Jacs Pregnancy Journal

May 2nd 2008

I was holding out on starting my pregnancy journal until I'm 12 weeks and had a scan to confirm it, but I just can't stop myself from starting one now! Anyway here goes.....

My OH (known to some of you on this site as Bowsa) and I are expecting our 1st baby together on the 16th November 2008.

I have been with my OH since the 3rd November 2007 and we have been pretty much inseperable since. He is the most amazing guy I know and treats me like a princess. We've been through an awful lot together during the few months we've been together and despite people doing all they can to split us up it has only made us stronger. (My sister is in a relationship with his brother and as i'm 30 and my OH is almost 21 they think it is wrong that we should be happy together!)

Our little suprise was exactly that...we had been so careful...but these things happen and after the initial shock we are both over the moon! My OH is like a lil boy waiting for santa lol.

We weren't gonna tell anyone until after our 12 week scan but had an early scan and everything was ok so we decided to tell our families, after a couple of weeks we could hardly contain ourselves so have let slip to a few close friends but until we've had the scan we have decidednot to tell anyone else as I've previously had 3 miscarriages'

This time I'm feeling very positive and praying all goes well.

I have 4 boys from a previous relationship agrd 11,6,5 and 3 who are my world, Due to previous personal circumstances my 3 youngest are currently living with their dad and new wife, I miss them dreadfully everyday but we are in close contact and i have them in school holidays at the moment as my OH cannot drive due to a broken leg! As soon as he's up and running again so to speak then i get to see my babies alot more and it can't come soon enough. Ideally i'd love them back with me permanently but I don't want to go through a tug of love court battle with my ex over them so we have agreed for the time being to be adult over the situation and take things as they come. Please don't judge me for not having my kids, it doesn't mean I'm a bad mum, I just took my children away from a situation we were in and made sure they were safe. I'd cut my right arm and leg off to have them back home with me.

Anyway i could talk for Britain! I have my first midwife appointment on saturday so i'm hoping they will hear a heartbeat which will keep me reassured until i get my scan date through.

Praying all is ok.

11 weeks and 5 days - first midwife appointment at 9.30 in the morning.

Since my OH and I have been together we have been inseperable and tonight he's out. :(

Not that I'm moaning about it,far from it, he does so much for me and always puts me first, he hasn't been out for months due to a motorbike accident and him recovering from that....just i'm lost without him and don't know what to do with myself.

I'm so nervous about my MW appointment tommorrow and not sure what to feel right now. Damn these hormones!!!!

Congrats and welcome!

Congrats on starting a journal hun and i hope all goes well for your appointment today

congrats on your pregnancy and your lovely oh i have spoken to him on here and he so clearly worships the ground you walk on lucky girl!

no one will judge you for not having your kids. you got to do what you got to do life isnt always plain sailing and i think most of the girls on here will totally understand that.

big hugs and welcome

Saturday 3rd May - 11 weeks and 6 days

Mine and Bowsas 6 month anniversary :happydance::happydance:

11.20 am

Well I just got back from my first midwife appointment at the hospital, what a palaver having to go all that way for a half hour appointment! Hope my next one is at my GP surgery instead. Rant over lol.

I’m seeing the same midwife who did all my care during my first and 3rd pregnancy so it’s really nice to have someone I feel I know looking after me.

I have still not been booked in for my scan :( MW thinks it'll be another 1-2 weeks before I get it, I hope it's sooner rather than later as going to the baby show on the 17th and really would like to be able to buy a few things without the worry of ' is everything ok?' All the signs are good though I’m in mat trousers today and piling on the pounds....10st 1lb....OMG!!!

I've been suffering from really bad itching most of this week so MW has taken bloods to check for Obstetric Cholestasis as it’s driving me mad and waking me up at night, if I even get to sleep in he first place. Fingers crossed its not this and just a hormonal thing or something.


I’ve been referred to the consultant at 16 weeks due to 3 previous m/c, I’ve never been through a consultant before so not sure what to expect. Midwife has given me loads of stuff to read about being RH neg and a carrier of GBS so that should keep me quiet for a little while.

M/W wouldn’t check for heartbeat as she said it might disappoint me if she couldn’t find it so I feel a bit crappy about that as that was the reassurance I was needing right now, but guess I’m going to have to hold out for my scan 

13.30 pm

OMG I'M GONNA HEAVE...MY OH IS EATING A TUNA SANDWICH RIGHT NEXT TO ME EWWWWWWWWWWWWWW

I feel your pain - yesterday hubby ate fish - I almost threw up right then and there...

17.30 pm

Well I've just done my exercise for the day...an hour on the wii!!! It's great...best thing my OH ever did was buy that! lol

It makes me feel less guilty when I'm having one of my lazy biatch days, at least that way i get some exercise even if it just in the lounge and making myself look like a complete idiot :rofl:

I've been feeling dodgy the past couple of days, had an upset tummy but not sure how long to leave it before i see my doc...don't wanna make a fuss over nothing and it seems i'm constantly at the docs at the mo, I'm sure they know me by my first name now lol.

Was kinda hoping for a nice night in with my OH tonight but he went out on the lash last night for the first time since his bike accident and i think he's paying for it now and gone home to bed lol so it looks like its just me and the laptop again lol feel like i live on here somedays!

owww bless you! i cant get enough tuna sandwiches at the moment yummm

21.50

My OH has come back ....don't think he's feeling as rough as he did earlier lol

Bless him, it's our 6th month anniversary today and he just bought me a card , nice thought i hear you say....you wanna read it the cheeky sod lol

It's one of those off moonpig.com that you can personalise yourself, front reads....Jackie didn't mind her one night stands staying for breakfast, but 6 months was definately pushing it..... Have to laugh!!!

Good job i'm not feeling too hormonal at the mo :rofl:

lol bless him that is quite funny!

Sunday 4th May

I'm having a bad day today :( Feeling really low and down about everything, you know those days where you worry about everything and anything?!

I've been suffering with the most horrendous headaches on and off for a couple of weeks now and paracetamol doesn't help, I'm drinking plenty and getting fresh air and can't seem to shake them off.

My appetite has completely gone feel sick cos i'm hungry but can't eat or as soon as i start eating i feel worse!

i've had a bad tummy for a couple of days tho my mw seems to think it's nothing to worry about but thats easier said than done.

I'm still waiting to hear about my 12 week scan which seems like it'll be more like 13-14 now so i'm worrying about that too.

I had a blood test yesterday for obstetric cholestatis to check my liver function but thats not gonna be sent off til tues due to bank hols so don't know when i'm gonna hear about that.

Really am trying to stay positive but it's sooooooo hard today, just feeel like cu:cry:rling up into a little ball and crying and thats just not me.

Sorry for moaning on but that's what journals are for i guess :cry:

awww hun :hugs:

Sounds like your not having a great couple of days:hissy:

Well I felt my baby kick last night! So that's something postitive! Thought I'd felt it before but wasn't 100% sure but last night was a def kick!

Trying to be a bit more positive about things as I don't see the point in worrying when i may have no need to! I really don't want tot sink back into that black world of depression again.

I prob didn't help myself yesterday as i didn't even get dressed, but I guess we all have those days.

Beginning to think I'm gonna have to start getting organised now I'm 12 weeks, start making lists for what I need, going to the Baby Show on the 17th with one of my friends who is also PG, so want to be able to know what I'm looking for.

Went to an NCT sale last weekend and bought a couple of bits but couldn't stay long as found the whole experience absolutly mental!!! I've never seen so many pregnant women push and shove other pregnant women!!! Was my first NCT sale and my last I think!

You'd think I'd have everything having had 4 kids but i have absolutly nothing! Got rid of everything...guess that was cos i was married into the Army previously and we moved every 18-24 months so packing it all was a bummer....plus I think it's nice to be able to buy everything again as this is mine and my OHs first (and last...yes last if you're reading this!) baby together so i guess it's gonna get ruined!!

POSITIVE THOUGHT FOR THE DAY...THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WORSE OFF THAN YOU...Is that really a positive thought? :confused:

Glad you seem to be feeling a little better! And how awesome that you felt your LO kick already!!!!!!! I can't wait to feel mine - I have a while though :blush:

hun im having bad headaches try 4head you rub it on your forhead and it really works.

take care

hun im having bad headaches try 4head you rub it on your forhead and it really works.

take care

Thanks hun I use that and it's great for headaches at the front...just like brain freeze! but it's the banging ones at the back and top that i'm sruggling with, I'm having a good day today so far and not had one yet so fingers crossed for the rest of the day xx hope you feel better soon x

Glad you seem to be feeling a little better! And how awesome that you felt your LO kick already!!!!!!! I can't wait to feel mine - I have a while though :blush:

Thanks hun, the time will fly by believe me, good luck with your pregnancy xx

congrats on feeling LO!

x

how are you today

how are you today


Feeling much better today but not staying to update will do it tomorrow at spme point. Slept all morning til 1 o clock...thank god window cleaner woke me up or prob be still asleep now, hope your feeling a bit better hun x TC

5th May

Just a note for anyone who peeps at my journal, am taking a few more days off and have decided not to write anymore journal logs until i've had what should've been my 12 week scan....12 weeks and 6 days now and not heard a thing so gonna be at least another week i think, getting to the point now where i'm worrying myself as i can't believe everything is gonna be ok til i've seen it with my own eyes...will be back with an update once i know all is well x

Well I'm back...sorry for neglecting you dear journal...

Thursday 15/05/2008

Had my very late 12 week scan today and thankfully after endless worrying my LO is fit and well, everything is in the right place and the pics were fantastic! The sonographer placed me at 14 weeks and 1 day so I've just jumped upa box and into first trimester...I can't believe I made myself so illwith worrying about the LO.

I have been a complete bitch to my gorgeous OH this week, but luckily for me he has done alot of reading up on pregnancy and what to expect so he's took it all with a pinch of salt thankfully!

Now I know everything is going well I can finally start planning for the LO, there's so much to do! I'm a big fan of lists and organising so i guess thats where i'm gonna start! No time like the present hey!

My OH has gone out to celebrate and tell all his family and friends the great news as we pretty much kept the pregnancy to ourselves apart from family and a couple of very close friends (due to the risk of miscarriage) so i imagine he's going to be coming back feeling a bit worse for wear tonight lol.

Anyway, less of my rambling on...here's some pics of the LO

Friday 16/05/2008

Well I have to say I'm really impressed with my OH, as i said yesterday in my journal my OH went out to celebrate after having our scan and i really expected him to come rolling back in a bit of a state! Or not at all lol. He was home by half ten and not at all in a state! Maybe just slightly merry! and who can blame him! I know if i could have a drink to celebrate i would!

Today has been a great day, finally coming to terms that all is well and can start to enjoy the rest of my pregnancy!

We have told everyone now and anyone that doesn't know will know by the end of the night as OH has gone to do the rounds at his local! (Which is cool with me as i get to have the sofa and the remote all to myself tonight lol)

I told my eldest about the baby as he finished his SATS today and he is cool with it...I expected a negative reaction so am really pleased, Just the little ones to tell now when they are over for half term! And i know they will be fine with it as they have recently had a little sister from their dads new wife.

My eldest has come from school with nits again!! I'm getting pissed off with it now this is twice in as many weeks!! I wish the other parents would just treat their kids its not alot to ask and it's costing me a small fortune in shampoo!!

OH and i've started writing my lists for things we need....here we go!!!!!

bless your oh!! he should take these chances to get mullered before the baby comes!!

yeah that's what i said lol...i'm noting all his nights out in exchange for some post baby lol

Those are great scan pics! I love the little hand in your avatar pic - soooo cute. Can't wait to see mine... 5 weeks to go though :(

Those are great scan pics! I love the little hand in your avatar pic - soooo cute. Can't wait to see mine... 5 weeks to go though :(


My scan was two weeks late so i think thats why we were lucky to get such detailed pics, none of my others with my other boys have been so clear, ts just amazing! your wait will fly by hun believe me! x