Percilla's Pregnancy Journal

Okay, so I decided it was time to start one of these.

Lately I have been really nauzeated although the last couple days hasnt been too bad. Lastnight Shawn told me he wanted spaghetti and I thought it was a fantastic idea, that was until, it was sitting in front of me. I kind of picked at it and barely ate anything. I just really think I didnt want it like I thought I did. Shawn wrapped it up for me and I ate it today for lunch but I felt so bad that he made it all lastnight and neither of us really was in the mood for it. Not bad but I just dont think spaghetti is going to be one of my favorite pregnancy foods.

Ive been so tired lately its unreal. I just want my energy back. I feel like I could literally sleep all day. My skin is dry, my boobs are sore and I feel like I could eat everything in the house. Im not complaining though because Im pretty sure that I have more symptoms this time then I did during the last pregnancy that I m/c so thats good.

Tomorrow is my ultrasound and Im so nervous and excited. I cant wait to see that heartbeat and I cant wait to see the little blob. I never got to see either during my first pregnancy because the fetus died early on and then I finally m/c at 10wks. So this I think will make everything more real and I will be able to feel a bit better about the whole thing. Im really happy because Shawn is going to go with me he worked his hardest to get his shift switched with someone because he would have been working during the time I had to go. Now he will be working a few hours later.

My MIL was talking to me the other day and going on about stuff she thinks she is ALWAYS right about and was literally just driving me crazy. She is a lovely woman but sometimes just can be a "know it all" and if she doesnt know it all she pretends she does and often we believe just makes stuff up. Anyways she was going on about breastfeeding and asked if I was going to. I told her no I dont think (my personal opinion I just dont like the idea of breastfeeding) She was going on about how its healthier for the baby (which I do agree that the Colosturum(sp?) is better for baby but I still dont want to breastfeed) My mom was telling me that alot of people try to guilt you into breastfeeding she said the doctors and nurses did it to her (she was only 16 when she gave birth to me) she didnt give in to them. I think she is right and its happening already. I dont like the idea of a baby on my boob all the time and some people have told me it hurts. Like I said my personal opinion. I also want Shawn to be able to feed the baby as much as he can because as of right now his work shifts are all over the place and he wont be able to spend much time with the baby. If my mom or his mom want to take the baby for the day or even a night I want to be able to give the baby over to them without having to pump a whole bunch of milk. Most formulas on the market these days provide the same kind of nutrients breastmilk does and is perfectly healthy for them and its not going to harm my baby if they have just formula. If a baby doesnt take to breastmilk, you put them on formula so really whats the difference if I do it before I even try him/her on breastmilk?

Also, she got on the topic of me wanting a 3D and 4D scan from UCBABY. She thinks it could be harmful but like I told her they wouldnt be able to have it on the market if it was harmful to the baby. It is no different then a normal ultrasound. She thinks having too many can be harmful and where I am going for an early one and will likely have a couple more before I even get to go to UCBABY it just wont be good for bean. She is afraid the equipment may not be serviced properly or that the techs might not actually be qualified to do it. I read the website and it seems wonderful to me and all are qualified. They have spots over parts of Canada and Im sure millions of people use them. I told her Im getting it done anyways. Ughh sometimes that woman drives me crazy!!:dohh:

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This video is of my husband Shawn singing about the baby that we m/c. He wrote this song and sang it within an hour so it's not the best and needs a bit of work but its pretty good for being so quick with it. When he first sang it to me I cried so much. This was his way of grieving and just wanted to share it with you guys since I think I have figured out how. Hope it works. xo

Aww hun thats so lovely!!

And YAY you started a journal!!

woohoo you started a journal i cant wait to read how your progressing!

Well I went for my ultrasound today and I am actually only 7wks+2days. Due December 8th, 2008. It was so wonderful seeing the heartbeat because the last pregnancy we couldnt even see a fetal pole but there it was just ticking away <3 so lovely. Shawn started to cry...he said he wasnt but he was.

Today I am sooooo sick. I woke up and felt a little queazy and couldnt stop vomiting since then. Oh no...I think morning sickness has struck me =( anyways Im tired so I think this will be my update for the day.

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It says 13 wks but its not. That would be going by my LMP since I didnt get one in February.

xo:cloud9:

thats a great pic

So it's been a few days since I posted in my journal so I figured I would take this time and do just that.

The other day I had a really bad day. I was so cranky. I was mad at everything...and it all started with not having anything to wear, everything doesnt fit, my hair wont go the way I want, I feel like crap, I look like crap...I was just like this all day I really was in a slump about myself. I just find I get into weird moods like that where I down myself so much and think I am not that pretty and blah blah blah. I have even done this before I was pregnant. Just sometimes I dont feel pretty and then of course my husband tells me Im beautiful but all I say is "you have to say that...your my husband". I really dont have a low self esteem and most times Im ok and can say ya Im pretty, maybe not gorgeous like some people but Im ok the way I am. Since I have gained weight like 15-20lbs (since last year) Now I know I am not super big and I really shouldnt complain because most people think Im still small but seriously its just me seing this weight on me...I can notice it more than most people. I have all these little red stretch marks on the insides of my legs which are really embarassing and these damn love handles or as I like to call them 'muffin tops' I am really at an ok weight I could probbly lose 5 lbs and be at a good weight for my petiteness (4'11") but I think Im just down because it's not toned. Anyways the whole thing started because I was going shopping for clothes. I couldnt find anything!! I find everything is so small (I have a 36DD chest already! and shirts always seems to rise....)and made for skater chicks (you know with the little hearts and skulls and all that jazz) I was going for something more sophisticated and pretty rather than 'cool' I just find everything is so damn expensive (I like to be able to get a bunch of stuff out of $100.00 not just a couple shirts..) but I started thinking about it and maybe I will have to go more expensive if I want anything nice and thats going to fit properly. I just kept saying the whole time was "I hate shopping, I really really hate it". I just really dont want to become frumpy and with my whole pants wardrobe being sweats I feel like thats where I am headed. Anyways, since that day Im feeling better no more I hate myself spells.

I am 8 wks (again!!) today lol...finally Im back up to 8 wks. Time seriously feels like its standing still. I havent had anymore morning sickness just the usual nausea all day long in little spurts. I have been major tired though feel like I could sleep forever. The last couple nights I have woken up around 230am-300am scratching to death. I feel so itchy it really sucks. I got a cold cloth and wiped myself down wherever I itched but it didnt really help and the night before it just kind of went away or I ignored it...Im not sure which. Lastnight though I couldnt stop scratching I was driving myself insane finally I took off all my clothes and was pretty much fine and finally fell back to sleep. I know its not different laundry soap or anything like that because we use the same all the time but I think its just the weather changing here going from hard cold winter to spring like days to being cold again its definitely messing with my skin. I hate it anyways. Anyways, rant over.

Happy 8 week anniversary AGAIN lol!!

i get the same about shopping, im a 34f (naturally) and a uk 12/14 so its hard for me to find nice clothes.

happy 8 weeks woohoo

Congratulations on reaching 8 weeks. The video is lovely... it made me fill up!! Lots of :hug:

You poor chicken! I totally understand how you feel! I was like that when I was pregy with DS (now 2)...nothing fit I just looked fat! I couldnt even fit into a bigger size! My (o)(o) were ginormous! (Im normally a AUS 16 DD) and they went up to a 16 G!!!!!!) WOW!!!!! Even DH said they were too big...and that was just while I was pregy...Milk not even in yet!!!!!
So trust me I know how you feel! :hugs: :hugs:
Take care and keep us posted on your development! I too had m/c before this pregy...so now im feeling paranoid! Check out my journal if you like! :lol:
Hope all goes well for you sweeety...and congrats on getting to 8 weeks with no hassles! Wish me luck too!
:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

Congrats - I'm here along for the ride!!

Well, the last couple days I haven't been on the computer much. Yesterday I was sooooo sick. I woke up in the am with a headache, I was dizzy and couldnt see straight along with vomiting. I felt absolutly awful. What scared me was the dizziness because I walked out into the hallway and fell up against the wall...Shawn asked me if I was ok and I said no that I felt horrible. I was boiling...checked my temp but no fever thank goodness. I litterally felt like I might die...finally Shawn put a dark sheet over top of our blinds to block the sunlight and I went to sleep for a few hours and felt a bit better when I woke up. I pretty much was in bed all day long.

Today, Im feeling okay (knock on wood) so hopefully the rest of my day stays like this. I dont have morning sickness all the time like some people I only get it a day here and there so I am lucky that way...I dunno what I would do if I had it all the time. :cry:

Shawn was talking to me the other day in the car and asked me what size diapers newborns wear (hehe I thought it was cute) I told him it says the sizes on it and it would be newborn. He was like "oh ok". I asked him why he wanted to know and he wouldnt tell me. Finally I got him to tell me and he said the next time we go get groceries he wants to start buying a pack of diapers everytime. I thought it was so sweet and a pretty good idea. So I think what we might do is buy some newborn and also other sizes so we have them on hand because you always need diapers. I thought it was pretty thoughtful of him and definitely made me smile. :baby:

Anyways, thats all for today I think. xo

im sorry you have been feeling so ill, nothing preps you for morning sickness/pregnancy ill you just have to ride it out it does get better.

your oh sounds like a sweetie!

Aww that was so sweet of your OH .... theyve got it in them really to be thoughtful lol

Aw I didn't know you started this. Congrats on the big 9 weeks <3

So, I haven't written in a while. Lately I haven't felt much like going on the computer at all. I have had some more morning sickness since the last time I wrote but so far it hasnt been too bad. I'm definitely grateful that I don't get it everyday like some people do (I am SOOO sorry to those of you whom have to endure it everyday!!) Sorry guys I need to rant a bit, so this entry is going to be a longgggg one.

I did have to deal with a bit of a b!tch the other day that I had on my msn. She is the ex girlfriend of one of my ex boyfriends that I TRIED to stay friends with. She randomly added me one time after she talked to me from his. I didn't mind and had no problem talking to her. During my last pregnancy in which I had my miscarriage she flipped on me because I had put in my msn name that I had "lost the baby" just my wording for me having the miscarriage. She said "Your baby is not a set of keys, you didn't just lose it". I told her "I will word it the way I want...some doctors word it that way so whatever". She went all nuts on me because she had a miscarriage and thats what the doctors said to her and she didnt like how he said it. Anywaysss...she then went on to tell me that I had the miscarriage because I OBVIOUSLY wasnt ready to be a mom. She made me blow my top...I flipped and brought up her miscarriages (she had 3) thinking back on it I really shouldnt have but I mean I was mad and she did say I wasnt ready to be mom...seriously what does she know? I havent even met the girl. She eventually appologized and said it was just pregnancy hormones (I went with it because she did appologize so meh) Now a little about her. She has a son (whom she isnt with the father also NOT my ex) she is 32 wks pregnant with my ex's child (so 2 different fathers, 2 different children) She got pregnant with him within their first month together and he left her a few months in because she seriously has issues. I think she is 21 or 22 or something like that.
The other day I had ANOTHER know it all conversation with her (because she is pregnant she seriously thinks she knows everything) example being: during my last pregnancy she told me my boobs shouldnt be sore at 7 wks or whatever I was BECAUSE she didnt get sore boobs with her first child until she was 5 months or something. Ridiculous I know. I told her everybodys pregnancies and bodies are different.
This is the conversation I had with her.... I am the blue and she is the orange.

BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
hi
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
i have a headace too today its horrible im hott as hell damn weather
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
i figure ur around the com ur on facebo
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
hi
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
no i actually just layed down and then i heard msn bleep
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
im sorry u can go lay back down then
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
if u did not want too be bothered turn your speakers off
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
its ok dont worry about it but i feel like im gonna get sick again
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
they are off oddly enough
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
but for some reason it still bleeps
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
ive already done that twice so far '
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
its awful
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
yup
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
i will talk to ya later
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
just think im 31 weeks ur only 8 im huge in this hot weather
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
im gonna be fairly big by the summer so im gonna be pregnant during all the summer heat
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
injoy ur nap sleep wile u can becuz when ur actually a mom u wont see much sleep for the first lil wilr
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
i know that
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
u will be 4 months in the summer thats not that big ill be like 38 weeks when the real hot weather hits
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
ill be delivering a baby in the hotest month of summer
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
mmmhm
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
u shouldent have u as mommy macphee yet ur not a mom ur only pregnant u need too have a baby too be a mom right now ur baby is not even compleatly formed
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
go ahead get mad take offence becuz i kno u are goin too
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
im still going to be a mom so im keeping it as that
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
w/e
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
no one else ever says this kind of stuff to me if it was that much of a problem they would
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
im not anyone else im outspen i tell people how it other people are alot nicer then i am i am a mom
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
just think its not right of u too be calling urself mommy becuz u arent
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
i will do whatever i want
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
ur not right telling me what to do all the time
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
shawn tells me to block u all the time but yet i keep u on here bc im trying to be nice
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
w/e lady i stated my opion wich im intitled too block me if u want becuz i could care less wtf ur husb thinks of me
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
im not his wife im not fuckin him
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
i wouldent get married at 19 ty very much here ill do wut ur baby daddy wants ill deleate u too make him happy
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
hope u actually carry this baby bye
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
have a great life
Mommy MacPhee <3 [P.S. I love you.] *You are my everything says:
i got married at 20 thankssss
BABY GURL31 WEEKS PREGO DUE JULY 5TH IM HAVIN ANOTHER BOY says:
wtf ever

She seriously ticked me off. I am just like my mom and Keizer side of the family and I have a terrible temper when you get me going. I had so many things I could have said to her and wanted to say to her but my heart was pounding, my adrenaline rushing and my hands shaking...I figured it was better for baby if I stayed calm and didnt bother with her so after that I blocked and deleted her from msn and facebook. I was so sick of dealing with her know it all attitude I just couldnt handle it anymore.

Besides that little drama I have been pretty good. I have figured out what I am going to do for work. I went to college for 2 years and got my early childhood education diploma and did work for a daycare up until I had my miscarriage. I couldnt stay there any longer (I just wasnt happy, even my director noticed and said I needed to do what was right for me and my body...I was emotionally drained). I decided even with the baby on the way I don't feel like working at a daycare at this point. I have decided however, that I am going to take care/babysit whatever you want to call it in my apartment. Just 2 or 3 kids. I can be making 1200 a month, untaxed and whatever so I wont have to worry. I can stay home in my sweats, when I need to go to appointments I can without hassle and I can eat whenever I want. When the children nap I can also nap so I think it will be better for me. I am going to get a couple playpens, highchairs etc to have for them and will do similar stuff as in daycare...crafts, stories, teach them stuff etc. It wont be just like a 16 year old babysitting a child for a few hours. I have my CPR and food handlers course too so that is a big bonus. This is something I can also do once the baby comes (probbly not right away of course but a friend of mine did it and she started when her son was less than 6 months old...maybe 4 or something, this way I will be also making more than I would on maternity leave. My husband is very supportive and feels it would be better for me to do it this way and I definitely agree.

I will be 10wks on monday so the time is definitely starting to feel like its going a little faster. I have my next doctors appointment on June 9th (14wks exactly) and my 12wk ultrasound is May 28th and a day before my 21st birthday!! Yay!! Im actually not to excited about my birthday it just feels like another day to me and actually try to avoid the topic when Im with my in-laws. Not long ago Bill (shawns dad) said "someone has a birthday coming up!!" I was like "what? no I dont think" ughh...I think inside Im really excited but just not showing it yet. Today, shawns parents gave me a card for mothers day (our mothers day over here is May 11th) tomorrow and I was so excited...it definitely put a smile on my face. It was to an expectant mother which I thought was perfect!! Anyways, I better end this before I ramble forever. I will likely write more tomorrow!! xo

So, I mentioned in a thread about "why chose the name you did for your little one" or something like that, that I had chosen the name Douglas to be in a boys name because of my biological father. The anniversary of his death is coming up so I thought it would be good for me to talk a little about him and our story.

My mom got pregnant with me when she was 15 years old and gave birth to me 9 days after her 16th birthday. My father (whom I will likely refer to as Douglas throughout this, not because I disrespect him or because Im mad at him but because I thought of him as more of an uncle than a dad). Douglas was also 15 and he was very immature. Mom had to grow up really fast because of the pregnancy but he seemed to stay just as immature as ever.

When I was born my mom tried to stay with him but it was just too hard on her because she needed him to be a father and he wasn't ready to stop being a kid. They ended up breaking up and she started dating his older brother (he was 7 years older than her) but she fell in love with him and they ended up getting married when she was 17 and gave birth to my brother when she was 18. So, this being said, my step father (whom I call dad and will refer to as dad through this) is really technically my uncle and my brother is my half brother/cousin.

It was a complicated mess, and Douglas hated and despised my mom for a very long time. (I honestly don't blame him) Ever since I could understand, I knew that Douglas was my real father and mom never told me otherwise she said she never wanted me to find out when I was older and then hate her so she never kept it from me. Douglas lived with his 2 brothers and my grandfather up until the day he died so whenever we would go over I would visit with them but more like he was my uncle than a dad. My stepfather raised me right from when I was a baby so that is why I call him dad.

I used to go over to Douglas' when I was 5 because my school was right next door so he used to babysit me after school and one of my fondest memories with him was when there was snow on the ground and him and I were playing in it and there was a huge snowbank that we made into an igloo...I crawled inside and I remember him sitting outside it with his hand in asking me if there was room for 2.

When I was around 9 I think I started wanting to actually refer to him as father and start getting to know him as a father and daughter. I also started to give him hugs and kisses before I left from visiting him. I decided to give him a fathers day present early because this was the first year I would have done it and I was so excited to see his face I just couldnt wait. So, mom took me to a flower shop and we bought him a beautiful bouquet in a mug that had a Tiger on the ouside along with information about Tigers on it. I gave it to him early and I will never forget the smile on his face when I handed it to him and said happy fathers day. My 10th birthday was also coming up just after that on May 29th but I will never ever forget the day of June 1st 1997.

We had just moved to where my great grandma used to live and we were renovating it while living there. June 1st seemed to be a dreary day and the air was cold and I just felt like there was something about this day that didnt feel right. My mom and dad's friend showed up (they called him Wog...I dont know what his real name was) but he seemed weird and went off to talk to mom and dad along with my uncle Dwayne who was with him. Finally, I seen mom crying and had no idea what was going on but Dwayne, mom and dad all left while Wog stayed with us for a while.

Dad finally returned later and said we needed to go to Musquodoboit so we got in the car and drove down there. Musquodoboit is where I grew up, we were going to Middle Musq. and we were living in Upper Musq. Anyways, we drove to my uncle Vernons, Dad got out of the car and made us wait in the car and went to his door. There was no answer and then he wrote him a note and stuck it to the door. He got back in the car and we drove up to the hospital which was 5 mins away. I thought it was so weird and I started to think maybe something happened to Vernon because we ended up driving back to his place again. Dad once again got out and went to the door but still no answer. I will never forget his face when he got back in the car.

He got back in the car with his tear filled eyes. I asked him if something happened to Vernon and he said no, that he had something to tell my brother and I. He then went on to tell me that Douglas had been in a canoeing accident and he had passed away. I broke down, my dad broke down and Justin broke down. We had just lost my father, dads brother, and my brothers uncle and there was nothing that could be done. It was one of the hardest times of my life and I went to sleep everynight hoping that when I woke we would go visit and he would be sitting on a chair in their house and say "fooled you" but he never did.

The funeral was very hard. I brought a school picture with me and wanted to put it in his hands in his casket but I was so young I couldnt do it alone. My dad got up and helped me. His funeral was a rainy day and everyone was mourning and crying and it was just so hard, especially when they lowered his casket into the ground and I knew I would never see him again.

I still find it hard to this day to go to his grave. I still cry here and there while I am alone. Over the years talking about his death has helped me overcome it and to this day I find it easier to talk about it now then I did back then. I miss him and it never felt right going to their house because when we did we expected to see him but he was never there.

My mom always told him that he would be there on my graduation day and that he would be there for my wedding. It just turned out it was in spirit not in actual body. It's kind of weird because he told my mom a few years before this that he was going to die by the time he turned 25. That he just had a feeling about it. He was right. He died June 1st 1997 and his 25th birthday was September 21st. We think he died before he hit the water (they say he drowned but the way the autopsy was written there is no way he could have) We actually think he may have had epilepsy and had a seizure, hit his head and died before he ended up in the water. He wouldnt get checked for epilepsy even though he had had seizures before. There was drinking involved also so that was definitely a factor.

On my graduation day alot of my pictures that I had developed had orbs in them. I really believe he was there that day and believe that these orbs in my pictures was him. One of the pictures was my whole graduating class and the orb in the picture was sitting right where I was sitting. I dont know some people may think Im crazy but I really felt the orbs meant something.

On my wedding day my dad walked me down the aisle but I know Douglas was there too. We got married at the church my mom and dad got married at and also where Douglas was burried. In his memory Shawn and I had pictures taken down by his grave. This is the reason I will have the name Douglas in my sons name if I have a boy. He may not have been there for me all the time but I loved him just as much.

This experience, along with the suicide of my boyfriend and his mother in grade 10 I believe has really helped me be the person I am today. I am a much stronger person because of it.

Thanks for reading if you have finished this whole thing. xo

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Well, Im 10wks today yay!! Its starting to feel like time is going a little faster now instead of feeling like its standing still. Soon enough I will be going to my ultrasound appointment on May 28th and then having my birthday on the 29th!! June 9th I will be finally into Second tri so I am extra stoked for that as its just around the corner! My belly is starting to take shape now, I am definitely seeing more of a difference. :happydance: Im going through a major dill pickle craving. I just opened the jar, not the sunday that just went by but the sunday before, and I finished the jar on friday lol. Shawn bought me a new jar today but they are "Our compliments" version and definitely arent as good as the Vlasic ones...they just dont have that CRUNCH :( and definitely dont taste as good. I may have to get him to get a new jar and maybe give that jar to his parents or something. We just had our mothers day yesterday and it was also my dads birthday so we went out to visit with them and they bought chinese food and cake!! So yummy!! Shawn came home from work with a "mother-to-be day" present...he bought a little handheld massager for me because I have been complaining of my back being sore...it was a cute gesture. I haven't been sick lately which is great!! Yay!! I really hate being sick and Im glad its passed for now.
I gotta go find some food now so Im gonna end my update! xo

Happy 10 week anniversary!!! x

Today Im doing pretty good. A little tired earlier but I think Im starting to get my energy back. Still no sickness...felt a little sick earlier but I ate and it seems to have gone away for the time being. I had a woman email me back about babysitting her son so thats really exciting. We agreed on $50 a day 7am-7pm and it would be 2-4days a week. I went a little low and technically I could charge $10 an hour but someone else offered her $10 an hour and she couldnt afford it. 12 hour days are going to be long days but Im only really doing this to make some extra cash to help pay the bills and rent and buy stuff for my baby so even with 2-3 kids I will be doing ok with bringing in some money. Im really getting excited about the idea. Yesterday my dad called and said he was coming over for a minute so for me to be watching for him. When he showed up I went out to the car and he said "here's an icecream cake for you and the little one for mothersday..pig out!" It was so cute because I had mentioned it to dad (the day before yesterday because it was dads birthday on mothersday I asked him what kind of cake he got and if it was DQ icecream cake) and told him that I asked shawn if we could get icecream cake from dairy queen not long ago but they are expensive and he said we had no reason to get one so we didnt, so dad went out and bought one for me!
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its good that things are starting to look positive, 12 hour days with other peoples children, i dont fancy that too much...good luck!!!

Thats a great idea, if i didnt have a full time job id definatley look into babysitting other peoples kiddies all day. At the end of the day its extra cash for when the baby comes along eh? Tiring ... but arent all full time jobs tiring!!