Shri's journal

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Im sorry to hear about your losses and fingers crossed all will go well for you this time!!

just feeling :cry:
It was hard to write my story and then I could see that lots of people viewed it but only one responded. I guess I just feel a bit silly for exposing something so close to my heart (my angels) here.:cry:

:( please put it back up i didnt get to read it, the thing with writing about loss's is alot of people dont know what to say so dont say anything.

please dont be sad....

:( please put it back up i didnt get to read it, the thing with writing about loss's is alot of people dont know what to say so dont say anything.

please dont be sad....

Thank you for writing this. I know it's hard for people to know what to say. A lot of it was because I was nervous in the first place to write it all and then I just felt 'oh no this is all too much'. It took me a while to write it - it's hard to know what details to include and what to leave out because of not wanting to scare people about their own pregnancy, or cause them to get the wrong idea about my story.

I'll try and write it again.:blush:

My Story 2nd try.

Ok - bear with me.

3 years ago, I fell pregnant with my first child. We had a couple of days of shock and confusion as my OH and I are from two different continents and we thought we had 'plenty of time' to figure out where we were going to settle, get married etc. However, we soon got exited about our future baby, so we got married and OH came to live with me in UK. It was a 'textbook perfect' pregnancy, as they say. I loved it, although I was quite emotional the whole time. Everything was going well and we were already deeply in love with our baby, who we found out would be a little boy! ( I'm keeping all our names private for now)

I went overdue and was worried about this, but no one else seemed to think it was anything to worry about. Eventually at 42 weeks I had a completely natural labour, no pain relief at all (it was AGONY) - despite the pain, until the outcome, it was quite an amazing experience and parts of which I will treasure.

When our baby boy was finally delivered (in a birthing pool at the hospital) he did not move or breath. Everyone around us went into panic as we sat there in utter shock. They whisked him away and tried to resuscitate him - sadly to no avail. 20 minutes later I was told my baby had gone.

He was absolutely perfect - so beautiful. He must have died during the last hour of labour. We had been monitored up until that last hour and everything was fine, his heartbeat was perfect. But that last hour, no one monitored us - a fact which haunts me to this day.

We were told later on that he was probably deprived of oxygen and just slipped away. He looked so perfect, so peaceful, just like a sleeping angel. No other reason could be found. It was extremely hard to comprehend.
We cuddled him and talked to him - but it took several hours before it really sunk in that he was not going to cry or wake up - ever. I still have dreams about this.

I can't describe the pain and grief. And anger too - to think that if I had been monitored, his distress may have been picked up and intervention could have saved him. :cry:

I miss him every minute of every day - sometimes I still find it hard to believe that everything went wrong in just a few moments. I suppose, in the days of old, this sort of thing happened a lot more often.

3 years later - OH and I moved to his side of the pond to try to build a new life. Everything changes when a baby dies - your friends, the points of reference in your life that are important to you, and your plans for the future.

Last autumn I fell pregnant again. We were delighted but our happiness was short lived. I had some spotting (which I now know is not necessarily a concern) but more than that I instinctively felt something was not right. At my 10 week scan we discovered that our baby had died at 8 weeks. A missed miscarriage.

Later on I had a hysteroscopy to check that my womb was all right and as soon as I recovered from that, we rather casually started to try again and here I am now at 9+4 weeks! So far, everything is looking good.

(by the way, I put our TTC success down to not using any lubrication whatsoever, not even preseed!)

We are taking things one day at a time. If we get through a day with nothing scary or worrying happening, it is a good day.
I really really hope that this time, I will have a live, healthy baby. My firstborn, and the tiny one that was miscarried too will never ever ever be forgotton. Our baby boy could never be replaced and even a dozen babies could not make up for his loss - he was, and is, a real little individual to us, with unique features and all the potential of any little baby boy.

We are simply hoping for an earth-baby now, to compliment our angel one!

I'm so sorry for your two losses. Your angels will be watching over this pregnancy.

I really hope things go smoothly for you, good luck.

i hope you get your earth baby soon! you are so brave to re write your story, these things are all sent to test us. its not fair and i dont think its right but they happen and we survive.
you are a beautiful person you have nothing to worry about.
hugs

Just what I don't need. But yesterday I discovered (a bit late thanks to stupid voicemail) that my doctor has found from a blood test that I have a slightly overactive thyroid and this needs to be treated. I am picking up a prescription today and seeing an endocrinologist next week. While I am grateful that in America the doctors seem to really check every little thing, sometimes I find it all a bit dramatic. Not as dramatic as my mind an emotions however. Of course I googled and of course I scared myself silly and of course I have spend every other minute ever since thinking WHY WHY WHY. Why yet another rare and yet random complication. I'm finding it hard as it is - I think that it once you have had a loss, it is impossible to feel completely safe in future pregnancies, and every little strange twinge or change causes me to worry that something is wrong or that the baby has died.

Yesterday I had finally talked myself into a space of feeling calm acceptance and felt a bit better, and then I got the call about the hyperthyroidism. The odd thing is, apart from the pregnancy symptoms, I feel good - healthier than I have for a long time. The doc said that it is only in extreme cases that the baby is effected, but still, I have to take medicine and I wonder if that will effect the baby. OH says all we can do is go with the flow - and he is right. I've talked to him about buying a doppler. We can't really afford it, and I'm scared I will jinx things if I get one (irrational I know) but it seems that despite my history, I won't be given any extra scans, unless there is a problem - because the insurance won't cover it. So I don't know ... I'm doing all I can to keep positive.
I just hope my baby is ok.

Just read your story and am truly sorry about what you've been through.
Have you had a scan yet? My first one wasn't until I was 14 weeks so it was nervewrecking waiting all that time.
I hope that you can find it in yourself to eventually relax and enjoy your pregnancy, it will take time but I'm sure your strong enough to overcome your fears and remember that you will get a lot of support from the forum. It just takes time for everyone to get to know you cause there's just so many people on this thing. xx

Have decided to just keep thinking positive. I've got my next antenatal appointment on the 3rd so only a few days to wait and the doc assurred me that if they can't get the heartbeat with a doppler, then we will have a scan. So either way we will find out and there is no point in worrying until then - there is no reason why everything shouldn't be just fine.

OH has been great. I've started to take my thyroid meds. A very low dose of PTU, and have not noticed any difference. But my waist band is definitely getting uncomfortable now and that must mean something is growing!

I have not lost a worrying amount of weight, just a couple of pounds, so I'm very hopeful that this thyroid issue is just a very mild case and will be sorted out soon.

Going out to buy some socks for OH later today (lol! he gets through tonnes of socks for some reason) and am absolutely going to let myself browse in the baby section and enjoy happy dreams. I think it can only help, because even if things do go wrong, at least I will know I hoped and believed in this baby - which I do so very very much.

Had a nice brekky of cheerios mixed with cocopops. Funny how I have been really liking milk. Usually can't stand it except in tea or coffee, but now while the thought of tea or coffee makes me feel sick, the idea of a big glass of milk is so appealing.

Not much to say today. Worried and trying not to be. that's it. Appointment tomorrow so just praying all is well.

Flippin' Blimies Shri! I just popped in to say how much I love your avatar, I wasn't expecting that! :huh:

I feel for you absolutely and I think you're so brave and must be an increadibly strong woman to have gone through so much and still be the balanced and beautiful person that you so obviously are. :hugs:

I'll be thinking of you and wishing you only good things for the future.

Love and Light Sweetie.

X

Good luck with your appointment today and let us know what their saying. x

Thank you - will do. It is prenatal check up today and endocrinologist tomorrow. Busy week for me with my pregnancy brain ( I went out last night with two different earrings in - and they were dangly ones too LOL!)

:lol:

Hope you made it alright and everything is well. :)

Yes all alright with bubs! ( I posted about it in first tri)
tomorrow it's the endo specialist appointment. My Doc said that this is where I will know more about what is going on with my thyroid and the plan for treatment. She said most likely they will monitor the medication and my levels as I am on the lowest dose at the moment. She thinks it is pregnancy induced because I did have a thyroid test back in dec (before the hysteroscopy) and that came back normal.

Today I am feeling very relieved. Although I can't celebrate too much as the sickness is back and I feel pretty gaggy! LOL!

hey hun! im sorry i havnt commented on here much ive been really really sick. im glad every things ok with the baby.

take care xx

Fingers crossed that the low doses are going to be enough eh!

Glad is all good with LO. :)

the sickness is baaaaaaaaaaack! Not that I mind but it is funny how quickly you forget how awful it is when it subsides. I'm back to not knowing what to eat and threw up last night - after just a handful of grapes and then later on had to abandon my meal when we went out for thai food, seconds after it arrived. Poor OH had to sit and scoff his alone while I went out in the rain trying not to throw up in the street. Then I sat in the car until he was done.

Ah well. Off to the endo bloke now. Will keep you all posted.

Am trying to decide whether or not to buy a doppler. It is not in the budget at the moment, but I could save up... I'm about 70% sure I want one, but it will have to be a good one and they are dearer.

Hey Shri, now we're buds and I noticed your journal I thought I'd pop in and say hello. I can't believe your story, it's so sad and my heart goes out to you. I send you all the best wishes in the world that this pregnancy is a success. I know it will be hard for you as your milestone comes right at the end, but I am sure the months will fly and you will get your little healthy and happy treasure at the end.
:hugs::hugs:

Well, the endo doctor has made me feel lots and lots better. He said my levels are only slightly elevated and that in pregnancy they do want them to actually be a little bit higher than usual (as opposed to lower) .... so long story short - he will be keeping and eye on me, but at this point there really is nothing to worry about so long as I keep taking the meds. I am on a very low dose and he assurred me that this would not effect the baby.

Now I am going to laze around for the rest of the day while I can (work gets hectic the minute schools out as we have all the summer camp programs aaaaaargh!) and I have a big bowl of watermelon and some DVD's to keep me happy.

PS. I'm making some lovely friends on this forum and I am very glad. thank you!

That's great news love, I'm really pleased for you. :)

Hope you enjoy your melon and your films.

Off to work in a moment or two. Feeling really really sick again today so not looking forward to it. However, I told my boss on tuesday (that I am pg etc) and she was very cool about the whole thing - which makes me feel more secure about being there.

Managed to eat some cereal - hope it stays down!

I had a really poopy day yesterday - and my pregnancy hormones really did a number on me and OH and some others in the family too. It's all been so blah I can't be bothered to write about it. But I feel much better today. Off to find some food now (there never seems to be enough!)

a photo of my bump!

(which seems to want to hide so no one can see it - will see if I can fix this later)

:dohh:

Wah! Piccy Bump no working! :nope:

Hope you feeling better love. :hugs:

Take it easy.

X

Oh bother - it was there yesterday. Hmph. Will try to fix .
Doh! I can't make it stay there.

How odd that your picture won't stick! I'm new to this section of the forum and am just getting round to reading all the journals. I am so sorry to hear of what you went through, it's unimaginable to me. I am sure you are going to carry this little bundle to full term and you'll insist on being monitored all the way - you'll have your beautiful little Earth Angel here and his (or her) big brother will always be watching over him /her. :hug::hug:

How are you feeling today hun?

Well I can't get my bump pic to stay but I probably need to get it on photobucket or something instead. Will get round to that.

Thanks for checking in with me. I've had a really odd couple of days, just busy but also a bit blue because OH is away and I've been paranoid about not feeling movements yet (daft I know, it is so early to be feeling them anyway). I guess I just feel I must be more in tune with things so it feels odd.

Anyway I phoned the doc's today and told them I was feeling worried and the nurse let me go in to hear the heart beat on the doppler! She found it really easily this time and everything sounded normal. I was very grateful for the reassurance.

So feeling happy now!

It is bloody hot here though - too hot to go outside and the Air conditioning in our car doesn't work so I am wondering how to tackle the grocery shopping. OH is coming back tomorrow and said he'd do it with me then, but I don't know - it is easier shopping by myself in a way because he always wanders off and does silly things like leaving the trolly (american = cart) stranded in odd places. Whereas I am methodical and shop according to get in an out asap and making sure the fruit doesn't get squashed. LOL!

That's great that you heard beanies HB Hon. :hugs:

I can relate with the shopping too. My OH makes me double check the list before we go to the checkout! :huh: :rofl:

That's great that you heard beanies HB Hon. :hugs:

I can relate with the shopping too. My OH makes me double check the list before we go to the checkout! :huh: :rofl:

:rofl:
I keep telling my OH not to wander off and not to leave the cart stranded, but he can't help it and then he gets fed up after a short while and says 'can we go now' and I'm still trying to finish getting the shopping after wasting half the time trying to find him and the cart. I suppose it is good practice for motherhood - LOL! Not that I would let any little ones wander off OR commandeer the cart!

Shri, what a sad story your's has been so far. But I've got a good feeling that we'll all be celebtaing with you when the time comes. Do you know what your having? I have a funny feeling it will be a little girl lol. I found myself very sick with my girls but not to bad with the boys (I've 3 of each). If it doesn't make you too upset to think on it but was you as sicky with you little lad?

I'm new to the forum so I don't know if people post their due dates anywhere, I see you ticker says 188 days to go but I couldn't even tell you if that meant this year or next lol. When is your due date?

OOh, we're posting at the same time lol!

hello 6lilpigs.
My due date is dec 18th - same as polo-princess actually!

I had a feeling of whether this baby is a boy or girl around the time I took my HPT and so far my feeling hasn't changed. But, I'm keeping all that, and all names secret! : )

STUPID MOSQUITOS! one just bit me on my BOOB! I really need to find something to keep them off me - I can't even go outside now. It's ridiculous.

How exciting a christmas baby. Isn't this site great that it has members from different countries. It seems strange to me looking forward to somebodies birth 1000's of miles away.

Will you find out what your having? I think if you don't it will add to the excitement but I suppose its always nice to know what colour to shop for before hand lol.

CLICK FOR MY BUMP PICTURE (http://picasaweb.google.com/hollydharma/NewAlbum61408158PM/photo#5211798613530873506)
trying to figure out how to keep my bump picture here - nothing seems to work! boo:hissy:

I hope the link works now!

Yay worky link. :dance:

Also, Yay, lovely bump! :hugs:

feeling a bit lonely and strange. Like i don't really fit in.:cry:

Oh Honey, I'm sure that's not true. :hugs:

Who's made you feel like this mate and I'll come kick the crap out of them! :grr:

Oh Honey, I'm sure that's not true. :hugs:

Who's made you feel like this mate and I'll come kick the crap out of them! :grr:

Oh nobody has - I just feel a bit lonely, mostly I think because a lot of what I am going through now, I am comparing to my first pregnancy and I don't feel I can share in the same way - for a start I don't want to upset or scare anyone. I had a really wonderful pregnancy first time round and there was no indication of what was to come, but I feel like if I share sometimes some of my experience from that pregnancy people might feel uncomfortable because of the outcome of it.

I just feel it is all so complicated for me - I'm so happy and hopeful, but I feel so sad too - I miss my first born dearly and I'm worried and scared as anything.

I don't even really feel I can post in the miscarriage and loss section as most of the people there are dealing with a current loss. I'm part of another forum which is specifically for people who have had the loss of a baby , and that helps, but I want to feel 'normal' sometimes and I know I never will...

Sweetheart I really feel for you but you know, you shouldn't edit yourself for the sake of others. Of course you want to share in the same way as everyone else is and not one lady on here would begrudge you that. Anyone who feels uncomfortable can just do one really can't they?!! And if they do then they probably aren't the sort of person that you would get on with overly well anyway.

What happened to you and your little man will be with you always no matter what and although it is tragic to have lost him you at least know that you and your OH gave your Son all the love in the world and we all of us know that if either of you could have taken his place then you would have.

Shri, really love don't try to deal on your own; I will always listen to a rant or a scream and cry whatever you want. I haven't been through anything as heart wrenching as this and I can't pretend to know how you and your OH might feel but I would never want to leave you feeling isolated because of it.

Hold tight mate and be thinking of yourself for a while eh?!

:hug::hugs::hug::hugs::hug:

Your post has made me cry - but in a good way - thank you. What you said meant so much to me
x

No problem sweetie. :hugs:

Just PM me anytime you want for whatever reason. :friends:

I've been off work yesterday and today - on account of the morning sickness being so bad that I can't function. I called the doctor but she only told be to follow the usual advice (liquids and regular small meals) as she felt she didn't want to put me on any meds for it.
I don't mind about the meds so much, as I am managing to keep some things down, but I am so worried about my baby. I have to wait 2 whole weeks before my next check up and I am really freaking out because I haven't felt any more flutters since last saturday.

All in all I am having a really tearful and scary time and trying to distract myself as much as I can. Poor OH has gone off with yet another list of random foods that I think I might be able to choke down - but I don't know, it is so frustrating as one minute I am SURE I can stomach something and then within 2 seconds of it being in my mouth I am retching.

This is all the more confusing right now because I really thought I was entering the 'bloom' phase. The sickness seemed to be easing considerably and I had a nice little bump. The bloat has definitely gone down a bit the past couple of days (not surprising with all that vomitting and not being able to eat much) but it worries me no end. I feel guilty about even thinking this, but there are some pretty dark moments when I am sure the worst has happened. Will I ever get to a point when I feel 'safe' in this pregnancy?

Really not having a good time are you sweet. :hugs:

I can't imagine what it must be like to not be able to eat anything. Have you tried things like thin soups and/or milkshakes? Maybe the liquid version will go down easier and at least they aren't gonna hurt so much on the way back up if it doesn't work. :)

Try to keep your chin up Hon and trust, you're not alone in the dark places. All of us at some point have had that 'I wish I just knew either way' moment.

Do you not have a doppler?

Surely one would help to calm your nerves.

Well - seem to be feeling a bit better today - I think the rest really helped even though I felt awful about missing work (although I would have been useless if I had managed to go in anyway). Had a good nights sleep last night and feeling like I might be able to stomach some proper food today ( other than crackers!)

Still worried bout not feeling more movements though - maybe it is still too early. Don't know.

Am trying to hold off getting a doppler - because I think it would scare me more if I had trouble finding the HB or noticed anything odd. It is a decision I toy with every day though.

Well, I have felt more ? that could be movements, sporadically, but it helps me keep sane. Just another 8 days until my next appointment and I plan to tell the doc that it is just too long for me to go 4 weeks between appointments.

Still feel sick and got the trots too. Doesn't seem to make any difference what I eat.

Am sooooooooo tired all the time though. Really want to get some things done but my body doesn't want to co-operate. Missing my mum and England lots - not least because almost everything I am craving to eat cannot be found here in US and although I can get some of those things sent over, the post office doesn't like it and mum said she always feels nervous with her little parcels for me.

Don't want to seem like I am moaning all the time, but it's been quite tough going emotionally. I think the new schedule at work threw me off too - I was used to coming home and having a nap after lunch but now the program starts just before lunch and I don't get home until tea time. Last week one of the little boys fell asleep and we couldn't wake him up when it was home time - poor little mite. I knew what he felt like though!

Last night OH and I had a midnight snack at about 2.30am and sat in bed together chatting and eating bread rolls and bananas. It was lovely. His hours mean that I don't get much time with him to just chill out like that so often these days.

I keep thinking about names - but nothing seems quite right yet. We had the same situation last time, I think we only settled on one after the sexing scan and then it just felt 100% right. Of course I left my ace baby names book behind in UK and now I wish I had held on to it. I'll have to ask mum if she knows where it got to although I suspect it has disappeared by now.

I really wish I had trained as an OBGYN now. Shucks. I suppose I still could but the thought of having to revise algebra and take exams puts me off.

Your post has made me cry - but in a good way - thank you. What you said meant so much to me
x

Your not on your own there Shri, her post has made me tear up an' all. Shes got a lot to answer to that one, if I'm not spitting my tea out laughing I'm choked up instead lol.


On a more serious note, I wuld love to hear if your pregnanacy is like the last but I felt awkward asking it as I didn't want to bring up sad memories for you, especially as my theory is that you have a pink one this time so I need as many details as I can before I put my money on lol.

I am positive that this pregnancy will go as smoothly as your last, it wasn't anything to do with how you carried or grew your little boy that made things end up the way they did, it was purely lack of monitoring at the end.
That will not happen this time.
I hope the sickness eases up for you soon, I'm sure when I've had it bad it has ended at about 16 weeks so not long now. And to feel movements so early is enviable lol, you do know that girls are more active earlier on aswell don't you!! I'd forgotten that fascinating bit of info there until now, I'll have to add it to my guess the sex of your baby tips:winkwink:

Aw thank you - I really appreciate what you wrote.

In many ways this pregnancy is very different from my first one. Which might or might not prove your theory about which team we will be batting for tee hee...(but I can't say anything because I have promised not to so shhhhh!)

My first one was really text book - I only had a few weeks of nausea and only threw up once - but yes - it was so smooth and of course, then I didn't worry about every little thing like I am this time. But please free to ask me things - although it is sad, I am also very proud of being able to carry such a gorgeous little soul so it is nice to have the chance to be able to include him as I progress in this current pregnancy and it makes me happy when others acknowledge this.

HUGS x

But please free to ask me things - although it is sad, I am also very proud of being able to carry such a gorgeous little soul so it is nice to have the chance to be able to include him as I progress in this current pregnancy and it makes me happy when others acknowledge this.


That is a fantastic approach to have love and with such a big heart I'm sure your current little bean will be chosen by an equally gorgeous soul to bring you all the joy that you deserve. :hugs:

I'm with you on the tiredness. I can barely keep my eyes open now! :sleep: I'm sure one day I'll post a line or two of gobbledeygook where my face hit the keyboard. :lol: :comp:

I think talking to your doctor about your anxieties is a really good idea. If for no other reason then you've got them out in the open then. Things are much easier to deal with when you can see them than if you keep them tucked away behind the stuff cupboard. :)

Hope you start to feel a bit better soon. :hugs:

Made it back into work today - everyone was pretty nice about my need to sneak off to have a snack while the kids were having the free-play session. The kids really crack me up, they are so cute and funny and I can't wait to have my own.

Had to wear the travel sickness bands all day though and silly people kept saying 'oh you'll feel better in the second trimester' ( I AM in the second trimester dang it!)

But an amazing thing - I actually cooked some supper for us tonight. Poor OH was wiped out too and somehow I felt up to it. I made lemony-tamari tempeh, fluffy quinoa and ratatouille - pretty pleased with myself.

The fireflies are dancing all over the garden - it is so pretty. Wish I could go outside and watch them but the blinkin mozzies would eat me all up.

An early night for me tonight.

Aww well done for managing to muster up te strength to actually cook something hun, its such a pain in the but when you feel crap.

Im still feeling crappy on and off at the minute, its deffo eased off though, an early night sounds like a good plan to me!!

Phew. Day off today and I reeeeeeally need it. The past week has been hard going at work. Not only trying to manage with the all day morning sickness, but being on my feet constantly with a group of 3-6 year olds, some of whom have behavioral issues has totally worn me out. They all want to climb all over me too - so the minute I did sit down, one of them would plonk themselves on my lap, and the older ones are not light - it's like having a sack of potatoes dumped on you. So I've had a headache all week long.

Yesterday was the worst as my collegue was off so I had the class to myself. The (teenage) helpers who are there to help set up and clear up and with potty breaks etc were all ga-ga and I felt like I was baby sitting them as well and one of the little boys, although only 5 years old, is the size of a tubby ten year old and he did my head in. I really struggled to not raise my voice at him but he was on a right one yesterday... spitting, kicking other kids, and continually wanting my attention while bellowing 'I DONT WANT TO' whenever I suggested anything, even stuff he usually likes to do.

Really wanted to switch off when I got home, but I was starving as I had had no chance for a break or a snack (which made me cross and worried for my baby) and last night I kept dreaming about the whole thing.

However, I was eating some grapes in bed this morning and felt an unmistakable flutter. The flutters are getting quite familiar now, even though it is still quite sporadic.
So that cheered me up and today I am just going to have a rest, maybe bake some more flapjacks later on, read and catch up with a few e-mails and snoooooooooooze.

Also don't have to worry about lunch as we have some yummy left overs and lots of tomatoes and cheese which are my new 'thing' to eat. Cheese and tomatoes (with salt and pepper on the sliced toms) yummmy!

PS - latest bump pic (http://picasaweb.google.com/hollydharma/NewAlbum61408158PM/photo#5216584410947556258)

Oooh flutters - how exciting - they'll start getting stronger over the next week or two. I see ur into the travel sickness bands as well - I've just started using them and loving them at the mo. I feel half normal again!

Oooh flutters - how exciting - they'll start getting stronger over the next week or two. I see ur into the travel sickness bands as well - I've just started using them and loving them at the mo. I feel half normal again!

thanks. Yeh, I don't know how I would have survived without them. Even sometimes when I think they are not working and take them off I'm like
OHHHH noooooo put them back on QUICK, because they definitely take the edge off. I swear they have gotten me through at work.

What a nightmare class lol, I have great respect for people who work with young children, I just totally would not have the patience. Its different with your own children, when you tell them to stop your allowed to threaten all sorts of creative punishments until they do as they're told lol. There'd be letters left, right and centre if I was left in a class of disruptive lil ones all day.

Aren't the flutters lovely. When the morning sickness and tiredness passes its the flutters we look to for reassurance, I know which I'd choose.

What a nightmare class lol, I have great respect for people who work with young children, I just totally would not have the patience. Its different with your own children, when you tell them to stop your allowed to threaten all sorts of creative punishments until they do as they're told lol. There'd be letters left, right and centre if I was left in a class of disruptive lil ones all day.

Aren't the flutters lovely. When the morning sickness and tiredness passes its the flutters we look to for reassurance, I know which I'd choose.

Yeh - they definitely try ones patience, often on purpose. I'm glad I don't have to deal with him for a longer period because it was making me sad to actually be feeling dislike towards the poor kid (which I made sure I did not show in anyway)

The flutters - ahhh they are addictive. I want MORE, and regularly. It freaks me out if I don't feel them for a day or so. Is it normal at this stage for them to be quite irregular?

At least your getting them often lol .... im getting them reaaaaally randomly at the minute, its wonderful yet slighty annoying because i want them to happen more often lol

Yes, they'll definately be random for a while still annoying isn't it lol. Then you get the time around 20 weeks? when you start prodding your belly abit for flutters on demand lol. Then you start seeing your belly move, I love that, some people hate it? it freaks them out! Then your back to the ol' kick mummys lungs into her throat phase. Oh the joys of pregnancy rofl.

They sound like a right little bunch of wotsits that you teach. :amartass:

Sounds like you're back in the game though sweetie and enjoying it a bit more than you were. :D

Yup, I'm starting to feel a lot more hopeful and letting myself really imagine having this little baby to bring home, come december.

It's good to know that the flutters aren't usually felt regularly until later on, because I do worry if I haven't felt any for a while and it hasn't got to the stage yet where eating something cold or sweet will get LO going (or at least if it does I don't feel it yet)

I do remember those big whomping kicks though! My son used to make my ribs sore with his kicking, but I cherish that memory. And the weird alien spectacle of seeing your belly moving around with the baby inside. We once saw a perfect little foot shape pressing out - it was so adorable. I can't wait for more of those kicks and movements.

PP your flutters will come more often soon! This is my 3rd pregnancy after all and they say people often feel the movements earlier once they have had a baby.

That's wonderful Shri! :laugh2:

I used to get the footprint in the tummy too. It's just amazing isn't it?! Stefan, my oldest used to jam his whole head under my ribs! I used to have to gently massage his head to get him to move. :lol:

GAH! PReGNAncy BRaiIINNNN!

I was supposed to go for my 16 week check up today (they booked it a bit early). Was sitting here eating my cereal and watching Germany's Next Top Model (!yeh...well, it's entertaining and I can try to remember how much German I have forgotten) when the nurse calls to ask if I am alright. I tell her yes I'll see you tomorrow then (because I thought my appointment was for tomorrow even though I have actually written it on the calendar for today) and then she tells me, no it was supposed to be this morning. :blush:

I felt so silly. Anyway she said to go in later today instead so I called OH to let him know (he was a bit grumpy as he already had to shuffle things at work for tomorrow)
and I will be heading off at lunch time.

Nervous now. I usually have a while to sort of psyche myself up for the check ups but I'm in the middle of a bunch of :laundry::dishes: too.
At least I'm glad they can fit me in today rather than have to wait for another free slot.

We went to watch Wall.e last night. It was brilliant, and there was me, pregnant woman with big bag of pop-corn, tearing up at certain parts of the ANIMATION! hehehe

It's gonna be one of those days where I have to write things on my hand to not forget them, I can tell.:blush:

Durrrr preggo brain lol cant believe you forgot your appointment!!

Talk about your pregnancy brain!!! I read this yesterday and meant to respond and didn't. :huh: I dunno if I just forgot or maybe my phone went off or something. :dohh: What a spanner. :rofl:

So how did it go in the end then? You remembered to go to this one right?! :lol: Did you get to hear LOs HB?

What was that film you saw? I've not heard of it.

LOL! I know, the nurse was laughing at me too. I felt sooooo silly. But I got to go in later on instead and it was good. Heard the HB which made me feel happy and everything else was just routine checking BP and wee, so not much to report. But we booked my 20 week scan which is the big one where they check everything and hopefully we will find out the sex and they told me, very kindly, that I can call and go in any time I want to have a listen to the HB!

This made me feel lots better because I am scared to buy a doppler, but now I don't have to and I can still go in and have a listen FOR FREE! The nurse was super nice and said it would make her happy to be able to do that for us.

Then I came home and crashed out on the sofa for a bit before getting on with some chores.
I am definitely feeling LO now - almost every day I get some little flicks. Somedays it is pretty quiet and not much, but for the past few days I have noticed at least once a day a little pip pip pip. It is so cute and makes me giggle, but we can't feel them from the outside so my OH just has to take my word for it although it makes him go all doe eyed.

I'm really loving being pregnant at the moment. Probably because I've been off work for a few days so I can relax and eat when I want, but it is nice having a better appetite and having a little bump to pat!

Oh Wall-E is the latest movie by Pixar (they did finding Nemo) I bet your boys would love it. I loved it lots and want to see it again. I'm such a big kid!

You lucky wotsit! Mind you if my GP said that they'd never get rid of me; I only live down the hill from them. :rofl:

That's really great news love I'm so chuffed for you. Scan booked and LO wriggling away too. Can't be bad. :D

:hug:

It was the 4th of July American celebration yesterday but me and hubby stayed in and watched a DVD about the Dalai lama instead. We have both gone crazy on tomato sandwiches because the toms in our garden are so tasty.

LO seems to have a bit of a pattern - one lively day, then a bit less, then hardly anything then a bit more lively again. I find the days when LO is hardly perceptible a bit hard, but mostly I am feeling lots and lots better.

Really liking having a bump, although it is already getting a bit hard to get up and down when picking things up etc.

Back to work on monday so going to make the most of the weekend to catch up with friends and chill out. However, my OH is a messy puppy and I seem to be constantly doing housework. While he was away, I hardly had to do any! Not that I am complaining - I would much rather have him here making a mess than not.

Right, off to do more:laundry::hangwashing:

Got the blues this morning. Don't really know why. Partly with having to go to work I think, even though I was really getting a bit bored the past couple of days. My appetite is a bit strange too - for days I was happy to eat all day and enjoying my food, but the past couple of days, not really bothered and I wonder why. Maybe my digestive system is just full??

Baby was moving a lot yesterday which was nice, and I felt a couple of little flicks just now. I woke up thinking about my son - maybe that is why I feel so sad. I just wish I could have cuddled him more although nothing would have ever felt like enough cuddles or enough time. Today there is just an ache in my heart and I don't really want to talk to anyone or see anyone. If I could do anything I would go for a nice long day by the sea, collect some shells, sing some songs into the wind and waves and have a good hearty cry without interruption.

However I expect the kids will take my mind off of myself when I get to work.

Your going to get good days and sad days and the hormones don't help, it must be hard to be excited about a baby when you are still mourning for another. I so hope that your pregnancy above everyone elses flies and baby arrives bonny and bouncing for you so that all your worries and mixed emotions can be out the way for you and your family. Good luck at work lol, definately don't envy you there but the tomatoes sound good!!

Hi hon. :hugs:

Hope you feeling a bit better after your boo-day yesterday and that the kids didn't play you up too much. Your beach walk sounds like a massive release mechanism, I bet it's really cleansing?!

Sounds like you've been industrious since OH has been home and LO has been enjoying it. :D It's amazing that you can detect a pattern like that already.

I forget that you're in the states. I was wondering how you had tomatoes already. :roll: :lol:

Thanks. The kids were actually really good yesterday and I had a lot of fun with them, but then in the last hour one of them had a potty accident and we have this rather dramatic protocol (cordon off the area, call for help on the radio and say it is a biohazard and then evacuate the room!!!!)

Trying to do this with a group of 3 year olds is not funny and I was really p-ed off at the whole procedure, not least because I feel that poor child could be traumatized by it.
Once they had all gone (the kids) I had a bit of a hormonal rant and told my boss that it really p-ed me off. Then I wondered if 'oops' I shouldn't have been so vociferous.
Oh well. I quite needed to let off some steam and I could have done with having a bit of shout about it, but I managed to keep my volume normal-ish. This is very unlike me, I am usually the cool calm collected breezy one. hahaha... gotta love those hormones.
It reminded me of when I was first pregnant once in Starbucks there was this silly mix up where they gave my drink to someone else, who took a sip before realizing and then they tried to just give me the sipped drink! I actually scared my husband but stepping out of my normal polite calm self by demanding a fresh drink and pronto!

HA! I like how pregnancy brings out the momma tiger in me!

Anyway - feeling better today mood wise, but really tired again and a bit blah because
of various silly things.

"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming'' (as my OH sings to me when I get like this - it is from Finding Nemo)

How are you ducks? I will have to try and catch up with your journals before I leave for work if I can.

:cry::hissy::-({|=::sick:

oh poop! had another major resurgence of morning sickness last night - puking like I was back at eight weeks, and consequently, had to call in sick again today on account of feeling too sick and weak and horrible to deal with anything. It is very frustrating and I am getting paranoid.

However on a really nice note - the postman brought the very first purchase we have made especially for this baby today!

THIS (http://www.mobywrap.com/c-15-moby-wrap.aspx#)

Me and OH tried it out with a teddy bear and it is brilliant and we both think it was a great buy and we both went a bit misty eyed. I'd read lots of great reviews about it so when we got an amazon voucher, we put it towards that!

Now if only I can figure out what to eat that won't send me running to the bathroom!:sick:

Oh poor Honey. It never rains eh? :hugs:

I don't mean to pry but have you had any other signs of a UTI at all? I only ask because I read recently that a sudden re-emmergance of the sicky blob can be an indicator of a missed UTI. I don't want to alarm you but it might be worth getting it checked out.

Man that poopy accident protocal is fully full on isn't it??! Geesh! What do they think the kids have been eating for goodness sake? Pure plutonium or something! :lol: I think that's the maddest thing I've heard. Over here we just mop it up and stick a 'Caution wet floor' sign over it. Most of us probably think that's OTT. :rofl: :roll: Gave you an opportunity to vent though eh? :thumbup:

Oh and that moby Huggy is perfect! I just knew you'd be using something like that. :hugs: I love that you practiced with a teddy. I showed Nigel how to put a nappy on using a teddy. It's so cute. :cloud9:

I am on constant alert for UTI after all the scary posts I've read - but things seem to be fine there, but yes still super vigilant.

As for the potty accident protocol - yes very very OTT - but then they seem to have some funny ideas here. Today I am not sorry to be away from the place for many reasons.

hey im back online now so thought id say hi

Molly it's good to have you back - I've missed your presence here on b&b!

Feeling a bit better today so going to try to get back to the madness of work.

On a pregnancy note - Why oh why can I not get rid of that peculiar smell in the kitchen?

I've cleaned it like mad and scouted out every possible source - but still it is there, like a sort of river/asparagus odor. Bleh. We even cleaned under the fridge and I have bleached the drains.

Dear horrible smell,
please bugger off!
cheers,
pregnant woman.

I have similar odour afflictions. :neutral:

I'm not sure where it's coming from but it's either the food waste caddy, the washing machine, or the drains. I don't seem to be able to do anything about any of them. :roll:

Glad you're feeling better enough for work but don't over do it hon. :hugs:

Well, work yesterday was a dream - despite my nausea. The children were all in a really good mood and we had lots of fun, no mishaps and I actually got a real buzz out of the day. At one point they were having a really funny conversation amongst themselves about how old their grandparent were, and then later about whether rattlesnakes where bad or good.

Going in again today, shortly. Seems like the morning sickness has these sporadic patterns now. I still feel a bit sicky but haven't actually thrown up today.

Next few weeks are going to be busy - we both have extra appointments and things as well as work but we keep having these odd little grumbly barnys over household chores. We both feel a bit stretched I think, and I hate that the house is not as perfectly in order as usual, but I keep reminding myself that it will probably never be as tidy as soon as baby arrives!

I keep doing this. I decide that I have a craving for a certain dish and so make LOTS of it, so that I can have leftovers etc. Then I go off that dish and it sits in the fridge until we throw it out. However, if I think to myself 'oh no, I'll just make a little bit incase I go off it tomorrow' you can guarantee that I will continue to crave that food for days and days and end up having to make it from scratch several times over. Maybe the baby just has a thing against leftovers.

I keep doing this. I decide that I have a craving for a certain dish and so make LOTS of it, so that I can have leftovers etc. Then I go off that dish and it sits in the fridge until we throw it out. However, if I think to myself 'oh no, I'll just make a little bit incase I go off it tomorrow' you can guarantee that I will continue to crave that food for days and days and end up having to make it from scratch several times over. Maybe the baby just has a thing against leftovers.

I so wished you lived near me Shri lol. You'd just have to drop any leftovers of to no.12 each day:rofl:

i get the thing wherei can smell one thing thats nasty for ages! it makes me feel crazy!

Thanks Shri, you just reminded me that there's a jar of gherkins in the cupboard that i need to throw away! :rofl: I did the same thing. Bought a huge jar of the things and went offf them the next day. :dohh:

Glad you had a good day at work. Kids are funny what they talk about when they don't think you can hear them. :lol:

My OH is laughing about how much food I am eating these past few days. Our grocery bill is definitely bigger recently!

Yesterday my boobs decided to go through another growth spurt. They are MASSIVE and very hurty today.

:hugs: The booby hurty club :friends:

:hissy::cry::hissy:

fed up fed up FED UP!

As you will see from this post (http://www.babyandbump.com/pregnancy-second-trimester/42390-had-hormonal-breakdown-today.html)

I know there are more important things going on in life and the world, but this has really got to me today. Not only because I had to leave work (and we really do need the pay which I will be missing from all these days I keep taking off) but because I am the conscientious type so it just gets to me. I just have to put the baby first though, and it doesn't do to get stressed. Work was great about it, but I feel bad all the same.

But the worst bit is the STUPID HEALTH INSURANCE MALARKY in this country. Really I think it makes people ill from stress - it is so ridiculous. It costs us an absolute fortune and then stupid things happen like one office can't fax something to another office without it getting lost (3 times!!!) and you aren't covered.

Now, this is for my appointments with the endocrinologist for the hyperthyroidism, so I am particularly keen to keep seeing him to keep an eye on the issue, for the sake of the baby. I have my next appointment on wednesday and unless that blinkin letter gets to where it is supposed to go, I am not covered to see him. :hissy: I HAVE to see him because only he can assess whether I need medicine or not and the appointments are for particular time frames throughout the pregnancy. GRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

It's made me very annoyed because both OH and I have been on the phone literally all day to try and sort things as far as we can from our side, but if the healthcare professionals can't get things sorted from their side, we can't do anything but keep phoning and pestering, which is very stressful, being on hold and going through those stupid call menu options over and over and over. What to do!!!

At least LO is wriggling lots and lots which is keeping me sane.

Exactley ..... concentrate on LO if you get too stressed, it always makes me smile to feel her having a wriggle!!

God bless the NHS. That's all I can say.

:hugs:

I wish I could say more but it's one of those situations where the onlything that will make it better is to get the cover sorted. That doesn't really help does it, because you already know that! I'm just going to stand in this corner here and be very quiet. :blush:

Hope you can sort it soon love and keep LO kicking in the mean time. :D

OH managed to get the cover sorted yesterday - took him all day. So I will go to my appointment as planned and if there is any problem when I get there I will put on my stern hat and make a fuss.

It's all a big PIA, but I feel much better today. And loving LO's wriggles and kicks.

Thank goodness for that.

This is not the time that you want to be worrying about medical insurance I'm sure.

I hope your appointment goes well love. :hugs:

Woke up at 5.30am - and got up soon after that to get ready for my appointment with the endocrinologist. Felt sick for a while, but it got better after eating. The doc was great and said that he predicts he won't have to see me again, unless the blood tests show anything new. He says the hyperthyroidism looks to be transient as I have no other indicators for it. YAY!:happydance:

Everyone at the office made a big fuss of me and my bump, which was a bit much so early in the morning but sort of cosy and nice too.

I didn't feel the needle at all this time, although it has left an odd bruise. On the way home I stopped and bought some croissants for a treat. Baby is wriggling lots again. It makes me very happy to feel it.

When I got home OH woke up and we chatted over breakfast. Although I feel dog-tired, I've really enjoyed the morning so far. It's been bright and fresh.

I hope work goes smoothly today. Yesterday one of the kids (another with special needs) had a meltdown, threw some scissors he was not supposed to have anyway, and generally went crazy. I am going to have to tell the others that I CANNOT be chasing 5 year old boys all over the building. Someone else can do all that running around.

It annoyed me as well because he had not brought any lunch so we had to give him snacks (crackers etc) to eat and I'm sure that is not good for him. Mind you when he does bring lunch it is usually of the wonderfully nutritious 'lunchables' variety. Grrr.

Anyway, for now I have a little a bit of time to enjoy my yummy croissants (with butter and jam) and a nice cup of tea. :coffee:

I'm getting really exited about the baby now. I want to start shopping for him/her but we are so strapped for cash at the moment. Trying not to think about all that. There is time.

That's so weird; I've been wanting croissants all morning and now you've gone and reinforced it. Now I must have croissants or all the world will suffer!!! :twisted:

Glad your appointment went well, you must be so relieved. :hugs:

How did the lad get scissors btw?

He snatched them from the table! Sneekily. He wasn't there yesterday - I was quite relieved I'm afraid to say and the day was sooooo much easier.

Endo Doc just called to say my blood tests came back normal so he doesn't think I need to see him again, that it was a transient thing. YAY YAY YAY!

Feel a bit grumpy today though. No real reason. I think OH stressed me out by asking me to take a technological leap (again) last night. He works with all the latest Apple gadgets so he finds it very easy to keep making all these new transitions, but I find it more challenging. Anyway he came home with new phone for me! (my old one has been driving us both nuts)

As delighted as I am, I can't get as exited about it as I can say food or books or clothes (heh heh) and I now have to learn how to use it and plug all my contacts in etc. To him all this is a breeze and will improve our lives, but for the short while that I am on, what is to me a steepish learning curve, it makes me grumpy. I suppose I don't like gadgets that make me feel stupid, even if it is temporary. I mean, I'm a pretty smart cookie, but I am soooo much happier with pencil and paper than gadgets.

Besides, I've been hankering to start the nesting shopping and he goes and blows a wad of money (which I didn't think we had) on this. He said he got it all figured out as he has some extra income coming, but sometimes....grr...I can't be very mad at him - he really does take care of everything we need and he knows damn well that if he didn't go out and buy things like phones without my knowing, he would have to wait years before I agreed to getting them heh heh. Besides it is quite important that I have a reliable phone while I'm out and about.

LO not so wriggly yesterday - note to LO: WRIGGLE AND KICK MUMMY LOTS EVERYDAY PLEASE MY DARLING! THANK YOU, xxxx

Although... yesterday I thought the wriggles felt differently, like he/she was facing a different way and they were more cushioned or muffled or something, so maybe that is why I didn't feel as many as the day before. I wouldn't blame LO for turning her back to the outside world and facing inward for a bit. Especially because people now keep looking at my tummy and making comments. LO is probably thinking 'how rude! humph! I'll just turn my back on them all - so there!" LOL!

MORE CROISSANTS FOR BREKKY! HA HA I will have to eat them all too as they won't last another day without going chewy and dry.

Oh oops preggo brain - I must dash off and get dressed!

Little bugger! :shock:

That's great news about your bloods. :hugs:

I know what you mean with tech stuff. I'm a total plank when it comes to computers and things. I'm alright when they're doing what they're meant to but when I don't know how to work abit of it I get really stroppy.

At least you've got a new phone out of it though I suppose. :D

Croissants mmmmm. I think I've got a couple of crumpets at the back of the fridge they'll have to do lol. How come whenever I pop onto here Shri I head straight for the flippin fridge afterwards :rofl:

Good point! :rofl: I always come away with a list of bits for Nige to get on the way home.

He's currently shepherding some croissants my way. :angelnot:

Croissants mmmmm. I think I've got a couple of crumpets at the back of the fridge they'll have to do lol. How come whenever I pop onto here Shri I head straight for the flippin fridge afterwards :rofl:

I don't know but it might be to do with the fact that for ages finding anything I could fancy was a real quest, so I've had lots of fads, and now, I'm loving food so much that I have to write about it too.:rofl::rofl:

At work everyone was talking about brie, and I actually got quite upset because it made me really want some and I can't have any :cry:
They all thought it was very funny!

Feeling tired today - but very happy. Baby actually woke me up with a few sturdy thumps which was very nice. Spent the morning with a friend drinking tea and talking about babies (she has recently had one, and has also had several losses so we could talk very candidly about all sorts)... and now tucking into a bacob,lettuce, tomato and avocado wrap! heh heh ... I wonder who will crave one of those next after reading this.

IT IS YUMMY!

Oh no, you're not getting me like that missus. :lol: I had pretty bad tummy ache after all those croissants but at least it didn't make me throw up. :laugh2:

Glad you had a nice day with your friend Hon it helps to put things straight in your head when you can chat to someone with a similar history I think. :hugs: And how lovely to be feeling Bubs belting you about so much that it woke you up. :dance: Getting in practice I reckon. :lol:

Oh no! I'm sorry the croissants gave you a bad tummy hun! They didn't help my constipation much I have to say, but I did love eating them.

Not much to say today - keeping the odd niggley worries at bay (baby is fine, I feel fine, but for some reason I am finding things to worry about - damn those hormones!)

I'm going to try to buy one of those dustpans with the long handles today, because bending down is really getting to me. I've taken to picking things up off the floor by grasping them, if possible, with my toes and then flinging them onto a surface I can more easily reach. It must look really funny.

OH might have felt a little bit of a kick from the outside last night. LO seems to go all still whenever I get OH to try to feel anything so I reckon either she is either gonna be a real daddy's girl, or he is gonna be a real little mischievous tike! heh heh.

To me the kicks feel quite bold on occassion now, but from the outside they still feel like gas bubbles. Anyway it was nice because OH went all shiney eyed and nowadays when he comes home from work he kisses my belly and says 'hi baby'. Poor guy is working soooo hard - he is always tired these days.

Next week we are going off for an overnight stay at a nice hotel. I have to go to this appointment as part of the upgrade of my residence visa and it's in place 2+ hours away and reeeeeeally early in the morning so we are gonna stay in the nice hotel, go to the appointment and then go and see the sea! YAY!

Not sure what to eat today. Have a craving for some brown rice and stir fry!

Ahhh so your getting these "bold" kicks now too? Weird huh?

My OH keeps trying to feel them and princess goes quiet too, think that means we're in for mischevious little buggers lol

It's weird, all babies do that I think. It's as if they can tell the difference and are sort of going, "Oh, hold on that's different! Who's that then?" They gradualy get used to Daddies touch. I used to snuggle up to Nigels back in bed, when I was with Charlie and he'd end up getting a boot usually just as he was going to sleep. :lol:

The Croissants were my own fault Shri :blush: although I've started trying oto re-introduce wheat into my diet I think that 6 Croissants was possibley not the way to go. :rofl:

Your OH sounds like a right sweetheart. :D

It's weird, all babies do that I think. It's as if they can tell the difference and are sort of going, "Oh, hold on that's different! Who's that then?" They gradualy get used to Daddies touch. I used to snuggle up to Nigels back in bed, when I was with Charlie and he'd end up getting a boot usually just as he was going to sleep. :lol:

The Croissants were my own fault Shri :blush: although I've started trying oto re-introduce wheat into my diet I think that 6 Croissants was possibley not the way to go. :rofl:

Your OH sounds like a right sweetheart. :D

He is, a total sweetie, but he only told me yesterday :dohh: that we need to reschedule my 20 week scan as he can't get off work that day. Unfortunately, after some time on the phone with the doc's office, there is no way they can change it as they are fully booked up too far ahead and also earlier.:hissy:

Not really OH's fault, but he tends to be quite 'in the moment' often, and things like this happen. :dohh: Grr then he is all 'yes yes...' when I try to remind him to avoid things like this happening. Well I guess one of us has to be the laid back one!

LO gave him another couple of nudges last night. We were both soooooo relieved because she/he has been really quiet for a couple of days, to the point where I was nearly in tears with worry ( it was the weekend, so couldn't even call the docs office to see about going in for a HB check). Anyway, LO woke up for a good wriggle last night and I have felt her/him again this morning.:happydance: It is so lovely and makes me giggle.

Been getting really sore hips at night. I have a hard time lying on my side. Thinking about getting a better pillow arrangement, but it is sooooooo blinking hot here at the moment that extra padding of any kind isn't appealing.

Now I just have to try to stop worrying about whether OH will wrangle time off for that 20 week appointment. He bloody better! I don't want to have to go by myself and he would be gutted to miss it as he missed the 20 week scan with our first too :cry:

Send us some good luck vibes that his boss will be super cool about it eh?

ow im pleased you can feel kicks now :-)

Oh lucky u feeling kicks - I can't wait to get that again. I think our bumps like playing games with our OH's - DS was the same when I was PG with him.

Hope ur OH can get some time off for the scan - couldn't he pull a little sicky? Naughty I know but it'll be worth it.

SHRI!!! I've jus finished a cheese and onion sandwich, I come on here what do I read BLT and Avacado so I'm off again lol.
So pleased lil one is practising gymnastics for you:)

Feeling a bit blah today girls. I keep getting lots of Braxton Hicks and it is freaking me out a bit. I've just called the doc and left a message, but I have to go to work so I might miss her returning the call. :cry:

I hope it is normal and not something weird going on.:cry:

OH said 'I'll be there' when I pinned him down about the scan yesterday. Poor thing, he is stressed out.

And work is p*ss**g me off lots because it is so pants at organizing things. We keep getting special needs kids in the classes, and as much as I want them to have the same opportunities as all the other kids, they end up taking all the energy and attention and it is really hard work! More often than not the parents just drop them off without even telling us what the issues are - it is very frustrating and I am getting a bit fed up with having massive children lurching themselves at me. It is is not their fault and I want to give them the same affection and interaction as every other child, but I can't do it, I can't be running after them and I can't keep picking them up - they are too big! And they don't have the same reasoning abilities as the other kids...and then the other kids, see what gets lots of attention and start playing up too. ARGH! :hissy:

I love them, but it is making me feel exhausted and I am cross that work puts us Educators in those positions without much recourse to any extra support.

rant rant rant.

Justified rant I reckon hon. You can only do what you can do can't you. It's dreadful that the parents don't tell you of the issues their child has.

Poor girl. You sound as if you need a nice long hot bath and some brownies. :D

You heard anything about the braxton hicks?

OH no - I'm worried as anything now. Doc called me back and said I must go in tomorrow morning and they will check things out. Don't know what this means but trying not to panic. They tend to err on the side of caution with me, because of my history, which is a good thing, and I would rather be checked out an reassured, but I was really hoping she would call me back and say 'it's all normal and very healthy and nothing to worry about' ...but instead she called back within 15 minutes to say 'can you come in?'

I'm thinking about quitting work. I don't know what to do. I love it, but I am constantly worried that I am doing too much.

i think BH are normal babe, your doc prob just wants to check you over to be safe dont worry xx

OK hon. :hugs:

You let us know as soon as you can yeah?!!

Thinking of you. :kiss:

It turns out I have a bladder infection and the doctor thinks that is what is causing the BH's ... she checked the cervix and it is closed and sent me off with a prescription for some anti-biotics and instructions to monitor my activity and not do too much...

Still feel a bit worried, but I'm glad I went for that check now!
Bought some cranberry juice on the way home too.

:cry::cry::cry: feel a bit pants. I think I know that it makes sense that I ought to leave work. But I'm sad about it and hate feeling like I am giving up on anything. Whichever way I look at it though, the bigger my bump gets, the harder it is going to be to work there practically anyway, and now that the doc has said she wants me to monitor my activity - I don't really know how to do that other than quit work. You can't really tell a bunch of kids 'oh I can't do this right now because I'm monitoring my activity' - you have to meet their needs. I feel a bit wobbly about everything right now. Doesn't help that a bit of my filling chipped off yesterday and made my tooth all sharp. Silly old hassles.

Good call on the Dr front! I probably would have ignored it to my peril. Can you afford to leave work? I've got to say I would probably consider it myself if I was in your situation. You can always go back afterwards if you feel the need. When can you officially go on maternity leave? Is it possible that you can be given lighter duties or an extra classroom assistant? Saying that you'll go through all the fuss of arranging lighter duties and they'll last around 1 1/2 hours until the usual understaffed chaos breaks out some things sound great but the reality isn't quite the same. Do you have any leave available just to get you to a safer 24 weeks. I know its not ideal, but how about getting signed off sick with your infection for a week and really weigh up all your options.

I thought the same thing 6lilpigs but I was wondering if you could maybe do some admin or something. I know schools in the UK have an awful lot of paperwork attached to everything and teachers are always needing help to cover it.

Hope your infection is short lived but at least you know what it is now and can do something about it. :hugs: Well done for getting it sorted so quickly.

Here is my bump on the beach at 19+1. To my surprise in this photo I look quite a bit more trim than I feel or than I appear to look when I view myself in the mirror! I think it must be a trick of the sea-light!

We had a lovely day off and came back feeling much better about lots of things. I'm taking next week off work, as they have enough cover and it being my 20 week scan on tuesday, I'm feeling rather nervous about that, so it seemed like the best plan. The Braxton Hicks I've been getting were quite intense and always stopped if I stopped and rested. Yesterday I hardly got any, until after we had been for a a bit of a walk. LO kicked away merrily, but went really quiet while we were on the beach. I didn't get to swim because the waves were too rough (huge surfing waves) but it was nice just paddling and stuff. Later when we got home, OH and I were lying face to face and he felt LO kick him in the chest. :rofl: I say kick, but it is still quite a gentle little thump compared to what I remember they can do later on!

Just going to potter around today. It's been so unbearably hot here you can't do much without overheating! Foodwise, I dunno, I seem to be feeling a bit sicky again, but I think it might be the anti-biots.

Got my big scan tomorrow - exited, but nervous too. The Anti-biotics have made me feel a bit groggy, so not feeling like posting much. Just hoping everything will be alright at my scan.

Good luck with your scan Shri, are you going to tell us what your having lol. I reckon you've got a pinky this time!!

Hiya sweetie.

Girl you are one hot babe! :hugs:

Hope everything was hunky dorey at your scan and we're looking forward to vidding some piccies. :laugh2:

I'm with you on the heat front it has been so hot here the last week or so I feel like I've been roasted, basted and turned over to do the other side. :lol:

Good news about your time off love make sure you enjoy it. :hugs:

Hello huns
The scan went well - we found out we are having a healthy:happydance:
baby BOY!
No mistake, we even came away with a little picture of his winky, and it is very clearly a winky! :rofl:

I found the whole thing very difficult (the scan), more so than I expected and when she told us it is a boy I properly broke down and have not stopped crying since. Part of this is relief that all is well and bubs is perfectly healthy (both OH and I were terrified) and the other part is a bit more complicated.

I guess the simplest way to put it is that I have to face some aspects of my grief over my first little boy that could not have been revealed unless another came along, and now another little boy is in our life. I really did not expect any of this strange reaction. I rather thought I was having a girl and although I kept saying he/she, I was more convinced it was a girl - and I know now that this is because it was easier for me to cope with emotionally. Of course I feel blessed and grateful and would have felt grateful boy OR girl - but the fact that the baby is a boy brings home a lot of things for me that are too complicated to go into now. For now I am just letting these huge waves of emotion rise and fall and trusting that I will find my balance again in a day or so.

I feel terrible because by rights I should be happy and over the moon (and I am looking forward to feeling that when it comes naturally) but to be honest right now I just feel all at sea. I think a bit of time and a lot of scribbling in my diary at home is going to be the best way to deal with this. I have a sinus headache from all the crying. It has really knocked me for six and I feel so strange.

However, our baby is just fine, measuring a little ahead of my dates and sweetly decided to go to sleep while the scan was being done so we had to wait for him to wake up and open his legs. Then when he did, there was no mistake. Our pics turned out a bit weird. This scan was very detailed
(took forever) and as such, we didn't really get to see much, but we just let the pro's do their job as we really just wanted to know that everything is healthy.

What fab news!!!! A boy lol, I was so sure you were going to be team pink!

On a serious note I can also understand the sadness it would have brought back and the worry it may cause you and I know its a terrible line but they say lightning doesn't hit twice. Hopefully you can comfort each other knowing that your son sent his little brother down to look after you for him until you can all have a good giggle and a catch up on a cloud together in about 80 years time. ( I hope my words haven't offended you:hugs:)

HALF WAY TODAY.... and feeling much better!:happydance::cake::yipee::wohoo::bunny::blue:

Well done sweetheart, you really are a star! I only wish we lived closer so we could be really friends :friends: as well as electro ones. :hugs:

If it helps, I really think that you would have had a fair ammount of dealing to do anyway, winkie or no.

Congratulations on your Blue bump Hon. :bunny: :blue:

Yesterday I managed to do a big housework marathon - which was nice. Then I bought this adorable little boys outfit and layed it on the bed on OH's side. It has a teeny tshirt that says 'daddy rocks!' and teeny little pants. OH went all gooey when he saw them and I thought he was even going to cry. It was soooooooo cute!:cloud9::dance:

I've gone a bit mad for Klondikes (choc ices) and I can't really blame bubs because I ate two in a row yesterday and he slept through it all!:blush:

I just have to write about food things.

Apart from the Klondikes I am also loving veggie sausage sandwhiches, fruit salad and for some bizarre reason, Raisin bran!!! I guess the fruit and the bran make up for the other less than healthy things.

I'm gonna make some spag bol tonight though. OH is looking a bit like he needs a good comforting nosh up as I have been lousy at cooking recently.

Ewwwww spag bol Shri thats gross lol!!

So we now have a Holly with a pink bump and a Holly with a blue bump both due at the same time!! So cool!!

Are you going to start counting down the weeks too now we're past the halfway mark?

Ewwwww spag bol Shri thats gross lol!!

So we now have a Holly with a pink bump and a Holly with a blue bump both due at the same time!! So cool!!

Are you going to start counting down the weeks too now we're past the halfway mark?

Oh no, the spag bol was sooooo yummy and tomatoey and pasta-y! he he

Yup I'm counting down the weeks til my second little man arrives. :happydance:

OH is being really annoying about names though. Whenever I say 'think of some names' he says 'what do you think?' and he takes no notice of what names actually mean, which is important to me. I think he is avoiding it a bit though because with our first, the name came to us sort of magically and felt really right so I expect OH finds it a bit emotional trying to think of another boys name... but he will HAVE to! hehe.

Good food scrum Shri. Spag Bol is great for comfort food but it's really good for you too.

You'll probably find that aname just jumps out at you from the ether and you'll both think it's perfect. :D

Tiny Tee sounds so sweet.

I want to say that it has been the most shiteous day, just horrible. I was in a car crash

http://www.babyandbump.com/pregnancy-second-trimester/47687-car-accident.html

but as crap as the day has been and as depressed and upset and shaken as I am, nothing is even close to the relief I feel that bubs is ok. I can't even bear to think what might have been.
:cry:

OH is dealing with all the crappy stuff that needs to be sorted now, and I'm so sorry he has to deal with it, but like me, he is just glad we are ok.

Oh Shri what a frightener. Totally not needed. I'm so relieved that there was no injuries to you or bubs. I started catching up on all your new food entries lol, and came to your last post. In future stick with just making me hungry not worried OK!!!!!

I'm trying hard not to sink but I feel so down. I am so glad that the baby is ok and that keeps me going but I can't seem to stop thinking about what happened when I crashed, sort of like flash backs. I've tried all sorts, but it might be just that it takes time to get over a shock like that? I don't know... Also, our car isn't covered so it is all going to cost us so much. Plus we will have the extra medical bills from my being taken to ER. :hissy:

I was really looking forward to getting some gear for bubs but now I don't know how we will manage things at all.
:cry:

I wish I could cheer up. It all just seems like such a struggle at times. :cry:

It is going to take a while to get over the shock and all the replays with different endings which the brain likes to mess us about with. What a nightmare about all the bills! God bless the NHS, we might moan about them but at least we don't have to pay through the nose to make sure our lo's alright after a car crash. Surely pregnant women at least sure be exempt.

This past week has been really weird. I've gone through all sorts of troublesome emotions after my crash, but I'm feeling better now. I'm totally besotted with the baby - his kicks are getting stronger by the day and OH and I are having so much fun with it all already that we are really looking forward to bubs arrival in december more than ever.

OH is away for a couple of weeks at the moment. That sucks a bit, but we hope he will have a really good time doing his nerdy work thing while the baby and I catch up with a few things at home. The fridge is stocked with stuff for me to munch and we have lots to look forward to...

looking forward feels so good.

I seem to have gone through another overnight growth spurt. My underwear is getting too small and I don't think it could have shrunk and my appetite has really kicked off. Sleeping pretty good though. I'm missing OH like crazy and there is still a week and a half to go before he comes home. When he does though...SHOPPING FOR BABY will have to begin or I will go crazy.

No particular food cravings at the moment but I seem to have a thing for romaine lettuce! I could just eat a big bag as if it were a bag of potato crisps! LOL!

It's weird being at home and not working. I like it, but getting a bit bored too. I had a bunch of things planned but most of them involve sitting at my desk and I had totally forgotten how uncomfortable this can get with a big bump.

I made a really cute little bunny for the baby the other day and it was so much fun that I want to make something else, but trying to think of something useful to make him.

Things are pretty good at the moment, mellow and easy which I am glad about.

Lettuce instead of potato chips? Hmmm not one ive tried yet lol.

Glad your perking up now hun, seems like we're at a "nice" stage right now, i wonder how long its going to last lol

YAY!!! I just ordered a travel system and a crib :happydance::wohoo::bunny::bunny::bunny:

It was fun! And it was a big step for me to buy something but I don't want to leave everything till the last minute and this way we still have time to return things if they aren't up to scratch although I hope they will work out. I went for things that got the best reviews - a lot of online research. Otherwise it would mean OH driving us miles all over the state and he gets grumpy with shopping around.

We got the britax companion travel system (http://www.amazon.com/Britax-USA-Preview-Travel-System/dp/B000W9840W) and an arms reach mini co-sleeper crib (http://www.amazon.com/Arm%2527s-Reach-Mini-Co%252dSleeper-Bassinet/dp/B00009Q6G6). I sure miss mothercare, and some things are quite different over here to what I am used to in UK - but we looked at the crib in babies r us (pretty plasticky and not what I would have in an ideal world because we are on a budget and I couldn't find a moses basket that we liked and could afford and came with a stand sooo... this seems a good option.

The travel system I chose based on the safety reviews being really good.
We looked at others in babies r us and everything seemed pretty much the same - plasticky and not that inspiring, unless you can afford to spend $500 or more in which case it is still plasticky.

Anyway - I'm a happy bunny today. :happydance:

Well, in myself I have been feeling pretty good and happy the past few days. I've had lots of fun shopping for the baby - although the list of things we need seems to keep growing!

Today I am not such a happy bunny. First of all I had a really difficult situation with OH. It's ok, but suffice it to say that it messed up my sleep for a couple of nights and I'm all out of kilter now. Silly men.

THEN, I noticed how fat and flabby I'm getting all of a sudden and a lot of the clothes I have been making do with are no longer working. So I went to try to get some proper maternity clothes and had no luck finding anything that fit right or suited me. Plus they have swapped out the summer season stuff for the autumn stuff and it is still roasting hot here. There were some summer bits in the sales racks but of course nothing in my size.

THEN - only one word is needed - In Laws.
Actually more than one word is needed because I need to rant. Why are they so bloody troublesome???? They don't do it on purpose, I know that, but I'm always struggling with trying not to be annoyed, upset, hurt or just confused around them. It is my sensitivity as much as anything.

I'm going to have a nice long shower now and try to wash all my cares away.

I'm waiting for a delivery of my car seat, buggy and crib. EXITED! I wish they would hurry up and get here!

Hey Babe :hi: Me back!

Hope you're doing OK after the crash and the In-laws etc. :?

Have you got long to wait before OH gets home?

Hey Babe :hi: Me back!

Hope you're doing OK after the crash and the In-laws etc. :?

Have you got long to wait before OH gets home?

YAY your're back! I missed you.
OH will be back on saturday night - so not too long now.:happydance:

Aw I missed you too. :hugs:

Only two more sleeps to go then :dance: You must've missed him so much, I know I'd miss mine. :cloud9:

OOOOOOooooooooo Crib and Buggy and Carseat and stuff :happydance: excited pregnant lady. :wohoo:

Yup I've missed him terribly and part of the in law problem is that MIL is staying with us on every single day that he has off over this past three weeks, including our anniversary. I'm glad they get to spend some time together and it's nice to see her, but me being all pregnant and hormonal reeeeeeeally badly needs some quality time with him. It was especially hard after my crash as I was so shaken up, but I had to just coast along with a bunch of family stuff. Anyway I won't go into it all or I'll end up having a massive moan.

OH has been a bad boy too and that rocked me for a bit (nothing like anything extra-marital, but something along the lines of keeping something from me and then I found out and we had a big row) Other than that though he has been ace. He's a a gem but he can be really frustrating just because he is a boy really and can't read my mind and yet presumes he knows everything. hmph!

Anyway the car seat, stroller and crib arrived yesterday and it was tons of fun, but very hard work, getting all the stuff out and checking it out. I'm well pleased but I didn't half get hot and bothered and I was too impatient to wait for hubby to get home to help me. After a few goes though I've got the hang of getting the stroller up and down and felt like a pro. Then I felt really weird for a bit - as if the reality of a baby being here soon struck me anew. I felt quite emotional and a bit scared too.

Had another appointment yesterday too. It went fine but when I got home I realized they had forgotton to check my thryroid which they were supposed to do. I don't want to go in today as it is raining hard and I would have to take the old car with the dodgy brakes. I'm still nervous to be behind the wheel. Not sure what to do as when OH gets home he will need the car to get to work. Really wish I had not mashed our good one. We will have to get it fixed but not sure how long that will take or what it will cost.

All a bit stressy really.

You're passed the 24wks now though so it's not surprising that you're starting to feel the imminence of it. :hugs:

Sounds like you've sorted things with the OH but if you need a rant or whatever you can always PM me. :friends:

OH is coming home today!!!!:happydance::happydance::happydance::baby:

Along with MIL who will be here on our anniversary:sulk:
So I won't get him to myself and then he is back to work monday :hissy:

Oh well. At least he is coming home and looking forward to seeing me.

Going to try and tackle some house work now. Always completely knackers me out these days. I am dying to give the fridge a good scrub out too, but it's still too hot (weather wise) to deal with all the food storage while I do it.

Some more bits and bobs i ordered arrived today. A few little baby things in organic cotton. I was a bit disappointed though as none of it feels very soft. That's the trouble with buying things online. I hope it softens up a bit when i wash it. Wondering when to start the laundry marathon actually. The question is, start the baby laundry marathon now, before we have our storage sorted, in which case all the stuff will have to go in those big plastic tubs, or wait until we have the storage sorted (god knows when that will be).

Why not store it all in the tubs without laundering it first and then as you get your proper storage solutions sorted you can wash the things that will go in it. :D That way you can still keep peeking at the tiny baby clothes but you get away with a few more weeks before the washing marathon. :winkwink:

That's quite a bit sucky that your MIL isn't giving you the space to welcome OH home doll especially since it's going to cover your last anniversary before LO is born. You must have the patience of a saint mate coz I'd have been, 'no way man!' :hissy: Mind you, at least you've got him home and that's the main thing. You should make sure he still takes you out for the night tho, MIL or not!

Can you put any pics up of the stuff you've bought? I'm living vicariously on that count atm coz I've got all the stuff we need, all packed up from when Charlie was twee. :D

Ahhhh housebound. OH needs our other car to get to work so I'm really stuck in the house at them moment. Where we live is too far to walk to any shops or anything. It's going to take a while to get our other car fixed so not sure how to deal with this prob. but not going to worry about it today. Today I am going to rest lots. The past couple of days have been quite busy and I have been feeling ill since - plus fell over last night, so resting resting resting.

MIL was ace in the end. OH was so exhausted after his trip away that we couldn't get anything special organized but I don't mind because MIL took us shopping, bought us a bunch of things for the baby AND one of those amazing pregnancy sleep pillows (now nicknamed the snake) for me and then she cooked us supper and did the dishes. So I was happy.

I'll try and post some pics if I can get my head around it. All the stuff is just getting piled up in one room at the moment. I'm not going to worry about the laundry for a bit. I haven't even taken stock of what we have and what we still need to get.

MIL got us a baby bath (little tub thingy) and some clothes and chipped in towards the car seat. It made my heart do a little flip flop thing watching OH play with the stroller - it was like OMG he IS daddy. It was so cute.

Plan for today is to phone my own mum (our weekly long distance catch up), shower, sort some of the mail and bills etc and curl up with a book.

The other PIA is I dropped my phone (yup the new one) and now it won't let me send text messages. Grrrrrr. So I'm a bit nervous of doing or touching anything that could break at the moment.

Hello Sweetie. I'm glad you MIL came through for you, it sounds as if you had a lovely time in the end. Perhaps it's just as well that you're house bound atm with your catalogue of mishaps. :lol: Maybe if you sit and read then you won't get into anymore mischief. :D

Your phone should still be under it's warranty shouldn't it? I'm sure if you take it back to the shop and play ignorant, "I don't know what happened it just went like it..." kinda thing, they'll fix it for free and no money. Specially if you stick out your bump and flutter your eye lashes a bit. :lol: Who could resist? Oh; well, maybe choose a guy...who doesn't look gay! :lol:

I'd love one of those pillows and your Hubby sounds adorable; running around with the pram. :awww:

Hope you get over your 'whoopsy' stage soon love, it sounds like it's getting expensive. :hugs:

yeah that's what I thought, stay on the sofa and then the only mishaps is spilling my food on myself! lol!

But the phone won't be covered by warranty. There is a big dent in the top. OH said that is that then, and he works with these things so there is no way of getting around it. Dang.

OH has said he 'do you have to use the pillow every night?' apparently he is already jealous and said he won't be able to stand it if there is always this barrier. I thought it was really funny, but he is serious! I will have to gently acclimatize him to sharing me though as I am not giving up my special pillow!!!! lol!

Aw bless him. :lol:

Maybe if you share the pillow with it in the middle you can both feel it's benefits and be close at the same time. :D I wish my OH was like that; He just turns over and says goodnight, very rarely cuddles up. :( Still, I'm normally too hot to anyway so...:roll:

It's a real shame about your phone are you gonna get a new one?

yup will have to get a new phone. Seem to have a lot of expenses at the moment - trying not to worry about it.

mmm - hubby is the really cuddly type - but sometimes I do get too hot or just need some space. I wouldn't change him though.

another chilled out day today (bored). I'm quite liking being at home, but also feeling a bit lonely and housebound. I don't exactly miss work, but it helped me feel useful.
There is stacks of things to do - I just can't seem to get my act together. I do a little bit and then I am zonked out tired. I guess that is just the pregnancy and the heat.

Most of my dreams seem to be about buying foods that I can't get here. It's rather frustrating. I wish my brain would just get over it and accept that we are where we are.

OH works for Apple and he got bubs a little baby Apple t-shirt the other day. It's very cute and I wonder if our little one will be as tech savvy as his dad.

Goodness knows how I am going to cope with a houseful of nerds! I'm the type of girl who sings songs from old musicals and can't do maths. It's going to be fun that's for sure!

Bummer about the phone but the tee shirt sounds way cute. :D

It's probably worse for you being stuck indoors since you don't have the car. Having the choice taken away is usually worse than the physicality of staying in. Your dreams are a reflection of that too. The foods that you can't get over there are a representation of the car that you can't use atm. You'd really like to but the choice has been removed. :hugs:

If I were you sweetie I'd take the opportunity to rest amap and don't even worry about the housework. :D

I think that is spot on Angelmouse -
yesterday turned out quite nice in the end. I got some chores done, but not too many to wear me out and then I made some oaty blueberry slices and they are sooooooo good.
OH and I can't stop eating them.

Same again today, just pottering around the house. I'm going to make the most of the luxury of being able to do so.

:plane: Load me up with some of them there Oatie blueberry yummy goodness thingies. They sound tasty.

I loved what you said in my journal about nesting; how your mind says 'do it' but your body says 'sleep'. I'm paraphrasing you understand but...:lol: It's good that you have the opportunity to take things as you like and in the long run you'll probably get more done that way too. :D

I can deffo send you the recipe - they were so easy to make and turned out really good. I'm terrible at following recipes too and can never stop myself changing something or other. In this case it turned out good.

OH was reeeeeeeally funny last night. Had me in stitches. My belly really shakes when I laugh though - I hope LO doesn't mind too much!

I have been having some RIDICULOUS dreams. Last night, among the ridiculousness I dreamed I had to go back to school - PRIMARY SCHOOL, because I didn't have a job.
I was saying 'but I'm 37 years old! I don't want to go back to school at all, much less primary school' and the answer was, 'well then you will have to live in a tent!'

WTF is going on in my mind. It might have been because I've been thinking about schooling a lot. People keep asking us already where we will send LO. Controversial as it is, OH and I are not keen on regular school and my enthusiasm for them wanes by the day, the more I find out. Ach! we've got time to figure it out and look into alternatives but it's a bit mind boggling. I just want kids to feel happy and safe and have a great time at school, but it looks like (here anyway) they have to get into full on survival mode at a very early age. My friends 7 year old has to have a bag with wheels on it so she can cope with all her text books! MADNESS - these are little children!

oh well, I can feel a rant coming on so I think I'll tootle off and make a cup of tea or something now.

Hahah it must be the 25 week thing my dreams are beserk this week too!!

Oatyness and blueberries, yum yum!! Sounds like they would go down a treat with a nice cuppa in the afternoon!!

Hope you have a lovely weekend hun!!

'House full of nerds' lmao, love it.

You never know if you keep feeding baby all these goodies you may well be popping out a little Gordon Ramsey rather than a Bill Gates!!

OOooh yes please sweetie. :hugs: Is it PM-able or do you need my email addy?

It sounds to me as if your subconscious is trying to give you an alternative. You are an early years educator are you not...:D

P.s Living in a tent wouldn't be that bed! :lol:

I think all recipes should be posted publicly, its only fair!:rofl:

:rofl::rofl::rofl:

:cake::laugh2: here it is SHRI's FAMOUS BLUEBERRY SLICE RECIPE

Preheat oven 375 degrees F

mix together in a big bowl:
1 cup sf flour
1/2 tsp salt
1 cup oats
1 cup sugar
1/2 cup of sunflower oil
little bit of ground ginger and cinnamon to taste

mix them all up well and if you are like me, add extra bits of the things it seems to need from the list

grease a rectangular baking pan ( I used a 4x8ish one)
spread half the mixture in the pan and press it down evenly

cover that with 2 cups of fresh blueberries and sprinkle on a bit of sugar ( I used a couple of tablespoons at most)

spread the rest of the crumble mixture on top. Press it down very lightly.
bake for about 45 mins. peeking to see when it looks the perfect golden brown.
Let it cool before you cut it into squares.

I think I actually doubled the amounts in the recipe because I wanted lots and I might have been a bit more skimpy on the sugar. It took a bit of mixing to get the oil well distributed through all the dry ingredients, but I just went for it with a big fork.

YUMMY!

I think that might have to be mine and Charlies rainy day thing to do. I'm gonna get these rooms sorted out and then we're gonna doit. Yummy! Thankyou Shri. :hugs:

Oh good idea - it's nice and easy for a little one to join in and nothing dodgy to mix (like raw eggs etc). I hope they turn out good, but don't blame me if you eat too many LOL!