rafwife
May 9th, 2008, 14:41 PM
So I thought I would jump on the band wagon and start one of these, but I don't know how interesting I will be! :rofl:
I'll start with a bit of history. My OH and I have been together for almost 4 years, and married for just over a year. We were planning on starting a family after the summer so I joined this board as WTT. Things don't always go to plan though, and within a couple of weeks I ended up pregnant by accident!
I've had one previous miscarriage, which sadly I had to be in hospital for for awhile. I was very poorly indeed and at one point thought I was going to die due to an accidental overdose of drugs and a lot of hemorrhaging. It was really traumatic, and although I thought I had got over it, it's caused me a lot of worry in this pregnancy.
FIRST TRIMESTER
Week 3
So, I started getting really ill one morning, and then all through the day. I ignored it, as my period wasn't due for over a week. The next day I was still sick though, and had sore boobs. So, I tested a week early and got a :bfp: ! I was in complete shock. I knew that I had wanted to start trying later in the year, but all my emotions came flooding in. Was I going to be a good Mum? Could I go through another pregnancy? Was the same thing going to happen again? I was terrified!
I told my OH who was also worried, but more about things like: Can we afford it? Am I going to be a good Dad? Is it too soon?
If I'm honest, my OH is still getting to grips with it!
Week 4
So I went to my GP to confirm everything, and told him I was worried about my health (I was in hospital a lot late last year due to undiagnosed problems in my bowel area) he assured me that everything should be fine.
So with my pregnancy confirmed everything was feeling a bit more real! He booked me in to see the midwife the next week.
Week 5
Unfortunately between the two appointments I started to feel very ill. I had constant pain in my abdomen and right hand side that stopped me from sleeping. My out of hours GP immediately booked me into a bed at the hospital, so I arrived there at 3am one morning. They monitored me overnight, then scanned me the next morning. Unfortunately the scan was inconclusive, and they felt that with the pain and the scan that it was an ectopic pregnancy.
I was devastated. I'd had operations last year, and my body reacted very violently to the GA. I also knew that if it was ectopic I would not only lose the baby, but one of my tubes. If it wasn't ectopic then I had a higher chance of miscarrying due to the operation. They scheduled an emergency operation for that day and I just cried on and off until it was time.
When I came around from the GA, I had seizures for over an hour due to the drugs. This is very rare, but I was told that the pregnancy had not been ectopic, but they were now worried about an increased risk of miscarriage due to the effect the GA had on me.
I was sent home about 48 hours later. My morning sickness came with vengeance and I spent most of the time with my head down a toilet. I reasoned that it meant that everything was working ok, so I could put up with it.
Week 6
It was a week after my operation when I started bleeding and cramping. I totally panicked and just cried on the toilet for five minutes before I phoned the hospital. They told me to go and see my GP and come in if it got worse. My GP told me as best as he possible could that it looked like I was miscarrying, but they wouldn't be able to do anything until it got worse. I went home, dejected. The bleeding then cleared up 24 hours later. I saw my GP again the day after who said it was a good sign, and I had a scan booked for a few days later.
Week 7
My scan was booked for a Thursday morning, and there was a 2 hour backlog. I don't think I have ever been so nervous! I had a friend come with me, as my OH is posted away and there was no way I could have dealt with bad news on my own. I told the nurse about the bleeding, which they already had on my notes.
I was told by the doctor that they might not be able to see a heartbeat, and not to panic if they couldn't. Fortunately as soon as she scanned me there was a very strong heartbeat! :happydance: She said it was a very strong pregnancy considering everything that had happened, and was very pleased. Huge relief for me!
Week 8
I had my first Midwife appointment this week and it was awful! I was made to wait around for almost an hour. Then I was shown upstairs to her office, where she said very rudely. 'I don't have time to see you today, and anyway seeing you so early on is pointless given your history' (One previous loss and suspected ectopic)
She didn't have time to see me, because someone else had been given my appointment! I was feeling awful and really wanted to ask her some questions but she kept cutting me off then practically shooed me out the door!
I'm quite upset, but she says she'll see me again in a few weeks so I'm willing to give her the benefit of the doubt for now.
I'm just taking each day as it comes. My cramps have come back and I'm trying to rationalise to myself that maybe this is just how my pregnancy feels. I haven't had anymore bleeding now though, so that's a positive sign.
I have a bump already, my boobs have gone up two cup sizes and none of my clothes fit! My morning sickness is still hanging over me with avengence. My legs have started to become very sore, like growing pains. Seems I better get used to all these aches and niggles now that I'm pregnant!
Week 9
My morning sickness is awful just now! I am WAY too well aquainted with my toilet bowl. I'm being sick a few times a day now, and just trying to sleep in the afternoons for a bit of respite. I still have period like cramps, and now that things have settled after my scan I'm happier to say that it's normal stretching and aches and pains.
I went for a job interview this week at a local pub/restaurant. I figure I have a long way to go until I need to be on maternity leave, and with OH posted away with the RAF I'm going to need something to fill my days! I start next week, and will be doing 3/4 shifts a week.
Week 10
OH and I decided to tell his family this week. I'm still not comfortable telling mine, as I haven't spoken to my Mum since March and we don't really get on. My family think I married young too, and I know that at 24 they'll tell me I'm too young to be a Mum. I just don't want to deal with it right now.
So OH rang his parents and they were shocked, but over the moon. We hadn't told anyone we were WTT, and had actually done the opposite and told everyone that we weren't going to have kids at all. We didn't want the pressure of people constantly asking when we were going to produce offspring! So the in laws are thrilled, and want to come down as soon as possible so they can take us out to buy some baby things. I think after the scare earlier though, I want to wait a bit. I think the MIL has secretly gone out and bought some things already though!
I started my new job this week too. I've been honest from the interview about my pregnancy, and all the staff are really great about it.
Week 11
I thought most of my morning sickness was behind me, as I haven't been sick in a few days. However, I still can't keep anything down this week.
So I was lying on the sofa watching TV about 45mins after eating a large fruit salad when I felt the rumblings. Well, I couldn't really move fast enough and was sick all over my dog (long haired retriever type) who had decided that lying in a sun spot at the bottom of my sofa was his idea of bliss. :rofl: He wasn't very impressed, and I had to then wrestle him into the bath which he hates. :rofl:
I've done something really stupid though.
I missed my midwife's appointment this week. :cry:
There was a power cut last night, and my alarm didn't go off. I rang, and because the midwife only visits once every 2 weeks, they can't see me. I haven't seen the midwife at all yet, and haven't even been booked in properly. :cry: Now I'm not going to see her until I'm almost 15 weeks gone, and won't have a scan until a few weeks after that!
I'm such an idiot! :hissy:
Week 12
Woke up one morning this week with bleeding and cramping :cry: I can't believe after everything that's happened so far, that we could still be losing the baby. I had prayed so hard that we'd get to this point, and now that we have it seems unbearable that we may still lose our baby.
I rang my GP, and because I was having cramps and bleeding he arranged to see me straight away. He arranged a scan for the next day, so I spent a very stressed night with my OH who was back for the weekend.
The next day we got an early appointment at the early pregnancy unit and had a scan done. Everything was perfect :cloud9: The doctor couldn't see any reason for the bleeding this time around so fingers crossed this is the last problem we have.
It seems amazing though that I still haven't seen a midwife!
Scan Pictures:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v209/nikkir/08062008358.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v209/nikkir/08062008356.jpg
Week 13
Two really great things happened this week! First, I got my very first pregnancy comment! :happydance:
I feel huge, but I'm worried that I'm stuck in the 'is she fat or pregnant?' stage. lol! :)
I went out with DH on my Birthday to a National Trust site and when we were paying the woman smiled at me in a knowing way and said 'Don't push yourself, if you get too tired then you can ask for the minibus to take you back to reception. Have a nice time.'
Aww :blush:
Second good thing is the best one!
I heard Bump's heartbeat for the first time! It was a steady 157bpm. :cloud9:
God help me when I can feel him kicking though, at the scan he was doing handstands and thrashing around and I only managed to get the heartbeat on the doppler for about a minute before he was off again! Mental baby! :rofl:
Week 14
Just back from my FIRST midwife appointment! It went really well though. She used a doppler and found Bump's heartbeat straightaway at a steady 160bpm. :happydance:
She was so nice this time, compared to last time. I'm really happy. TBH I was dreading it before I went!
The only issue was about my past medical history, and with two bleeds so far and the fact I am allergic to general anesthetic it means that I have to be looked after by a consultant at hospital. As some of you know, I live in the middle of nowhere, and about 15 miles from the nearest hospital, but I'm sure it will be fine. Bit of a shame though.
She wasn't sure about my sand and mud cravings, but if it's anything to worry about then it will come back in my bloods.
I was a bit naughty in my appointment though :blush:
ad my first MW appointment today and she asked if I wanted to be screened for Down's. I hesitated, and she said 'would it make a difference what the result was?' and I said no, of course not it wouldn't make any difference to me. Then she asked what OH thought.
OH was really full on about me getting the tests. He said he wants to know, and if the baby has it he thinks we should get a termination.
Now, there's no way in hell that would ever happen. OH would be gone before this baby! I have cared for special needs children before and it's a non issue for me, however, it's obviously an issue for him
Anyway, I had to apparently get tested within the next 3 days for it to be accurate and they couldn't fit me in so I declined. I'm not worried about it though.
I will continue to update this each week as things progress. I hope everyone has happy and healthy pregnancies, and for those who are TTC or WTT I wish you all the luck in the world and lots of baby dust.
I'll start with a bit of history. My OH and I have been together for almost 4 years, and married for just over a year. We were planning on starting a family after the summer so I joined this board as WTT. Things don't always go to plan though, and within a couple of weeks I ended up pregnant by accident!
I've had one previous miscarriage, which sadly I had to be in hospital for for awhile. I was very poorly indeed and at one point thought I was going to die due to an accidental overdose of drugs and a lot of hemorrhaging. It was really traumatic, and although I thought I had got over it, it's caused me a lot of worry in this pregnancy.
FIRST TRIMESTER
Week 3
So, I started getting really ill one morning, and then all through the day. I ignored it, as my period wasn't due for over a week. The next day I was still sick though, and had sore boobs. So, I tested a week early and got a :bfp: ! I was in complete shock. I knew that I had wanted to start trying later in the year, but all my emotions came flooding in. Was I going to be a good Mum? Could I go through another pregnancy? Was the same thing going to happen again? I was terrified!
I told my OH who was also worried, but more about things like: Can we afford it? Am I going to be a good Dad? Is it too soon?
If I'm honest, my OH is still getting to grips with it!
Week 4
So I went to my GP to confirm everything, and told him I was worried about my health (I was in hospital a lot late last year due to undiagnosed problems in my bowel area) he assured me that everything should be fine.
So with my pregnancy confirmed everything was feeling a bit more real! He booked me in to see the midwife the next week.
Week 5
Unfortunately between the two appointments I started to feel very ill. I had constant pain in my abdomen and right hand side that stopped me from sleeping. My out of hours GP immediately booked me into a bed at the hospital, so I arrived there at 3am one morning. They monitored me overnight, then scanned me the next morning. Unfortunately the scan was inconclusive, and they felt that with the pain and the scan that it was an ectopic pregnancy.
I was devastated. I'd had operations last year, and my body reacted very violently to the GA. I also knew that if it was ectopic I would not only lose the baby, but one of my tubes. If it wasn't ectopic then I had a higher chance of miscarrying due to the operation. They scheduled an emergency operation for that day and I just cried on and off until it was time.
When I came around from the GA, I had seizures for over an hour due to the drugs. This is very rare, but I was told that the pregnancy had not been ectopic, but they were now worried about an increased risk of miscarriage due to the effect the GA had on me.
I was sent home about 48 hours later. My morning sickness came with vengeance and I spent most of the time with my head down a toilet. I reasoned that it meant that everything was working ok, so I could put up with it.
Week 6
It was a week after my operation when I started bleeding and cramping. I totally panicked and just cried on the toilet for five minutes before I phoned the hospital. They told me to go and see my GP and come in if it got worse. My GP told me as best as he possible could that it looked like I was miscarrying, but they wouldn't be able to do anything until it got worse. I went home, dejected. The bleeding then cleared up 24 hours later. I saw my GP again the day after who said it was a good sign, and I had a scan booked for a few days later.
Week 7
My scan was booked for a Thursday morning, and there was a 2 hour backlog. I don't think I have ever been so nervous! I had a friend come with me, as my OH is posted away and there was no way I could have dealt with bad news on my own. I told the nurse about the bleeding, which they already had on my notes.
I was told by the doctor that they might not be able to see a heartbeat, and not to panic if they couldn't. Fortunately as soon as she scanned me there was a very strong heartbeat! :happydance: She said it was a very strong pregnancy considering everything that had happened, and was very pleased. Huge relief for me!
Week 8
I had my first Midwife appointment this week and it was awful! I was made to wait around for almost an hour. Then I was shown upstairs to her office, where she said very rudely. 'I don't have time to see you today, and anyway seeing you so early on is pointless given your history' (One previous loss and suspected ectopic)
She didn't have time to see me, because someone else had been given my appointment! I was feeling awful and really wanted to ask her some questions but she kept cutting me off then practically shooed me out the door!
I'm quite upset, but she says she'll see me again in a few weeks so I'm willing to give her the benefit of the doubt for now.
I'm just taking each day as it comes. My cramps have come back and I'm trying to rationalise to myself that maybe this is just how my pregnancy feels. I haven't had anymore bleeding now though, so that's a positive sign.
I have a bump already, my boobs have gone up two cup sizes and none of my clothes fit! My morning sickness is still hanging over me with avengence. My legs have started to become very sore, like growing pains. Seems I better get used to all these aches and niggles now that I'm pregnant!
Week 9
My morning sickness is awful just now! I am WAY too well aquainted with my toilet bowl. I'm being sick a few times a day now, and just trying to sleep in the afternoons for a bit of respite. I still have period like cramps, and now that things have settled after my scan I'm happier to say that it's normal stretching and aches and pains.
I went for a job interview this week at a local pub/restaurant. I figure I have a long way to go until I need to be on maternity leave, and with OH posted away with the RAF I'm going to need something to fill my days! I start next week, and will be doing 3/4 shifts a week.
Week 10
OH and I decided to tell his family this week. I'm still not comfortable telling mine, as I haven't spoken to my Mum since March and we don't really get on. My family think I married young too, and I know that at 24 they'll tell me I'm too young to be a Mum. I just don't want to deal with it right now.
So OH rang his parents and they were shocked, but over the moon. We hadn't told anyone we were WTT, and had actually done the opposite and told everyone that we weren't going to have kids at all. We didn't want the pressure of people constantly asking when we were going to produce offspring! So the in laws are thrilled, and want to come down as soon as possible so they can take us out to buy some baby things. I think after the scare earlier though, I want to wait a bit. I think the MIL has secretly gone out and bought some things already though!
I started my new job this week too. I've been honest from the interview about my pregnancy, and all the staff are really great about it.
Week 11
I thought most of my morning sickness was behind me, as I haven't been sick in a few days. However, I still can't keep anything down this week.
So I was lying on the sofa watching TV about 45mins after eating a large fruit salad when I felt the rumblings. Well, I couldn't really move fast enough and was sick all over my dog (long haired retriever type) who had decided that lying in a sun spot at the bottom of my sofa was his idea of bliss. :rofl: He wasn't very impressed, and I had to then wrestle him into the bath which he hates. :rofl:
I've done something really stupid though.
I missed my midwife's appointment this week. :cry:
There was a power cut last night, and my alarm didn't go off. I rang, and because the midwife only visits once every 2 weeks, they can't see me. I haven't seen the midwife at all yet, and haven't even been booked in properly. :cry: Now I'm not going to see her until I'm almost 15 weeks gone, and won't have a scan until a few weeks after that!
I'm such an idiot! :hissy:
Week 12
Woke up one morning this week with bleeding and cramping :cry: I can't believe after everything that's happened so far, that we could still be losing the baby. I had prayed so hard that we'd get to this point, and now that we have it seems unbearable that we may still lose our baby.
I rang my GP, and because I was having cramps and bleeding he arranged to see me straight away. He arranged a scan for the next day, so I spent a very stressed night with my OH who was back for the weekend.
The next day we got an early appointment at the early pregnancy unit and had a scan done. Everything was perfect :cloud9: The doctor couldn't see any reason for the bleeding this time around so fingers crossed this is the last problem we have.
It seems amazing though that I still haven't seen a midwife!
Scan Pictures:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v209/nikkir/08062008358.jpg
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v209/nikkir/08062008356.jpg
Week 13
Two really great things happened this week! First, I got my very first pregnancy comment! :happydance:
I feel huge, but I'm worried that I'm stuck in the 'is she fat or pregnant?' stage. lol! :)
I went out with DH on my Birthday to a National Trust site and when we were paying the woman smiled at me in a knowing way and said 'Don't push yourself, if you get too tired then you can ask for the minibus to take you back to reception. Have a nice time.'
Aww :blush:
Second good thing is the best one!
I heard Bump's heartbeat for the first time! It was a steady 157bpm. :cloud9:
God help me when I can feel him kicking though, at the scan he was doing handstands and thrashing around and I only managed to get the heartbeat on the doppler for about a minute before he was off again! Mental baby! :rofl:
Week 14
Just back from my FIRST midwife appointment! It went really well though. She used a doppler and found Bump's heartbeat straightaway at a steady 160bpm. :happydance:
She was so nice this time, compared to last time. I'm really happy. TBH I was dreading it before I went!
The only issue was about my past medical history, and with two bleeds so far and the fact I am allergic to general anesthetic it means that I have to be looked after by a consultant at hospital. As some of you know, I live in the middle of nowhere, and about 15 miles from the nearest hospital, but I'm sure it will be fine. Bit of a shame though.
She wasn't sure about my sand and mud cravings, but if it's anything to worry about then it will come back in my bloods.
I was a bit naughty in my appointment though :blush:
ad my first MW appointment today and she asked if I wanted to be screened for Down's. I hesitated, and she said 'would it make a difference what the result was?' and I said no, of course not it wouldn't make any difference to me. Then she asked what OH thought.
OH was really full on about me getting the tests. He said he wants to know, and if the baby has it he thinks we should get a termination.
Now, there's no way in hell that would ever happen. OH would be gone before this baby! I have cared for special needs children before and it's a non issue for me, however, it's obviously an issue for him
Anyway, I had to apparently get tested within the next 3 days for it to be accurate and they couldn't fit me in so I declined. I'm not worried about it though.
I will continue to update this each week as things progress. I hope everyone has happy and healthy pregnancies, and for those who are TTC or WTT I wish you all the luck in the world and lots of baby dust.