ministry and drama ministry! I finished my provera on Saturday so I'm just here waiting on the :witch: to come so I can start a new cycle!

How was your weekend and week so far?

Well today I'm having super cramps! lol I logged into my fertility friend page and adjusted the day I thought I got a positive opk because my chart was sayign that I was like 30 dpo and I know that impossible! :rofl:

So when I took it out my chart adjusted and went according to my temps so I "ovulated" on cycle day 73 which makes me 11dpo today! lol Thats more like it! So lets see what happens. I'm just scared because since I hadn't updated my fertility friend I took the provera not knowing if I could be pregnant indeed. We will see what happens.

The new ovulation date I believe is correct because of my temps. They have been in the 97 range since ovulation and before ovulation they were in the 96 range. I will try and attached my page to my signature soon.

I hope I get a :bfp: instead of the :witch: on Thursday. but these cramps I'm having feel like the :witch: might come today.

Hi Jaytee, fingers crossed for thursday hun! xx

Aww Thank you Still Waiting:hugs:

:witch:is here !!!

This morning I was super happy.... the :witch: finally arrived which means I can start a new cycle.

However right now I'm having one of those ugly days where you just don't feel pretty or beautiful in any way....:cry:

I just want to curl up into bed and watch movies and :cry: I'm an emotional basket right now. I have about two hours of dance practice tonight and I just don't want to go. I really really don't!

I don't feel like being with a bunch of girls who are laughing and bubblely because I'm not happy and I don't feel like laughing!

I just feel depressed! :cry:

I'm having a lot of anxiety on top of everything. My work day is almost done. Only 15 minutes to go!

Ah hun :hugs:

We all have those fat, nothing fits, hair wont go right I want to crawl under a rock and hide days! Hope today isn't one of them x

yey for a new cycle! all positive for this month then the :witch: can not return for another 9 months xx

Sorry the :witch: got you :hugs: I hope her stay is very short and sweet. Good luck next cycle!

OMG that :witch: is totally full blown!!!!!!! I feel like I'm peeing blood non-stop!!!!

I have horrible back pain and a bad headache and I'm super naucious right now. I just took some Midol so lets see if that helps! Other than that I'm ok and I'm starting Clomid tonight

:hugs: hope you feel better soon hun

I used to dance and I always HATED having AF while at class, felt so gross and sick!

I know! I ended up going to practice that night! Being that the midol kicked in. lol

hey hun, just thought i'd pop by to see how u r getting on, sorry to hear the witch got you n you were feeling horrid, really hope this is your cycle, heres some :dust: for you

sara

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Good Morning everyone!

I forgot to get on last night and post my journal entry. I wrote it out on paper because I was bored last night at some youth thing.

Anyway, Today is cd5 and I'm spotting with very watery cm! Crazy!!!!! lol


HOws everyone

Some people are just impossible!

Well its time for me to go to bed now! But I waed to share something with who ever reads this blog of mine. . .

I just spent about a good hour looking at Babie Memorials on another site. It was very very sad and so very scared about miscarring! :cry:

I know that I am a child of God and that he has my back. I can only pray and ask God to give me a healthy child when I do get that :bfp::bfp::bfp:

Well Good Night Everyone!

Good Morning to who ever reads my journal!

I hope everyone's weekend was as fun as mine. My wonderful father and husband took me to NYC yesterday and I had a blast! It was nice to get into the city life after being 20 years of my life in the country. :happydance:

I'm feeling ok today. I'm super gassy just like everyday and I'm beginning to think its the prenatal vitamins that are causing me to be gassy!
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Well the :witch: and her trail is completely gone which mad DH very happy last night! :rofl:

From what I have read online I'm to start baby dancing and testing with OPK's on cd 9 because I just finished my first round of Clomid yesterday. I hope I ovulate!!!!!

Anyway, thats all for now. I'm sure I'll be back on later to read everyone's journals and see how everyone is!

Have a great day!
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Well today is cd8 for me and I'm starting my OPK's today. I will test twice a day every day until I get a positive OPK. I got a positive opk on cd 5 i believe but I thought that was a little weird so i looked it up and sure enough when taking clomid you can get false positives during the days while you're taking clomid. However I was told by my OBGYN to still post it in my chart. My temp is going up :happydance:

Ovulation is near :happydance: ( I hope I do ovulate, and then get a :bfp:)

My husband is really excited about this cycle. He's really into knowing whats going on and how I feel.

I was looking at charts on fertility friend of women who took Clomid days 2-6 and out of 100 charts I wrote down , 86 of them ovulates on cd12 and the other on (cd11 - cd15) So i'm like 4 days away from cd12 Yipee!!!! :happydance:

Hi hun just zipped thru ur journal, good luck witht he bd :) and hope you get a bfp soon. Im 27 and like ut hubb i also wanna be a parent by the time im 30 :)

I know how you feel. DH talks about being a dad before 30! He said the second one can come later but the first one before the age of 30 :rofl:

He makes me laugh!

Well today I'm on cd9 and I'm having ovulation pains I think. Its a sharp pinch pain where my left Ovary is....I think :blush:

Hi Jaytee, I have just had a read through your journal, I really hope clomid works for you this month! how many days is it since you finished clomid, I always ovulated netween 5 and 10 days after that day. Great to see you have a journal :hugs:

Hi Jaytee, I have just had a read through your journal, I really hope clomid works for you this month! how many days is it since you finished clomid, I always ovulated netween 5 and 10 days after that day. Great to see you have a journal :hugs:

HEY LOLA!!!

Well i'm on cd9 and its been three days since I last used Clomid. I tested with a First Response OPK and got a positive today! I had to test because I was feeling O pains. and my cervix is high, soft and open. so I can't wait to get home tonight so that I can BD! lol I will be posting a picture sometime tonight after work and school.

How are you doing?

Hope you catch the eggy this month hun xx

Awww I'm really pleased for you! all signs point towards ovulation :happydance:

All is good my end......ITS FRIDAY....looks like we may be in the TWW together! have a great weekend:hugs:

Lola - i hope you have a great weekend as well.

My temp dropped today and if it goes up tomorrow then I ovulate today. In the TTC forum under the thread "First Response OPK" I posted my picture of the test.

I'm feeling ok today, just minor back ache. just excited about the whole ovulating thing lol

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I got a second :bfp: on my opk today!!!!! Yippeee!!!!!!!! lol lol

:hi:

Well today has been one of those rainy days. Storm Hannah came by New Jersey today and we got rain all day. But at least nothing major or serious happened.

I'm on cd11 and my temp went from 96.64 (yesterday) to 96.74 (today). If I continue to have my temp rise that ovulation will be recorded on Feritility friend. :happydance:

I can't wait to see my ovulation recorded because by then I'll be 3 or 4 dpo without even knowing it. :rofl:

I got another positive opk today :shrug: which I think of it as being weird because I have never gotten more than two positive opks in a row. But I'll take it. lol My cervix however has gone from open to close making me think that I indeed ovulated yesterday. I also had ovulation pains the last two days as well.

DH has been such a great sport. And he's willing to continue for a few more nights in a row just to make sure we get that eggie!!!!

I hope everyone is doing ok today.
I wish you all so much blessings in these times of TTC

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JACKIE

Good morning girls!

Well today is cd13 and ovulation hasn't been recorded yet on my chart but I just know its going to be soon! lol I finally got a positive OPK on those internet cheapies yesterday but my cevix was low, firm and closed. So I don't know what to think of it. I still BDed last night, :rofl:

My temp has gone up for three days straight but not as high as the temp on cd 9. I got five days of free VIP membership which is super cool.

Anyway, this weekend was great. I got to rest and get ready for this busy week of mine. I hope everyone is going ok!

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Jackie

sounding good hun! hoping you get your BFP this cycle xx

Well I did an opk this afternoon and it was negative. Here are my test results:

SUNDAY cd 12 @ 9:00pm ----- POSITIVE

MONDAY cd 13 @ 11:06am --- POSITIVE

MONDAY cd 13 @ 8:00pm ---- NEGATIVE

SO I'm either ovulating today or tomorrow but I think its going to be soon because i finally got EGG WHITE CM!!!!!! :happydance::happydance:

I don't know why I'm so excited but I can't wait to be in the TWW already!

:happydance::happydance::happydance::happydance: ITS LOOKING GOOD FOR YOU !!!! XXXX

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I tested today on a First Response OPK and finally got a negative on this brand. After using this brand I would never recommend anyone to use them because they look positive everyday!!!!:hissy: :rofl:

I'm so excited because soon I'll be DPO!!!!!! :happydance::happydance:

I never thought I would be so happy to see a negative on an OPK:rofl::rofl::rofl::rofl:

Ah bless you love, I'm really happy for you:happydance: welcome to the TWW:hugs:

Hello everyone!

Well today I have a super migraine!!!!!!!!! Its out of this world :hissy:

Aaw hope you feel better now hun :hugs:

Well here I am at cd17 I believe. And ovulation is still not posted on my chart. My temps are still low. but I did get positve opks. Then again not every time u get a positive opk do you actually ovulate :hissy:

I don't know what to say or think anymore. But what ever is meant to be will be. If its my time to get pregnant then i don't have to worry because it'll happen when the time is right. :cry:

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Ahh hun don't :cry: you sound really down but trying to cover it :hugs: who knows what these bodies of ours do they don't perform or ever look like the info in the books so who says the books etc are right.

:happydance::happydance: for the +opks keep up those happy thoughts and have a good weekend xx

Aww love I know this probably wont help but please please try and not put too much faith in temping and OPKs etc. When I first started to take clomid it totally ruled my mood and outlook on everything and its really difficult to over come that. I promise it does get easier but if you felt as though you ovulated and your OPK was positive then take it as an almost sign as a definite ovultion. In terms of temping I must admit my temp was all over the place on Clomid so I really wouldn't trust that 100% as a sign.

I understand how difficult this all is for you I really hope you are okay? Please PM if oyu want to talk about anything :hugs:

Aww girls thank you both very very much! You girls made my day today!!!! :hugs:

I'm feeling a little better. I talked to my hubby and we are going to try and queeze a little BD tonight and tomorrow and then what happens will happen. I think I just place tooo much faith on the Clomid and tempting..... :dohh:

LOLA~~~ I agree with you...I know for sure that I had ovulation pains and I think I did ovulate or am about to today.

I'm feeling so much better thankx to you two!!!! :hugs:

:cry: So I am offically and totally confused now. My BBT has not shown ovulation and then to top things off my temp dropped from 96.83 (yesterday) to 95.98 (today). So I've had it already.

On top of everything. My second best friend just found out she's pregnant after only trying for two months! So not the two most closes friends to me are both PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!! :hissy::hissy::hissy:

Why is it so hard for me. DH and I are literally the only couple that don't have kids. .. and we truly want kids! :hissy::hissy::hissy:

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRr...... I'm so upset! I can't take this any more!!!!!!!! :hissy:

Hi Jaytee,

Stick with it love you will get there, keep temping and dont worry about what it says just see it as a way of understanding the cycle your body is going through. Clomid is alot for the body to respond to and it could just be your body 'ramping up' to ovulation or you could have ovulated and your temps are crazy because of the clomid. Please try and not put yourself under so much pressure love:hugs:

Ah hun sorry to hear your having a low day xxx

It's not easy when mates do it so quickly and easily.

Fx for you hun x

Morning everyone!

Today temp dropped again! So I'm truly beginning to think that its the clomid affecting my temps. I know that I ovulated because of my positive OPKs and ovulation pain that I was having. Yesterday I decided to try an other OPK and this time is was super negative. There hardly was another line. So my Surge has gone down.

I'm just going to go with a 32 day cycle which would be AF should be here no later than th 27th of September.

Last night I couldn't sleep much because I had that consent feeling of having to throw up (TMI) I'm the same way today too. And I feel like I have a cold!

But I know i dont, its just my body.

I hope everyone is ok!

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Hi Jaytee, I'm pleased you have decided to trust your instincts on this one, I hope you feel better about everything soon:hugs:

Hi Jaytee, I'm pleased you have decided to trust your instincts on this one, I hope you feel better about everything soon:hugs:

Yup yup.... It just didn't make sense because I had ovulation pain early in my cycle. and my temps are everywhere! lol Since I'm on cd 21 I'm thinking of testing with these super cheapies every other day starting on Sunday which will be cd 26

good old cheapies they feed our poas addictions!

good old cheapies they feed our poas addictions!

That sure is true :rofl:

Well today I had my first break down including :cry: in regards to TTC. I found myself :cry: all the way from home to work which takes me about 1/2 an hour driving!!!!

I'm so afraid of becoming the women that trys for 4 + years and then finds out they'll never be able to give birth to a child. I'm so depressed today and so emotional!!!!!

Well today I had my first break down including :cry: in regards to TTC. I found myself :cry: all the way from home to work which takes me about 1/2 an hour driving!!!!

I'm so afraid of becoming the women that trys for 4 + years and then finds out they'll never be able to give birth to a child. I'm so depressed today and so emotional!!!!!

It's understandable where you are coming from. Lord knows I have had those same days. You think we're young and it doesn't make sense why it can't possibly happen for you like it does for others. There is a plan and your :bfp: is on it's way.
I hope you are feeling better by the time you read this but if you still feel the same just let it out. This can sometimes be a rough journey and we are all entitled to breakdown days (as many as we want). It will get better. I know very cliche-ish but it will.
You can never have to much baby dust so here is so more.
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Well today I had my first break down including :cry: in regards to TTC. I found myself :cry: all the way from home to work which takes me about 1/2 an hour driving!!!!

I'm so afraid of becoming the women that trys for 4 + years and then finds out they'll never be able to give birth to a child. I'm so depressed today and so emotional!!!!!

It's understandable where you are coming from. Lord knows I have had those same days. You think we're young and it doesn't make sense why it can't possibly happen for you like it does for others. There is a plan and your :bfp: is on it's way.
I hope you are feeling better by the time you read this but if you still feel the same just let it out. This can sometimes be a rough journey and we are all entitled to breakdown days (as many as we want). It will get better. I know very cliche-ish but it will.
You can never have to much baby dust so here is so more.
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I want to give you a super special THANKX!!!! :hugs::hugs::cry::hugs::hugs:

I've been a pastors daughter since I was 7 years old so that makes almost 14 years! I have seen many things in my life. And I have learned so much! I know better then to doubt the plan of the Lord, but its hard sometimes.

I get desperate sometimes, and even more when I'm at church with six women who just had babies this summer. Yesterday at my dance practice the mother of my God-Child was yelling at her. Telling her to get away. and complaining about how attached her daughter is to her. My God-Child is only 2 years old and was super sick yesterday. I just want to go over to the mother and curse her our and then give her a WAKE UP SLAP in the face! She is 21 with three kids, her husband just walked out on her and she has nothing but these three wonderful children (4yr, 2yr and a 3 month old) who she doesn't even appreciate.

Then One of the other girls was complaining about her 1 month old keeping her up at night.....in my head all I could think was "I would love to be up all night with a new born"

:hissy:

I do however feel a little better. I just hope my sadness goes away completley before my service tonight!

Hi Jaytee, god I know what u mean!! I am too 21 and have only been ttc since May/August but still haven't had my 1st :witch: since coming off my contraceptive pill :( it's so frustrating!!

And you're right, it really doesnt help when you see ungrateful people with their kids (I know that sounds mean, but its true!!). I know they probably aren't thinking about it when they say or behave a certain way to their children/child, but they don't know how lucky they are sometimes!

Anyway, enough of my rambling on.... all the best in you hopefully short journey of ttc and then to your :bfp: !!! I will drop by every now and again, I also have a journal, altho mine definately isn't as updated as yours lol!

Good luck :) xxx:hug:

Boy oh man!

I have been having cramps for four days now. And everynight has been a restless night due to being so naucious! My throat hugrts really bad for three days now! and I have bad heart burn!

I tested yesterday and got :bfn: but thats ok. I really don't know what I ovulated so I don't know when to expected the :witch: I just hope she is here by saturday (cd32).

OUr dance graduation at my church was this weekend so I was super busy! but I had a blast, and it really took my mind off of TTC.

Well I have to go. I have to be at work in a 1/2 hour and thats exactly how long it takes me to get there! lol

Have a wnderfu days girls!!

TTC_Tolly~~~~ Thank you for your post! I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks that way

I'm sorry about the cramps :hugs: but happy you had a good time at the dance.

:rofl: @ having to be at work in 1/2 hour and that's how long it takes you to get there! Been there!! :rofl:

Hope you have a good day.

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I'm sorry about the cramps :hugs: but happy you had a good time at the dance.

:rofl: @ having to be at work in 1/2 hour and that's how long it takes you to get there! Been there!! :rofl:

Hope you have a good day.

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Thank you Chris!

:rofl: I was speeding my little butt over to work yesterday, but thats what I get for being on BNB all the time. :blush:

Still no af! and no sight of her either! I'm hoping for a bfp this cycle!

Good luck Jaytee x

FX for you hun, when are you testing again?

I'm going to test next Wednesday is my AF isn't here by then. If she is not here and I get a :bfn: I have to go back on Provera

:hissy::hissy::hissy::cry:

I'm so under appreciated!!!!!!!!!!!

I worked super hard this weekend and other times for many people and Its never good enough to be appreciated!!!!!!!!!!!:hissy::cry:

Oh jaytee - I know what that's like too. :hugs:

I'm feeling better today.... in regards to yesterdays comment.

Today my temp went up a little. :happydance: I have had cramps already this morning and I've haven't been able to do #2 today or yesterday as of now. but its still early so lets see what the day will bring.

I couldn't BD last night because i was so naucious. I felt like throwing up every five minutes and so I gave DH a break last night. :rofl:

How is everyone this morning?

I'm going to go and check another website blog place. My friend is supposed to tell us today if she got her :bfp: this morning or not. I hope she got her :bfp:

Be back soon

:hug:
Jackie

:yipee: I went to the bathroom!!!!!! LOL :rofl:

I feel very violated in the lower area right now. And sorry if this is too much info but It hurt so bad to go #2 today!!!!!!!! :blush:

I'm glad I got to go :yippe:

:rofl:

:cry:

Well as many of you know....I'm relocating from New Jersey to California. Dh is leaving next month and I'm not leaving until Jan 09. :cry: I'm going to miss him so much!!!!!!!

We are moving because we have better job opportunities over there. His family lives there as well. But I'll be leaving my family here in New Jersey. Can I really live without my parents? :cry:

OMG I'm so nervous and scared. :cry: I just want everything to be ok.

Also we are not going to be TTC anymore. And we are not sure as to when we will start again. So Next weekend if I don't get a :bfp: we are going back on birth control :cry:

I posted in your thread but just wanted to give you a :hugs:

Just wanted to give you a big :hug:
Everything will be okay; I know how scary it is at first, but you'll be just fine.

:hug:

I know it will be scary but it will also be exciting. You'll be surprised what you can you do and your parents are only a phone call away. We will miss you in Jersey! :cry:

:hug:

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I posted this in the TTC forum but figured I can keep a record of it here. lol


Cycle day 34 today. Still no ovulation on my charts. Temp was up for two days and mysteriously dropped big time today. I'm at the point where I'm no longer looking for a BFP. I just want this cycle to end so I can start a new one. However DH doesn't want me to take Provera or Clomid again. He said we'll get BD every other day until AF comes for a so lets see how that works out.

I'm super down today and not about TTC, I think I'm getting sick. I feel like crap! I have a stuffy nose, and every time I cough I have to run to the restroom and (TMI) throw up. My breast have been hurting since Thursday but this weekend and today they have been super sore. They itch like crazy. Like my nipples really really itch and on Saturday since I was home alone with DH all day I had to go around top less because even a Tank top bothered them. I was constipated all weekend too.

Yesterday morning I had a sudden cramp that made me think I was going to die! Its only lasted a few seconds but it felt like an hour! I just wish I knew if I ovulated or not. But my temps aren't helping.

How is everyone today?

Hi Jaytee, sorry this cycle is being rough for you, I hope you get your answer either way soon xxxx

Hope you get an answer soon hun xx

Moving is hard especially away from family but you must set up skype. I use it to see my brother who lives on the other side of the world to me. I don't miss out on his kids then, and it is so much nicer to see someones face when you are talking to them. Skype is free to all you need is a computer, internet- broadband is much better than dial up and a web cam-- arc at me anyone would think I work for skype.

:hugs:

Hello Everyone.....


I'm so super sorry about not updating my journal. :blush: I've been so busy with chuch, work, school and DH.... lol

As it turned out....DH and I talked and for right now we aren't planning on going anywhere :happydance: We are going to see how things go these next few months. I'm hoping he can get a job here in South Jersey this way we can stay here. :happydance:

This also means that we will continue to TTC!!!!! :happydance: Unfortunetly however, I'm not going back on provera or clomid. We are going to just allow my cycle to go naturally. I will test on every saturday morning until I get my :bfp: or :witch: and we are going to BD every other day.

I want to thank you all for being so supportive and giving me such great comments! I truly wish I could :hugs: you all in person. Thank you a whole lot!

:hug:
Jackie

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Morning girls!!!!!!!!!!!


I think i got a faint :bfp: this morning. . . I will test again in a few days and see if it turns darker or if I was just seeing things this morning

I think it was an evap line!!!!!! Ughhhhh :hissy:

Any news today? might just be to early, let us know hun FX

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No news hun? Are you ok? :hugs:

Hey Still waiting!!!!! Sorry :blush:

I got a negative....so nope not pregnant! lol :dohh:

I'm just here waiting for AF or ovulation to come by

Got an appointment for Tuesday to see whats up! I hope I get provera and clomid again! but shhhhh.... please don't tell DH! lol

I'm so glad to here you are sticking around. Hope the doc gives you what you want!

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OMG :blush:

Shame on me!!!! I haven't posted in here in forever!!! :dohh:

Well today is cycle day 50 and I go in for blood work tomorrow morning. The results will be in on Friday. It the results are Negative then I will begin Provera Friday night and wait for AF to come this way I can do round 2 on clomid.

This next cycle I'm determined to get preggo! I will use digital ovulation predictor test (Clearblue) I'm buying them this weekend! I'm so excited about this new cycle!!! And so is DH

How are you lovely ladies doing today?

good luck hun!! I really hope doc has good news for u!:hug:

Thank you Tanya!!! :hugs:

Well this morning I got up super early! I was up at 5am getting ready because I had to make a stop and do my blood test at 6:45am. Usually I'm super nervous and anzious to know the results but this time around I just know I can't be pregnant so I'm not expecting a positive result. I'm ok with my results being negative and start provera but I won't know for sure until tomorrow afternoon.

I tooked at my chart and noticed that I experienced some kind of cramp almost everyday! lol.... Obgyn said it could be the medications I'm on, so he told me not to be concerned.

Well I hope everyone is doing ok today!

Well the test result was Negative.....however, I'm totally ok with it!!!!

I start provera tonight and then I just have to wait for the :witch: to come so that I can start on Clomid.

good pma hun, fx for this next cycle xxx

Well today is cycle day 62 I believe! And yesterday was my last day on Provera :happydance: .....I didn't have any side effects until yesterday and today when I started getting really bad headaches.

I'm just getting over the Flu...and I'm happy I got it now and not when its time to BD.

The :witch: should be arriving on Thursday if all goes well. The last time I took provera my period came four days after the last pill.

However, I think I might get it earlier because I'm already having :witch: symptoms. The sooner the better because I can't wait to take my clomid and hopefully it works this cycle. I'm itching to pee on a stick already! lol

:cry:

DH came and picked me up for lunch today! Which was so nice of him but it soon tunred into me being moody and mean to him and so sad!

Don't know why exactly. . . :cry:

I feel so bad because as he dropped me off I can see in his face how sad I made him :cry:

Hi love, sorry you are going through the mill with everything :hugs:

I hope everyone is having a great day so far... I know that I am. I'm currently at work but I so wish to be home right now. I'm so tired today and I'm afraid I might fall asleep here at my desk :rofl:

Last night I didn't get home and see DH until 9pm and when I did he was so very nice with me. We treated each other like nothing had happened during the morning. I love him :blush: I think my mood swings are being caused by the provera and I hope to never have to take that hormone medication ever again :hissy:

The :witch: should be here in the next few days...and honestly I would be happy to see her today or tomorrow because I'm very impatient :blush: and really want cd 5 to come so this way I can take my Clomid again.

I purchased Clearblue digital OPKs as well as 25 online cheapies. They should be here this week (so I hope :hissy:) I also ordered Pre-Seed for the first time today. The website says it is delieverd in 2-5 days so I should have it here no later than Saturday! :happydance: :yipee:

I'm really excited and I'm determined that Clomid and pre-seed are going to work and that I will get my :bfp: on Thanksgiving morning!!!!!

Well I have to go....I hope you all have a wonderful afternoon :hugs:

Jaytee

Well I'm cramping today :happydance: that means the :witch: is almost here. I have a little bit of blood in my boogies! :rofl: which happens right before my period comes or when I'm on my period so the :witch: is near :happydance:

signs are good then hun, fingers crossed for the clomid and a BFP! x

signs are good then hun, fingers crossed for the clomid and a BFP! x

Thank you :hugs:

I will get that BFP!!!!!!!! :happydance:

Hey everyone!!!!

My husband has an interview today for a job! I really really hope that he gets this job because it has great pay and great benefits!!!!

He's been without a job since January 2008, so its been a struggle and very very stressful!!!

Hope the interview goes well hun! looks like you could have a very happy end to 2008 on its way x

Hope the interview goes well hun! looks like you could have a very happy end to 2008 on its way x

I sure hope so!

I sent my resume over too because they have so many positions available and they all make more than what I make here at my current job...hopefully they can hire me and my husband! :rofl: That would be great! :happydance:

:happydance::happydance::happydance:

I have an interview!!!! For tomorrow at 1:30 pm!!!!

:yipee::yipee::yipee:

Wow great news!

:witch: is coming!!!! I went to the restroom and I had a lot of sticky CM with a little brown in it. . . I guess this would be spotting ? :dohh:

Well I went to the bathroom and I checked my cervix....well guess what? when I pulled out there was blood the :witch: is here :happydance: :dance: :yipee:

ITS CYCLE DAY 1!!!!!!!!! :happydance::happydance:

Today is cd 1 for me and DH and I really want this to be our month. He really wants me to journal in a scrapbook every days feelings. So he wants me to start with today until the day I get my :bfp: I'm excited and ready to put out 5 minutes everyday to just sit and write my feelings of the day... I just don't want to be discouraged later on. :rofl:

Once you get over any disappointment I kinda like CD1 as you have a fresh start so to speak, and you get some relief from all the stressing out!!

GOOD LUCK!!!

:hug:

:dance: My husband got the job :dance:

Cycle Day 13 today and I used Pre-Seed for the first time tonight....

My Experience with Pre-Seed so far is that it feels great and not different from regular CM. However...the opening of the tube is very uncomfortable. I personally think that they should have designed the tube more like a tampon. :blush:

DH loved it! He thought I was naturally "wet" :rofl:But since clomid dried me up last cycle I decided to try this Pre-Seed and it worked! :happydance: I just hope to get my :bfp: at the end of this month because that would place me on :cloud9:

I hope everyone is doing great!

:hugs:

Good Morning Everyone....

Cycle Day 14 today! I started testing on OPKs since cycle day 8 and they seem to be getting lighter and lighter. The darkest one (almost positive) was on cycle day 10 but my temps aren't showing ovulation...if anything today's temp is the lowest temp I have gotten all cycle. Weird!

I hope to ovulate soon. . . I want to be in the TWW already! lol

I have a doctors appointment on Tuesday. :happydance: He just wants to send me for blood work to see if by then I have ovulated or not.

Why does it feel like today is going by so slow :hissy:

I have to test with an OPK at 11am and it feels like its taking forever to get there!

Ok so my 11:00am OPK was negative but thats ok because it was at least a little darker then the 7:16am OPK. :happydance:

I have to test at 3pm with a digital OPK.

Today makes 5 days since my last clomid pill. it according to health care professionals you can expect to ovulate 5-9 days after the last clomid pill which for me would be between today and Sunday :happydance: I know I'm not ovulating today but I just know its coming soon

:dohh:

I'm using the clearblue digital opk's and if anyone has ever used them before you know that you have to use the little machine for all seven days....well I brought to work the test but not the machine thing!!!!! :dohh: So now I have to wait and take the digital test when I get home from school which will be at 9:30pm tonight! :dohh:

I just want to slap myself!!!! :dohh:

Hello Everyone!!!!

Cycle Day 15 today! Yipee! :rofl: I'm being sarcastic now! Anyway, I hate testing with OPK's and I just wish I never gave in and started using them! They are so dang on confusing. :hissy: One minute they are almost positive the next super negative! I hate reading lines and thats why I bought those super expensive Clearblue digital opks and i hate them! Today is test day four with them. I only have three more test to use and I haven't gotten a positive yet on them :hissy: If clomid worked this cycle then that would mean that the latest I will ovulate is on Sunday.

I am a strong believer in God and I know that nothing is impossible for him. I will keep taking my temps and see what I get in a few days. I just hope that by next Wednesday ovulation is detected!!!!!!!

oh hun, sounds like all this testing is stressing you out, do you have to do so many? can you just do them when you get symptoms?

hope you are feeling better now hun xx

oh hun, sounds like all this testing is stressing you out, do you have to do so many? can you just do them when you get symptoms?

hope you are feeling better now hun xx

I love to POAS....:rofl:

I'm trying really hard not to test.... today I haven't test yet because I just want to test once at 3pm

I'm being a good girl today. . . lol

:yipee: EWCM :yipee:

Two days in a row.. :yipee:

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I got a positive OPK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG ...... I really thought it would be negative since I have EWCM today I figured that I missed the surge but NO WAY JOSE!!!!!!

THAT line is SUPER dark! darker than the control line and it came up instintly! OMG

My heart is pounding! I can't wait to get home and BD now! :rofl:

I posted a picture in the Ovulation test gallery

Clearblue Digital OPK had a Smiley face on it!!!!!! :yipee:

brilliant news hun- you go get bedding! xxxx

Good morning everyone

I think I'm 3dpo today :happydance: But the bad thing is I can't test on thanksgiving because I'll only be 12dpo! and It would just mess us thanksgiving if I saw a :bfn:

Today is 10dpo and although I know it is sometimes too early to test on 10dpo I still tested this morning and I got a :bfn: which really, really hurt me a lot. Yesterday I got a :bfn: with first morning urine, then at 2pm I took a different pregnancy test with a target brand test and I thought I got a faint positive. Now I think it was an evaporation line because today’s test was definitely negative. There is no point in testing tomorrow morning, and I rather not because a negative test will totally ruin my Thanksgiving and I’ll be in a horrible mood all day kind of like today. I’m really upset and I can’t stop crying. I just don’t think that I can keep up with this emotional rollercoaster!

I have a really bad nervous disorder that is triggered when I’m stressed or emotionally wacked out and I’m starting to get the symptoms again. I know I still have a chance since the :witch: isn’t due until Sunday (14dpo). I will only test on Monday is the :witch: isn’t here by morning on Monday.

I’m having cramping. I seem to have a lot more cervical mucus than normal. I’m peeing a lot lately, and my nipples are so very sore. I wish 14dpo would be tomorrow so that I can test already and get it over with. I just don’t understand why it has taken me so long to conceive. Why do I have to take clomid? Why do I have to see the doctor every single month? Why? Why me?

I know so many people who don’t want kids, who aren’t ready to be parents, people who should never be pregnant again and yet they are the ones to get knocked up every time they look at a man!!!!!!!!!! Why can’t I be like that! I just don’t understand!

Awaiting your BFP pics!!!!!! When will you restest? 12dpo then 14?

I really don't know why when we try it doesnt happen right away, but to others it does at the drop of a hat... so unfair!!!! :hissy:

I'm planning on testing Monday morning if AF doesn't show up, Monday will be 15dpo. I don't want to waste me last HPT :rofl:

As for me, the :witch: showed up today. I'm not one bit upset or discouraged as I thought I would have been. If fact I'm happy that she came because this is my first normal :witch: in over one year. This AF was not brought on by Provera and I'm so happy about that!!!! :happydance:

DH left early for work this morning (3:30am) and I will tell him that the :witch: got me. We made an agreement that if AF showed up that this cycle we were going to do things different.

New Cycle:

I will continue to take my BBT at 4:45 am every day, however I will not post any of the temps until cycle day 21. This was I don't stress about my temp going up and down and wondering when I will ovulate. Since I have to take Clomid. I know that I'm due to ovulate between cd14 and cd 18 so we will BD as much as we can during those five days. Including cd19 - for a just in case BD lol

Next af is due 1/1/09. That same day I miscarried last year! Maybe this is a good thing this year. Maybe God is going to replace that sadness with JOY on 1/1/09 ----- Oh I sure do hope so -----