Rachels Journal 08

Okay, so after reading all you pregnancy journals i got inspired to write my own instead of ranting on different threads each day ha!
So here it goes, my name is Rachel i am 16 and am now 7 months pregnant with a baby boy! im on :cloud9: knowing soon i will be holding him in my arms (even though im petrefied about labour haha!)

FINDING OUT - it all started when i got with Adam, i doted on him as soon as i looked at him (sounds corny but you know how it is haha), at first we took things slow but when i realised i loved him after he said it to me i knew i was ready so we started having :sex:, an because i have been with other lads, i knew he was the best so far ha! sorry if TMI. it felt so right and true i was being young and foolish not using contraceptive and just relying on the 'Pull out method' thinking it was never going to happen to me! Ha what ever Rachel, because it did happen to me. i had been with Adam almost 6 months and was in love with him as much as he was with me, i started to notice a change in myself but put it down to hormones and due to come etc. but the day came and i didnt come on. people around me started getting suspicious asking me if i was but to be honest i really didnt know myself to tell them yes or no! when i was 2 weeks late i finally realised i had to getthe courage to take a test because it wasnt going to go away, i was sitting in my dads es girl friends Steph and i was meant to wait 5 minutes+ for a faint blue line to come through yet after 2 minutes a dark blue line appeared - :bfp:! i sat there an cried an cried like a baby, i was 16 i didnt know what to do with myself. all i kept saying to myself is 'i wanted to make something of myself, how am i going to cope with a baby'. Steph helped me calm down and just hugged me and told me things were going to be ok. i knew the next step was telling Adam.

TELLING ADAM - sat on the bus on my way down to Adams i stared out the bus window watching everyone walk past in there own little worlds and it was like i was frozen there and then to that spot, like the world has carried on moving yet i was still as ice. knocking on his door, wiping my eyes from crying he answered and automatically knew soemthing was up. we went up to his room so his mum + dad couldnt hear what was going on. i said 'Adam i've got some news + your not going to like it' so he said 'youre pregnant rnt u' then i cried and he hugged me and said he was there for me and everything was going to be fine but i could tell he was crying too. we talked things through about our different options + he said no matter what he would stand by me and in the end after we talked for a while we ended up in bed having :sex: again (i said to myself while walking the bus stop hand in hand with adam, 'dont you ever learn')

TIME TO LET THE FAMILY KNOW - by this point i was 7 weeks gone and my family knew i was pregnant and was just waiting for me to confirm it! i told certain people in my family, the ones who i could talk too + they were thrilled for me, a bit shocked but happy. i took the day of school to go the doctors with Steph to get it professionally confirmed that i was actually pregnant etc etc. but on my way my aunties got on the bus and because i wasnt in school they knew something was up and made me stay on the bus whilst Steph got off, they asked me and i burst out crying. they were dissapointed at both the fact i was pregnant + that i didnt go to them for help. that night - oh that dreaded night, Susan (my auntie) told me she was going to tell my mum that night. so i rang Adam to let him no and he just burst out crying on the phone because he knew my mum would ring his mum + dad and tell them too, so Susan paid for a taxi for him to get down to hers and stay with me while she went to tell my mum. well once Adam got there we sat there holding eachother for what seemed like hours, the phone rang 'tell adam his mum is here and she wants him here now' so we gets ready to walk down tears streaming down both our faces, he gripped my hand and the closer we got the tighter he held me. we got there and our house seemed as if some one had broken in and recked the place (turns out my mum went balistic throwing things and breaking things) and Adams mum grabbed adam and told him he was going to his aunties for a while so his mum and dad could talk, he began to walk down the path still holding his hand out to me, i grabbed it and told him i loved him no matter what! deep down i knew that was the last of me + adam.

FIND OUT ABOUT SOPHIE - next thing i knew i was told to come in, bracing myself thinking my mum was about to go mental on me she gave me a hug and asked if i was ok. i as shocked but i guess she already got her anger out on the house. then my auntie Paula decided to fill me in on the fact adams mum didnt even no we was still together because adam he been bringing another girl back to his! :gun: which give me the shock of my life, the boy i loved, the boy that i thought loved me!! i ran out wanting to get away from everyone + everything that was going on. later that night adam tried ringing me but i wasnt ready to talk to him, so i guess he gathered that was me saying it was over. so he ignored me for the next few days and i found out he had a new girl friend - SOPHIE! who has 'Rachel an that stupit kid of ers is gettin in the way of Mine + adams relationship i hope she loses it' which i found out of one of the girls she goes out with whom i speak too.

ABORTION - after everything that had happened i got it into my head that i couldnt be a mum to my baby on my own so i agreed with adam for him to come with me to gt an abortion but whilst sitting in the abortion clinic watching other people coming out clutching there stomach crying there eyes out i knew deep down in my heart i couldnt do it!

ADAM - he doesnt want to have anything to do with the baby or me, he is to childish and loves going out getting 'smashed' with his mates 24/7. so i left him be. even after i found out i was having his baby BOY he still didnt make an effort to get in touch.

HOSPITAL - i thought i was going to lose my baby after a incident at work were a man pushed me in my stomach and said 'watch were your going, people like you are a disgrace to this earth' ignoring it i felt a stabbing pain in my stomach and felt like a relief 'down there'. i started work, without going the toilet to scared to find out if my thoughts were true. eventually my supervisor noticed something was up and i todl her and she ordered me to go and check other wise she was sending me home. so on my way up to the staff toilets i cried my eyes out , scared to what i was going to find. TMI - as i sat there i looked and realised id had a loss of water, at first i thought the man had nocked my bladder and id had an accident with out realising but then i thought to myself, if i didnt wouldnt it (smell etc) so paniced and ended up going home. i told my mum and she said go to bed with a hot water bottle and see how you feel. the following week i was still in pain so i got an emergency app. in the hospital. turns out i just had a loss of water - reason, unknown and was sent home with tablets.

Grandad - my great grandad was dying of cancer and i knew he wasnt going to be with us long, it was a horrible time especially on top of what was going on with the baby + Adam etc. the cancer has spread throughout his body and ws eating away at him piece by piece. he slowly give up of wanting to survive so he starved himself and just give up talking to anyone. i watched as my once lively grandad deteriate into a 4 and a half stone man! he kept calling me claire which upset me so much, i could feel my depression taking back over my body! the day my mum walked in crying i knew he had gone (RIP GRANDAD) so she asked if i would walk around with her so she could go and speak with other family members etc. andi said i would but only if he would have gone because i couldnt face seeing him. she told me he would have gone but as we got to his corner i seen the funeral van and i feel to my knees crying my eyes out screaming for my grandad! when we got in there i sat there staring at 'his chair' in the corner where he used to sit and watch as all the birds flew past (he had an intrest in birds, he knew every single bird in the world) and now it was just empty. i just remember my aunties crying and later that night i realised it was because as i walked in the living room they carried my grandad out to the van. his funeral was hard, i didnt think i could do it but some how i found the strength to get through it. i miss him so much but now ive let go of him because hes not in pain anymore and needs to be set free. xxx

MOVE OUT! - my little sister decided to take a hissy fit and run away for 3 weeks until i promised id move out. which was a hassle at first but now im coming to terms with it and it doesnt seem to bad because its not a immediate thing which is better than being onthe streets now.

ADAM WANTS TO BE A DAD - adam got in touch with me via his mum and my mum and told me he wanted contact with Jayden. i was made up and swore balck + blue to everyone that he has changed because they said i was making a mistake, but i loved him still and he wanted to be my babys dad still. but recently i found out the actuall reason why he wants to be a dad all of a sudden, because his girl friend had turned round to him knowing quite well he didnt believe me about what she said and she told him she would stick by him and be Jaydens 2nd mummy. this made adam want to be a dad but now he has lost that chance because i though he had changed but he hasnt hes just the same like people kept trying to tell me, he walked all over me like i said i wouldnt let him do!! :hissy:

SHEA (pronounced like shay)- my gorgous new boyfriend who i adore, he means so much to me hes like my rock. hes sticking by me even though im having another lads kid and he wants to help me take care of the baby too with or without adam.

So up to now even though my life hasnt been the happiest, my pregnancy is progressing very well and Jaydens kicks me like mad. will post some pictures of my bump and how it has progressed from when i found out to now. will keep you updated of how things get on.

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6 weeks - 1076

10 weeks - 1077

15 - weeks 1078

24 weeks - 1079

14 weeks scan - 1081

20 weeks scan - 1082

Thats quite some story for someone of little years, but well done you seem to have dealt with it really well!!

Your bump looks fantastic i bet you are dead proud and cant wait to meet your little one!!

Well its been a crazy time for you poppet hasnt it!!

I hope everything works out for you and look forward to keeping up with your journal.

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Thats quite some story for someone of little years, but well done you seem to have dealt with it really well!!

Your bump looks fantastic i bet you are dead proud and cant wait to meet your little one!!

haha doesnt help that i can talk for britain haha!
i cant wait to meet jayden, just the thought of this time in 12 wks? il be holding my lil boy :baby::cloud9: xx

got my plan updated plan of care back of my midwife today because last time she messed it up. it says on it, feels very confident how ever will need support. wants to A/F << what does that mean??

Artificially feed (Bottle feed)

it sounds like you have your head screwed on, i have been reading your threads about the babys dad i think you are doing really well id be in bits by now

it sounds like you have your head screwed on, i have been reading your threads about the babys dad i think you are doing really well id be in bits by now

Am trying my hardest not to let him get to me, i don't want to prove everyone right because they told me he was no good. part of me still believes he will change but that part of me is shrinking day by day!

Youve just got to suck it in and get on with things hunni, it might sounds a bit hard but dont rely on this guy to suddenly change because from the sounds of it he wont.

What is it with the guys that are no good? Theyre like the men on the lynx advert where all the women are drawn in to them :rofl:

You just concentrate on keeping things cool and calm ready for when Jayden arrives hun :hugs:

Wow, just read your post and just wanted to say how much it touched me. You speak so honestly about your feelings and I think you come across as coping in quite a mature way with everything you've had to deal with. You clearly want what's best for your little Jayden and I'm sure you'll be a fantastic Mum. Thanks for sharing with us hun, and I'm wishing you all the best and every happiness for your future with your little boy. keep smiling babe. xxx :hug:

SORRY IF TMI!

well as you all know, i am with my OH, Shea an am feeling really really close to him an he said he wont rush me into anything. but the thing is, is i want to, its wierd because i keep having dirty dreams about me an him an i can talk to him about things (wont go into detail haha) but when it comes to the actually doing things i cant bring myself to do it!

i cant understand why my mind is playing tricks with me ha! i really want to start having :sex: with him because of the way my dreams are making me feel towards him but urgh! getting sexy while feeling about 20 stone, well doesn't exactly happen haha xxx

Latest picture of bump - 28 weeks an a few days

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wow what a bump!

oh i think dirty dreams are a symptom of pregnancy ha

wow what a bump!

oh i think dirty dreams are a symptom of pregnancy ha

Haha i thought that when i woke up, i was like ahh were did you come from haha!

hmm well these dreams best go away haha :hissy:

28 weeks + 6 days

feeling really exhausted the past few days because i cant sleep at all and when i finally get asleep Jayden wakes up and decides, 'oooh wouldnt it be fun to do toss overs in mummys belly' haha.
stupid washer broke last week and have been waiting for them to come out to fix it and i really want to go to sleep but i cant until theyve been to fix it! damn people hurry up! ahh haha.

Had a serious talk with me mum last night about situations with Adam an she explained about her texting Adams mum saying she thinks its best if we all keep our distance because of how much its stressing me out. i understand were shes coming from but i still emailed Adam to tell him he can see the baby as long as I'm there until he proves he can change + i can trust him again. which in my eyes seems to be very fair because of how many chances i have given him an hes recked it for himself. but hes Jayden's daddy so im not being the baddy by taking my babys chance to know his dad away from him.

sorted out all my baby stuff yesterday to see what i still needed, the only things i really need now is nappies + to finish paying pram + cot mattress off.

BABY SHOWER = ] - 3rd May, cant wait the first time me + my mates have all been in the same place at the same time since i've been pregnant because i haven't been going out much the past few months so that should be fun haha.

Appointments for this week.
midwife - tuesday
young mums group - wednesday
midwife - thursday

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I had a few dirty dreams in the first tri. I woke up wondering where my cute dreams had gone!

Pictures of the family = ]

Jamie + his daughter Sky - older brother, 20 in may
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Cortney - step sister, 5
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Aj - half brother, 3
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Elyssa - half sister, 2 next week
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Maddison - half sister, 2 months
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I had a few dirty dreams in the first tri. I woke up wondering where my cute dreams had gone!

:rofl:

Carrying on - Pictures of the family!

Jesssica - younger sister, 15
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Me + Me Mum
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Me Dad :gun:
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Steph, Dads Ex girlfriend - Mum to my half/step brother + sisters, Like a sister to me
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Me
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BY THE WAY JUST BEFORE SOME ONE SAYS IT - I GET OFFENDED EASILY BY PEOPLE WHO SAY I LOOK LIKE MY *BLEEP* OF A FATHER HA!

HOW CUTE ARE ALL MY LIL BABY BROTHERS AN SISTERS PERLEASEE, THERE LIKE LITTLE ANGELS BUT IF YOU KNEW THEM OH HOW YOU WOULD CHANGE YOUR MINDS HAHA

As for these dirty dreams are you sure your not just being a perv :rofl::rofl:

Only joking hun.

Looks like youve got a big family like me!!

Aww bless your siblings are adorable. Having dirty dreams is all part of pregnancy, the only sex I get now is in them which is why I enjoy sleeping so much! :rofl:

As for these dirty dreams are you sure your not just being a perv :rofl::rofl:

Only joking hun.

Looks like youve got a big family like me!!



:rofl::rofl::rofl: Haha il have to get back to ya on that one :P (JOKE)

Aww bless your siblings are adorable. Having dirty dreams is all part of pregnancy, the only sex I get now is in them which is why I enjoy sleeping so much! :rofl:

:rofl::rofl: Same ere !

:hissy:

www.babyshowerhost.co.uk

BEST SITE FOR BABY SHOWER THINGS!! SOON AS MY WAGES COME THROUGH IT IS ALL GOING ON THIS SITE HA! :happydance::happydance:

Its been a rather good day today, been so hot over these ways so been for a long walk (even though my ankles have ballooned 3 times there usual size ha!) just having a think about things, feeling pretty happy about life today apart from a event which happened this morning which i wont go into.

i realized what everyone meant by sit with your back straight because its putting oh so much pressure on the top of my bump which hurts me like heck + baby doesn't seem to like me sitting like it either but because of my back problems it hurts to sit up straight (because i used to click my back, getting people to stand on it - don't ask haha) i think i will have to suck it up and deal with it and just learn to sit with my back like an iron board.

I am having second thoughts about bumps name! i don't know why i just can't get used to it and i think i am going off it a bit now! will have to get me name book back out haha

Got young mums group tomorrow + midwife on Thursday because i missed getting my needles last week because i got scared ha!

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currently arguing with brat (AKA Sister - Jessica)

causing murder in our house + she had my mum in tears last night i am sick of her upsetting everyone. she is taking the JEALOUSY thing too far! trying to :ignore: her !

Your siblings are adorable!
Big family you have...Ignore your sister,she's probably mad because the attention is off her...

Your siblings are adorable!
Big family you have...Ignore your sister,she's probably mad because the attention is off her...

Haha i know there my little angels i love them so much = ] so cute haha!

i know shes jealous because the baby is getting some attention but she has got to deal with it sooner or later, because my baby isnt going anywere! xxx

:hissy::hissy::hissy::hissy:

i thought i was going to be lucky and not get any stretch marks (part from the ones on my boobs) now i wake up + my legs are covered in them ahhh!! :cry:

Ohhh no!!

after you have the baby use aloe vera gel it fades them, actuall whilst your still pregnant buy vit E capsuals pop them on your skin and rub it in it will help fade the ones you have and may help you not get anymore.

they arnt the end of the world they do fade i had bad ones on my boobies big thick red ones i could get my fingers in but now they are hardly visible

xxx

Today am sorting out my Care to learn forms with Mark (connexions worker)
Need to make sure i have got a nursery place for bump for when i start college in September, hopefully Gingerbread accept him *FINGERS CROSSED*!

Got a midwife appointment today, got to get my needle (AHHH!) Haha + getting belly measured etc.

Get paid tomorrow - shopping trip in order for Saturday ha!

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Get paid tomorrow - shopping trip in order for Saturday ha!



Im getting paid tomorrow too .. trying to resist the temptation to buy baby stuff already, its waaay too early.

What are you going to do @ college hun?

Im getting paid tomorrow too .. trying to resist the temptation to buy baby stuff already, its waaay too early.

What are you going to do @ college hun?

I've already got everything for the baby haha just need nappies n bits now + then I'm finished haha :happydance:

Am doing a diploma in health + social care = ]

back from the hospital, got some bad news + some good news.

they think i may be anemic so they are sending my second lot of blood tests off.
i also have to go back in four weeks for the news over my Heart problems! Hope my results are negative! *FINGERS CROSSED*

well onto the good news baby is doing well, she said he is doing brilliant + growing well. in fact he is a big baby << her words, so she has confirmed it, i have a fat lanky baby hahaha!!

I got told i'm anaemic. I'm glad it went ok apart from that x

:hissy: i got paid today (more than i thought so was made up) so was planning a shopping trip 2day, well that was until me mum decided to take her card to work with her! (my wages get paid into her account) so now am stuck in the house all day minding my niece because she forgot to leave me some money!!

Am sitting her with my niece, Sky (who really stinks an I've just had to change her bum) this kid should be potty trained by now!! ha! she is now un-dressing herself after I've only just finished dressing her! pain in the backside!! i wish she would hurry up an go to :sleep: haha

Fingers crossed that everything's going ok.It sounds to me that your little man is pretty safe and happy in there...

I read your post about college,I study psychology,finishing my freshman year and my college doesn't have a nursery,I'll have to find an independant one...you're so lucky if your does.Fingers crossed you get in...

i.ve already been accepted into college. i start in september but depending on what GCSE grades i get the higher/lower the course i go on *fingers crossed*
The college doesnt have a onsite nursery either so i'm puttin my baby in a self-picked one which is better too because i have the chance to get used to the people in the nursery.

x

was back in school today, getting really tired. even walking the slightest amount makes me feel ill! i just want to lie down anywere and sleeep!!

been shopping today get my clothes for the baby shower next week! will try them on later an try an post a picture to see what yous all think!
black dress with a luminous pink top, luminous pink tights + netted gloves, pink neck scarf + black flat shoes!
sounds mad doesn't it ha! hope to god it goes though, mind you I've still got a week to get summit else if it doesn't xx

Get it on and get some pics up hun!!

It ended up as just this, me mum said the pink tights made me look fat!! + my netted hand gloves made me look like a slut< how nice of her haha!!

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what do you lot think?

ignore my enormously chubby face<< i blame the pregnancy haha

AHHHH!! SORRY GIRLS BUT I AM HAVING A REALLY BAD 'FAT N UGLY MOAN ABOUT SELF DAY'

1212 - COMPLETE URGH!! (NO MORE NICE UNDERWEAR!)

1213 - WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH MY EYES LIKE!

1214 - OK NOT AS BAD BUT STILL EEEUWW!

1215 - HOW FATS MY FACE PERLEASEE!!!

1216 - THE HAIR! OH MY GOD

sweetie you look fine! and the baby shower looks fine you dont even look pregnant.

chill

x

Haha i don't look pregnant !! thats a good one :P

an thanks i just was having a i feel ugly day yesterday!

you dont you cant see the bump in your black dress!!

Just read through your journal, an amazing story, such a wise head on young shoulders. Your going to make an amazing mum. You have a gorgeous bump. :D

definatly wearin it then haha

Love the pic of your bump! I need to get a good one of mine. It's not urgh it's a lil baby =] cool outfit too, enjoy your baby shower x

LUVBUNSAZZLE:
Just read through your journal, an amazing story, such a wise head on young shoulders. Your going to make an amazing mum. You have a gorgeous bump.

thank you = ] xx

Love the pic of your bump! I need to get a good one of mine. It's not urgh it's a lil baby =] cool outfit too, enjoy your baby shower x

Ahh that still asnt sunk in just yet, don't know why its mad i know i'm pregnant but when i think ah theres a baby in my belly, my son its like ahhhhh haha!

yeh get some piks on of ur bump = ]

xx

Know what ya mean, it's mad knowing that there's a little person inside you lol i will take some pics this week and get them up here! All the ones I have atm are a bit poo lol x

Lol will keep an eye out for them, let me no were your postin them.

i keep goin light headed! its drivin me nuts every time i turn me head its like ahhh!

Will do, hope i can get some decent ones! I had that the other day, was really dizzy for ages. Now I just feel like falling asleep everywhere i go lol

me too, really tired all the time but now am jus goin on lil dizzy phases!

hehe, perfect excuse to put your feet up and have a rest

Ha! yeh i suppose

I lkes the pink gloves think they look cool hun, you hardly look like a slut lol i think your mum was exaggerating a lil bit lol

I lkes the pink gloves think they look cool hun, you hardly look like a slut lol i think your mum was exaggerating a lil bit lol

Haha yeh i think me mum bit old fashioned on stuff like that! should be her coming to me for clothes advice not the other way round haha!! x

Having a lazy day today, haven't stepped foot out of this house all day (its like a prison ahh!) but i have been told to rest because of my 'dizzy spells'

Currently craving - Ice cubes (bought from the shop), tomatoes (got to be those little cherry tomatoes though) + raw carrots (with the peel still on! < how wierd is that)

Packed bumps hospital bag today, my room is seriously getting cramped so had to stuff it away somehow haha, don't know what I'm going to do when hes born, I HATE THE MESSYNESS!!!

Feeling okay today just tired + dizzy a lot, just putting that down to pregnancy though, don't want to worry myself haha

My baby shower stuff is getting delivered tomorrow !!! i cant wait to open it all and see exactly what I've used al me wages on haha

xx

My baby shower things turned up this morning!! Defo not a waste of money, for £35 i got 3 games, cups, balloons, plates, napkins, sweet bags x8, prize bags x8, a flower (made from a pair of baby socks :O haha), a foil balloon, 2 packs of banners, thank you cards an more hahaha = ] quite pleased with it all myself, saying though i was told i didn't have to plan everything for it so far i've bought the decorations, wrote the invitations out, give the invitations out, done food/drink lists + am on cleaning duties + shopping duties on Saturday morning haha (BEST HAD BE ALL WORTH IT - STRESSFULL)

Feeling pretty happy an content with myself today and Bump is moving a lot (never moved once yesterday so i panicked)

Oh my god i just realized i am 30 weeks tomorrow ahh :D not long till i meet my baby boy noww!!!

xx

Eeeek 30 weeks already?

i know haha getting really excited + nervous now !! ahh am going to be a mum in like 10+/- weeks. i am hoping to god i don't go early , in fact i hope i either go on my due date or few days after because of my exams !

I just wanted to say that I think you have the cutest bump ever!! I hope I get a bump like that this time.. you look great! & I love your black & pink outfit. You're so pretty.

I hope your LO stays in there til after your exams. You should be so proud of yourself for staying at school & finishing your exams so close to your due date. You're going to be a great mum!

I just wanted to say that I think you have the cutest bump ever!! I hope I get a bump like that this time.. you look great! & I love your black & pink outfit. You're so pretty.

I hope your LO stays in there til after your exams. You should be so proud of yourself for staying at school & finishing your exams so close to your due date. You're going to be a great mum!


Haha you should really see my face right now after reading that! I've got the fattest smile on my face ever!!
i am usually getting told my bump is either to small/to big or to low etc. haha!
up to now i am going to wear the pink/black outfit for the baby shower unless i go shopping again and change my mind haha, will post some pictures on the day to show yous. :happydance:
i hope he stays in there too, my last exam is 19th june and my due date is the 9th of july so pretty close haha. i am proud of myself some days because i didnt think i would ever stick school out (pregnant or not) but now Jayden is the BIGG push that i needed to see it through to the end and make summit of myself and *FINGERS CROSSED* about being a good mum haha

xx

What did you put in your bumps hospital bag? I've got a list but it seems too short!

Heya bexy erm so far
Babies Bag:
• Baby grows x6 – plain white
• Vests x8 - plain white
• Baby blankets x2 – blue + cream
• Travel changing mat – white
• Baby towels x2 – yellow + white
• Bibs x10 – white + blue
• ‘let’s play’ baby suit with hat
• ‘Liverpool kit’ baby suit with bootees, hat, bib + socks
• Wipes – Johnson’s
• Cotton wool balls
• Dummy – ‘Little liver’
• 2 mittens – plain white
• Tub of bum cream
• Nappy bags
• Baby shampoo
• Baby wash
• Johnsons baby powder

and just gotta get nappies now xx

wow thats a lot!

Cant wait to read all about your baby shower! Sounds like it's going to be rather fun!! xx

wow thats a lot!

Haha and i havent even started on mine yet!

:cry::cry::cry::cry:

Been in a really good mood all day until i went round to me dads, just so you get a little picture of what our relationship is like the man goes round telling people i'm not his kid or that i'm dead to him because i caught him going behind his girlfriends back + i told her, and before people think i was just shit stirin i really wasnt, me + steph are so close, shes like my sister and i didnt want to see her get hurt but instead i was the one who hurt her but she understands and is gratefull for why i told her. she is the mum of my 4 youngest sisters + brother, and i love keeping in contact with them (obviously) they mean the world to me and i cant cope in my own head when i am deprived of being able to see them, steph loves me going round to talk to her + seeing the babies but since everything kicked of with me dad he makes it hell every time i go round there. i literally have to sneak in sometimes i really think i am cracking up again i have already tried killing myself once because of the way he mentally abuses me and i dont want to go through everything with him again. he goes out everytime i come round now but it causes trouble for steph after i've left. i'm becoming really depressed about it + i am having thought about self-harming again but i no for my own safety + bumps that i cant! its so hard !!!:sad1:


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Calmed down a bit since my last post. just having a really stressfull time with the family and needed to vent a few things what i was thinking etc.

just noticed my belly button has now literally popped out like 2cm out my belly haha looks really wierd !!

Has anyone elses gone out this much ?

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Mornin everyone, ano its a bit early to be postin on this thread but am just rackin my hed because i haven't had any sleep all night no matter what i did i just couldnt sleep at all an now ive got to get ready and go to my anti-natal class + im not in a very good mood to be around other people at the min (me wit no sleep = very angry person).

any advice on how to get some sleep!!!
i seriously tried everything i was crying myself to sleep + everything but it still didnt work!! i had a hot bath at like 12 oclock wit a cup of warm milk to see if that would settle me but it just didnt, then i tried readin some book bu tha jus made me bored haha but im guessing that was the idea of the 'read before bed' idea like.

any advice would be grateful thanks. xxx

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Been in a really good mood all day until i went round to me dads, just so you get a little picture of what our relationship is like the man goes round telling people i'm not his kid or that i'm dead to him because i caught him going behind his girlfriends back + i told her, and before people think i was just shit stirin i really wasnt, me + steph are so close, shes like my sister and i didnt want to see her get hurt but instead i was the one who hurt her but she understands and is gratefull for why i told her. she is the mum of my 4 youngest sisters + brother, and i love keeping in contact with them (obviously) they mean the world to me and i cant cope in my own head when i am deprived of being able to see them, steph loves me going round to talk to her + seeing the babies but since everything kicked of with me dad he makes it hell every time i go round there. i literally have to sneak in sometimes i really think i am cracking up again i have already tried killing myself once because of the way he mentally abuses me and i dont want to go through everything with him again. he goes out everytime i come round now but it causes trouble for steph after i've left. i'm becoming really depressed about it + i am having thought about self-harming again but i no for my own safety + bumps that i cant! its so hard !!!:sad1:


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Aww hunni, it's awful to hear what your going through, the advice i can give you is to concentrate on yourself and the baby, think about when you give birth and holding your baby in your arms and knowing you made him, and your his mummy. No-one can take that away from you.

Your amazing at how well you cope with things at such a young age. I remember being 16, a trouble maker, getting kicked out of school all the time and just being really immature, so you do have a very smart head on young shoulders.

As for the sleeping i have no idea, sorry, when im as far along as you i'll make sure i ask you the same question!!

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Aww hunni, it's awful to hear what your going through, the advice i can give you is to concentrate on yourself and the baby, think about when you give birth and holding your baby in your arms and knowing you made him, and your his mummy. No-one can take that away from you.

Your amazing at how well you cope with things at such a young age. I remember being 16, a trouble maker, getting kicked out of school all the time and just being really immature, so you do have a very smart head on young shoulders.

As for the sleeping i have no idea, sorry, when im as far along as you i'll make sure i ask you the same question!!

:hug:

I dont feel very mature for thinking about doing these things to myself though, but i have hopefully done the right thing and i phoned my midwife and told her what was happening and she is reffering me to some one for some exta support whilst im pregnant because i declined the offer of going back on anti-depressants while my baby is inside me i dont no want to even risk doing anything to harm him.

i will have to try and have a sleep in the day becauseim so exhausted its driving me nuts, i feel ill im that tired! av got the doctors 2morrow so will ask her for some advice etc.

thank you for talkin to me about this, its hard dealing with it on my own because i no i cant get stressed out while im pregnant. :hugs:

:hi: I am sending you a pm hope everything is going better:hugs:

i hope you feel better soon hun we are all here for you, yes your belly button is a little strange tee hee

=[ hope you feel better. and lol at your belly button. It's well cool ! x

Had a very up/down day today.

young mums group - 10 - 3. went really good, done cookery/weaning + i learned how to make Apple + Rice puree haha was horrible but the babies seem to like it so thats good.

then when i got in about 3:15, steph rang me asking me to pick cortney up from school (which by the way finishes at 3!) so 20 past i runs round (trying to ignore the fact my muscles were playing up because of my muscular scerlosis + was in complete utter pain!!) i picks her up and like steph said to me to wait outside the school she would be 10 mins (she was in dentist getting fillings or summit?) but 30 mins later in the rain i decide to give up and walk round weather it meant facing my dad again but a 5 year old in puddles + me stressing in pain not a very good situation for a pregnant hormonal teen to be in! ended up waiting on the corner of me dads and sees steph getting of the bus so waits for her (meaning i didnt have to stress myself any further by coming face-to-face with me dad (very close to being called Tony instead of dad!) so steph is on the phone to him in pain while he is shouting at her for asking me to pick cortney up because its to much hassle for him to walk round the school with two kids to pick another one up! i mean come on, if he can make them why not bring them up properly! pisses me of so much.

rant over!

other than my muscles i have been feeling ok, still no sleep but getting used to it by now.

is it normal to be feeling a really big pressure the bottom of my stomach were babys head is ??

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Ahhh! i knew i shouldnt have kept on re-piercing my belly button myself with my belly bar! well i finally fucked it up didnt i! ahhh i have only gone an re-pierced the wrong bit of the whole and now look like a freak with different types of holes were my belly bar should go hahahaha trust me to try doing something so stupid so soon after waking up!

Ouchies!!

God im such a wimp when it comes to things like that ... i couldnt even re pierce my ears i made my mum do it.

Sounds like yesterday was a bit of a mad day hun!!

Hoping everything is ok hunn. I do it with my ears, would never dream of doing my belly button, your brave!!!

:happydance: Morning everyone!! hope everyone is doing ok today, i am in a really good mood, had a good nights sleep last night + a nice little sleep in till 10:30 too (could have slept longer but i think bump was getting bored of me in the same position so he decided to kick the matress + my bladder haha so had to run/waddle the toilet) :happydance: haha!!

(belly button doing fine this morning, a little red but no more bleeding which is good! haha, wont be doing that again any time soon hahaha)

weekend has begun offically for me today, i no you lot will think i am mad but i have offered to clean top-to-bottom of the house ready for the party on saturday + do some shopping later for last minute bits an bobs. PARTY ON! haha

thanks everyone who took the time to speak to me when i was having one of my 'down days' it really meant a lot xxx

adios for now haha xx

Ouchies!!

God im such a wimp when it comes to things like that ... i couldnt even re pierce my ears i made my mum do it.

Sounds like yesterday was a bit of a mad day hun!!


to be honest it didnt really hurt that much it was more the blood that got me going haha an yeh yesterday was a bit mad but today is another day! :D:D:D xx

Hoping everything is ok hunn. I do it with my ears, would never dream of doing my belly button, your brave!!!

haha should have seen me when i seen the blood i didnt look very brave then though hahaha looked like a right woppa! haha. xxx

ooh don't fancy the idea of repiercing my belly button!

Haha ah well its done now, do you think if it gets infected or anything, that something will happen to babys cord or an ything because thats what me mum has said, think she just trying to freak me out though so i dont do it again haha xx

ok so am taking a break from cleaning for half an hour or so because i am so tired haha, so far ive changed my room round, cleaned windows, sorted babys things out, sorted out baby shower decorations, snapped wood up for the back garden fire + now im having a well deserved break in the back garden in the nice hot sun on me laptop with a nice ice cold drink + a carrot hahaha xx

LOL busy busy busy. O sun over in liverpool, i am jelous, we have wet weather then sun although cold then rain again. I bet you cant wait for this weekend, looking forward to seeing pikky's!

LOL busy busy busy. O sun over in liverpool, i am jelous, we have wet weather then sun although cold then rain again. I bet you cant wait for this weekend, looking forward to seeing pikky's!

Its like that over here, sun then rain but when sun is out its hot! only rained once today, just so happined to be when i was on my extension cleaning me windows haha!! :rofl:

ano i really cant wait though, cant believe i am actually cleaning two days before it, i just want it to be good an nothing ot go wrong so making sure EVERYTHING is in the right place etc. will post piccys before the party + after, bet you my cleaning job will be needed again on sunday haha xx

After sorting my room out i decided to take pictures of babies things etc. just need to pick me mattress + bumper set up for me cot.

Moses basket = ]
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Cot with teddies + clothes etc in = ]
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Bouncer = ]
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woo me an bump keep playing little games haha, when i put my hand on me belly he wriggles till i move but at first it was him saying stop touching me mummy but when i put me top down he wouldnt stop moving an as soon as i lifted my top back up he would stop unless i has my hand there haha, bless him x

Heya girls just thought id give yous an update of how things are going.

got woken up early this morning because i forgot my connexions worker was coming to see me over my housing situation. he took me took some place called 'The Elizabeth Enderson House' which is for teen mums who need re-housing, at first i wasnt to sure but when we got there i started to like the look of it so i thought i will give it a chance, just hear what theyve got to say etc. the more the woman told me about it the more i thought it was the perfect place to live + the best option id heard so far. i can have accomodation for up to two years + after your two years is up they get you a flat in any area you wish to live in. but whilst living there you get your own flat (no sharing anything) + the flats are really modern two bedroom flats an quite big too. haha as soon as i heard RULES i thought ahh no i knew there would be something wrong with it but they seem kinda fair.
1. Got to be in by 11pm/visitors left by 11pm
2. Listen out for safety instructions in case of emergency
3. Meet reguarly with a key worker
4. Let staff know when you will be having visitors
5. You can stay out 2 nights a week
6. Keep noise to a minimum
7. Dont leave child unattended at any times
8. Treat 24 hour staff with respect
9. Responcible for own belongings
10. Allow access to staff if your flat is in need of painting/repairs etc.

+ i will have 24 hours support of key workers etc.

sounds really good + ive filled the forms out but i just need to have a talk with my mum about it.

what do you girls think? xx

how did you get your pics to come up like that? I'm stuck

how did you get your pics to come up like that? I'm stuck

When you are replying press the little button that looks like a paper clip an a new window should pop up + says browse + upload, so press browse - pick your picture - then upload x

Wooo baby shower tomorroww!!! = ]

Going to get me hair done in rags in a min just waiting for the woman to get her stuff ready = ] .. will show you picutres before + after haha, will be a right show but :D haha x

Going to get me hair done in rags in a min just waiting for the woman to get her stuff ready = ] .. will show you picutres before + after haha, will be a right show but :D haha x

:hissy: RAGS :hissy:
My mum used to rag my head into them things when i was little... so id have ringlets
little trip down memory lane haha

enjoy your baby shower tomorrow hun xx

Haha well if she even thinks of hurting i no were il be shoving the bleedin things haha :D

An thanks Vicki ;) will do :D:D

:hissy: RAGS :hissy:
My mum used to rag my head into them things when i was little... so id have ringlets
little trip down memory lane haha

enjoy your baby shower tomorrow hun xx

Thats what i was just thinking!! My nan always used to put my hair in rags!!

The good old days :rofl:

Hope you have a good time at your shower :D

back!

i had a little think about it and decided against Rags an got curlers put in instead an OUCH! i wish i didnt she hurt me so much i felt like wrapping the bloody curler round her head! haha

Lol i hate it when hairdressers tug on your hair, it really hurts! Have fun at your baby shower tomorrow by the way =] x

Thankk youu girlss = ]

haha will make sure i take lotsa picutes to show yous too :D
(bloody hope its worth all this hard work ive put into it, never cleaned so much in my entire life haha)

xx

hehe my mum used to rag my hair too!! mostly cause it was the only way to control it cause it was meeeega curly!

hehe my mum used to rag my hair too!! mostly cause it was the only way to control it cause it was meeeega curly!

Me too, my hair takes about 2 hours to straighten haha, really annoyingg when your in a rush, would be easier just to wet me hair n keep it curly haha xx

haha

I was a bad tomboy aswell when i was little i despised seeing an old pair of pjamas being cut into strips cos i knew where they was heading... my head!!! arrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

they killed coming out too, that 1 bit of hair that snags... owwwwwwwweeeee

haha

I was a bad tomboy aswell when i was little i despised seeing an old pair of pjamas being cut into strips cos i knew where they was heading... my head!!! arrrrggghhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

they killed coming out too, that 1 bit of hair that snags... owwwwwwwweeeee

Hahaha same ere, only started wearin skirts n stuff the past year or two hahaha i used to hate people coming near my head because i knew theyd want to mess round with my hair haha x

Oh my god! why is it when you look pretty you dont see any nice lookin lads anywere but oh no when you walk the streets with ya meffs on an ya hair up in luminous white curlers wit a big fat bump + carryin two big bags of ale walking down the road with mum who was also carryin a crate + more ale!! (FOR THE PARTY LIKE, WE ARE NOT ALCOHOLICS HAHA) that you see every fit lad there is that live around here, not to mention the lads i've been with who have just took tha piss out of me hahaha i just went 'oh dont even start!' haha me mum was in stitches laughin at me, even after i jus made myself look like a bad mum carryin ale for HER!

haha hissy fit over :D back to good mood rachel hahaha

HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO SLEEP TONIGHT I AM ALREADY ON A COMPLETE HIGH SINGIN N DANCIN READY FOR THE PARTY HAHA! NO ALE FOR ME THOUGH, MADE SURE ME MUM GOT EXTRA BOTTLES OF COKE FOR ME HAHAHA xxx

Its always the way hun when you want to be noticed no one pays the slightest bit of attention and vice versa ... such a nightmare :rofl:

Haha! Polo_princess!!

Oh my god, not happy at all!! my hair didnt turn out the way i planned so i have had to just straighten it (BORING) like every other day!

just been shopping for the last minute things like cakes n stuff (kitchen has never been so full of food) having to keep out of there other wise i wil have eaten everything by the time the party starts hahaha!

just going to help mum make the food etc. then jump in the bath and start getting dressed + at the rat im going it wil take me about two hours to stand up hahah.

:cry: got some bad news before of me mum.

my mums mate died last night after being diagnosed with cancer just 3 weeks ago.
my mum met him at work a few years back when she worked in a warehouse called 'decco'. he was the most funniest man ive ever met, he taught me how to drive a forklift tractor thing too haha an when the big bosses wasnt in we used to play hide n seek (i was only about 8/9 btw haha) an he always use to hide in the smae spot in the back part of the ware house under the compost! even though the warehouse got shut down because of a robbery, everyone was shook up an couldnt face going in, but billy kept in touch with us an every birthday + christmas he would send a voice msg to me mums phone wishin us a happy day an he always used to buy me these lil hard boiled sweets (which were horrible but i loved it cos they wer of him) i always made sure i eat them in frontof him, but then id run n get a glass of juice haha.

its mad because i lost my grandad to cancer in march + now he died last night of cancer an there both called billy + was both in there 80's.

RIP LIL BILLY, WILL MISS YOU SENDIN YOUR LIL MSGS TO US, MAKIN US LAUGH + WELL JUST BEIN YOU. REST IN PEACE UP THERE MATE. MISS YOU LOADS XX

big hugs hun :-(

hope you're shower went or is going well hun xxx
sorry to hear bout billy, take care

heya just thought id pop online to let you all know how the baby shower went.

Well to put it in one word -EMOTIONAL!
i thought it was the pregnant one who got all upset an cried all the time not everyone else haha, everyone kept tellin me how proud they were of me + how much they cared about me + bump (+ i offically have a babysitters booked for the next year ha!)
we played games after games which turned out to be funnier than i thought they would be too lol.
my mates kept holdin my stomach waitin for bump to kick, no matter how many times i told them he doesnt move for anyone else but me (or to the sound of paul o'grady haha) they got really emotional tonight but i no they care about me an i admire them for stickin by me.
had a really good laugh tonight, let my hair down an jus enjoy it (last party while not a mummy haha)
never got no pictures of me, wasnt in the mood so was a bit camera shy (unbelievable i no but haha) still got some pictures + videos of everyone else having a luagh singin n dancin.

feelin pretty tired now so goin to go to sleep, will write more stories when i have had a sleep night girls. xxxx

glad you had fun =] x

glad it went well and u had a nice time hunni

sounds like you had a laugh rach, dont know if i want one now

im glad you had a good time!

want one of what? x

Gad you had a great time hunn. xx

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Bouncer + bags of presys from last night
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Moses Basket (Cute blue teddy)
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Cute Dungarees
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Stripey t-shirt with jeans
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T-shirt with jeans + boots
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T-shirt with jeans + shoes
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4 sets of babas clothes :baby:
any heard of TOOO many clothes, hes even got more clothes than me haha now thats sayin sutton !

want one of what? x

baby shower, my friend asked me if i want one but i said no,
changing my mind now....:dohh:

lol you should have one, i had a proper laugh

lol you should have one, i had a proper laugh

considering it... if we get a place of our own in time i will.
couldn't see my dad coping to well in a house full of women!!! :rofl:

haha mine was all girls i even had to tell me grandad he couldnt come, i felt ded mean haha

feelin pretty run down today, think its because ive had hardly any sleep. my back is really sore, been in bed all day because everytime i walk i am in pain, (just another joy of pregnancy yeh?)

it really hit me today about the fact im going to be a mum in less than 10 weeks! i was sortin me room out, well what used to be my room, it is now startin to look like a baby shop haha.
its mad i keep holdin my belly an talkin to it (an at the start of the pregnancy said i would never do it). i keep findin myself doin silly little things like holdin his scan or just lookin through his clothes, i cant wait til hes actually here cos at the min it still feels like a long dream thats not endin.

its me mums birthday on the 16th (day of my first GCSE exam haha) got her tickets for her + her mate to go an see some 70's music show in june + perfume (which i wanted haha)

my brother is joinin the army on the 17th May :'( (on his 20th birthday) i really dont want him too, but theres nothing i can do to stop him!

xxx

Ok so really concidering the thought of different name for bump. at first i was all for Jayden Robert but now i dont no, just having a change of heart.

any ideas girls pleasee xx

I still like jayden robert, i think you have a lovely name there.
I have no name idea's what so ever, before i became pregnant i would have name after name i liked now i know the name i choose will be grapes name, i just cant choose any!

I like the name you already have. I'm with you on the feeling run down thing too

I like Jayden hun, if you dont already have any other names you immediatley like stick with jayden!!

Hope your feeling a bit better today

I like the name you already have. I'm with you on the feeling run down thing too

:hugs: xx

Feelin a little better today thanks girls. ive made a promise to myself that i cannot think to much about the things that get me down + think more about the good things ive got goin on! i know i am missin Adam an bein wit im bu i also no tha he has given me the most precious thing in the world wether hes here to share it or not. an my dad well i cant really turn that into anything good so i will just try an ignoe that until at least after ive had bump.

Got a really bad headache today (think its because of crying though i duno), back still no better but i wil have to get used to it for the next ten weeks haha xxx

bumps doin good today too, movin around a lot (think he had hiccups this mornin its jus felt different when he was jigglin about haha) i spend ages just lyin down strin at him movin its mad haha xx

Hey just checking in, make sure that whatever name you choose you absoloutely LOVE the nickname for it, because that's what he mostly would be called throughout his years! There's still 10 weeks to think about a name, make sure that it's a good strong one that means something to you. :) Sending lots of :hugs: for the week.

Hey just checking in, make sure that whatever name you choose you absoloutely LOVE the nickname for it, because that's what he mostly would be called throughout his years! There's still 10 weeks to think about a name, make sure that it's a good strong one that means something to you. :) Sending lots of :hugs: for the week.

the name Jayden Robert does mean something to me because my brothers name is jamie (Hense - Jay) + hes goin in the army next week an Robert is my grandads name, i think its jus cos no one else likes it tha im goin of it? xx

rach ive bantered names out and nobody like the ones i sugest but at the end of the day if i find a name that means something to me and i like it then everyone can go **** themselves.

*** in a great mood today aren't i?! ***

Haha yes vicki you sound very cheerful today :P xx

Haha yes vicki you sound very cheerful today :P xx

:thumbup::thumbup::thumbup: top of the frigging mountain today me, a friend rang me before to see if i wanted to go shopping (frig knows what shops are open on a bank holiday in town but hey) and i made my excuses I thought it'll only take a couple of people to knock in to me before i explode into a raving pregnant lunatic, gonna have to chill out a bit today lol.

what are you up to today?

Haha!

Coursework! start me exams next week an this revision is harder than it looks (propa stumped il b gettin Fs an tha haha)

you up to much?? xx

Haha!

Coursework! start me exams next week an this revision is harder than it looks (propa stumped il b gettin Fs an tha haha)

you up to much?? xx

assignments 2 of them :hissy:

well im meant to be... :blush:

sounds like you're both having about as much fun as I am today lol
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Well get this for a maths question -

There are 17 un-open boxes. the total value of these boxes is £514,601.61. What is the average amount in each box?

i tried dividin the money by 17 bu it says am wrong haha xx

eugh i hate maths

sounds like you're both having about as much fun as I am today lol
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Haha oh were avin a blast ;)

Revision, revision + oh a little more revision hahah xx

i used to think i was kinda good at maths since i got a B in my last exam (all this time off, thinkin about bump as brain washed me haha) xx

isn't average where you divide and then multiply or something crap? not done it since GCSE lol i got a C

il give it a try lol x

it wants the average rach so round it up or down to the nearest 1000, 100, 10 or whole pound then divide by 17....

probably way off mark :dohh:

only doing biology a level and health studies... frigging hated maths

Hmm i give up haha

sounds like you're both having about as much fun as I am today lol
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LEAST YOU'RE NOT ALONE !!!

:happydance::happydance::happydance:

I NEED TO GET A GRIP GOIN MAD HERE!!!

:happydance::happydance::happydance:

LEAST YOU'RE NOT ALONE !!!

:happydance::happydance::happydance:

I NEED TO GET A GRIP GOIN MAD HERE!!!

I am alone :(

and I think you're right about the averages

Hmm i give up haha

fuckin hell right, ill give it a whirl

£514,601.61.
can be rounded to

£515,000.00 / 17 = £13,294.12 rounded to 13,300.00

I am alone :(

and I think you're right about the averages


your not you got me and rach to entertain you :rofl:
left school 6 yrs ago and i hardly graced my maths teacher with my presence anyway lol.

your not you got me and rach to entertain you :rofl:
left school 6 yrs ago and i hardly graced my maths teacher with my presence anyway lol.

lol true true. maths is evil, my teacher hated me

i started again an got a different question then asked me mum what she thought i should do an guess what, she got it right (third try round like haha) xx

lol true true. maths is evil, my teacher hated me

my teacher loved it when i bunked off he got peace... never grassed on me once :dohh:

i have now officially given up on maths! who needs it haha

haha terrible vicki !

mind you i cant say much, i think my teacher has seen me twice this year an thats only cos i got sent to him on a msg from my mentor haha

hahaha

Haha i had one last try an i finally get it (after me mum screamin in me face bout 10times haha)

you do (example):

£348,766.61 divided by 11 = 31706.0554545 then round it so the answer is

31706 haha - how stupid am i !!!

Ive failed maths 4 times, lol E,E,E,D so im sure your gonna do great. I did manage to do my Alevels though and got good grades in them, so like you say, who needs maths!

Haha ano yeh :D

30 weeks + 6 days.

Had an appointment with midwife this morning after i had terrible pains yesterday, baby is fine though!. measuring 30 weeks so he doing good but h/b was a little slower today then normal. Being referred to doctors over pains as she was unsure why i was getting them but reassured me it had nothin to do with bump.

Got a water infection so need to go and get my tablets to clear it up.

Havin a relaxin day today (well kind of, since am babysittin my 1 yr old niece!) but its hot out so sittin in the front garden at the min while she is playin (well throwin stones at every one who walks past the garden!)

In a really good mood today (new life motto - Today is another day :D)

xxx

:hugs:aww bless ya hun. im glad you've cheered up
:hugs:xx

Glad you havin a nice day and makin the most of the sunshine hun!! Im stuck inside at work :(

:rofl: Haha, ok so i know this is goin to sound strange but i feel like bump is kickin me in the bum!

anyone else had this or is it just me bei nstrange again haha ??

xx

I think I know what you mean, it's on the inside and in the lower back part where I feel him kicking!

Thank goodness its not just me then hahaha :D

its like a continual tappin on me bum haha i thought i was imaginin at at first

Ahhh!!! (if your sqeemish about feet do NOT read on)

Well ii haven't been able to reach my poor little toes for about a month now :( an honestly i can feel the stabin of my nails but i CANT/WONT let anyone near my feet !!! i even hate people lookin at my feet never mind touchin them :')

lol i'm attempting to paint mine at the moment

haha, i was thinking bout this the other day what happens when im later on, i already have problems reaching my lil peggies haha

its like a continual tappin on me bum haha i thought i was imaginin at at first

I get this all the time and I'm pretty sure it's my son having the hiccups. Like a rhythmic tapping that never gets harder or softer, sometimes it lasts up to 5 minutes.

mBLACK - Yeh haha, i sit there gigglin at it an me mum jus stares at me like i've gone nuts!

Haha goin to have to grit my teeth an let my mum cut them there nockin me sick haha goin to cry my eyes out!

xx

31 weeks

Ahhh 9 weeks to go!!! So scared/nervous/excited ahh i duno haha. Bumps doin fine this mornin, swimmin away in there like he hasnt got a care in the world ha!
As for me, the dreaded mornin sickness crept back an got me last night an i feel oh so rough but got to be out of bed + ready for my taxi pickin me up at half 9 haha (don't know how thats happening like!) other than that feelin good in myself - weather is hot out again :D xxxxx

xx

Congrats chicken .... dont worry about labour thats the least of your worries :) ...yes it will hurt, but HELLO! THere is a thing called gas, pethadine and epidural (to name a few!) they are a great help! There is nothing wrong with having pain medication ...it doesnt make you less of a mum! :happydance:
As for the name of your little boy...GREAT NAME! We called our little boy Jayden too! He is a great kid (who is now 2!).

Hang in there you will be fine! :flower:

You are doing very well...but as your midwife says...you will need support after the birth of Jayden! So please for your sake accept help when they offer it ok? Its a tough time once bubs has arrived...sleep deprived etc doesnt help matters! So keep thinking positive like you are now! :kiss: :hug:

Congrats chicken .... dont worry about labour thats the least of your worries :) ...yes it will hurt, but HELLO! THere is a thing called gas, pethadine and epidural (to name a few!) they are a great help! There is nothing wrong with having pain medication ...it doesnt make you less of a mum! :happydance:
As for the name of your little boy...GREAT NAME! We called our little boy Jayden too! He is a great kid (who is now 2!).

Hang in there you will be fine! :flower:

You are doing very well...but as your midwife says...you will need support after the birth of Jayden! So please for your sake accept help when they offer it ok? Its a tough time once bubs has arrived...sleep deprived etc doesnt help matters! So keep thinking positive like you are now! :kiss: :hug:


:hugs: Heyaa :D:D

I know theres nothin wrong with pain medication, but i am going to TRY an do it with gas + air an the help of a TENS machine but if i need anything else i wont say no haha.

Great minds think alike ;) (JAYDEN) haha

I will take what ever support i can because i want to be the best mum i possibly can! :D :happydance: (AHHHH 9 WEEKS ahhaha)

xxx

9 more weeks to go!! YAY

Hope your out making the most of the sun again before it gets all crappy and raind again lol

i am going to TRY an do it with gas + air



haha, me too only I KNOW I'll be screaming for an epidural after 5 minutes!

Got a nice little bit of sun burn today haha! don't you worry, i will make the most out of theis sexy weather haha.

Haha bexxy! i wont be cryin for NO needle haha!! (just every other way to take the pain away hahah)

:D Get my sure start maternity grant tomorrow so can go an pay the rest of me pram an bring it home :D:D omg how real will it feel then ahhh haha!! (oh an a new wardrobe) - mental note - do not smash wardrobe up or get stuck in it hahahha

Really good mood today girls - make the most of it i say hahaha :D:DS::Dd xxxxxx

lol I don't mind needles, it's pain I don't like! I just read anita665's birth story and it sounds like gas and air is rubbish! I'm supposed to get a sure start grant. How do you get it?

go to your job centre an ask for the form then you fill in most of it then ask your midwife to fill in the last page. you can either put it bk in the job centre n they send it of for you after four days or you post it yourself (get envolope off job centre) an it goes there straight away xx

cool, how long dya have to wait for money to come through? x

its different, depends on how many people theyr'e dealin with, i waited 15 days for mine like xx

oky doke thanks! How you today anyway? x

Doin good, think i stayed in the sun a bit to long like haha ready for bath an bed (big day ahead of SHOPPING!!!) haha

how are you today? xx

am ok, a bit knackered. wanna go to sleep but gotta do the washing up and its only like half 8 so i'll only end up being wide awake dead early tomorrow if I go to bed now. Wish I had something to look forward to tomorrow, i'm in work. boooo lol x

well i've got me doctors 2moro too, finally find out what these pains are that i'm gettin :( an find out why they found blood in me sample hmm !

I hate havin me blood taken, it's so gross. My bump isn't growing :( gotta have another appointment on tuesday to be measured again

they found it in me wee sample (didnt have any needles) haha to scared of them things me haha.

:( *HUGS* everythink will be fine, my bump hasnt grown since i was 29 weeks niether but they dont seem to be botherd much like hmm x

30 weeks + 1 day.

Feelin kinda, well not to sure at the minute. happy about bump bein good jus bit scared/shocked about my thread i posted on pregnancy club about my scare at the doctors today.

weathers nice out again, feel like i've baked because i haven't been in all day just shoppin, shoppin oh n then the doctors so feelin pretty tired lol. bumps kickin away like mad again today, dont think he likes this heat to much (or how much mummy likes gettin a tan ha!)

Got my sure start grant today so went baby shopping :) got a new wardrobe (which comes on monday), my pram + cot mattress + cot bumper set (which should come within the next two weeks), baby clothes + my stuff for my hospital bag.

xxx

hey hun im sorry to hear about your scare at the hospital i hope they see to you soon so they can put your mind at rest

31 weeks + 2 days

feelin a lot calmer today about the whole 'lump' scare, i just have to keep tellin myself things will be ok an *FINGERS CROSSED* it comes back negative! i am so grateful to all the girls on this site who replied to my thread because you have made me feel stronger knowin i have your support if i ever need to talk etc. x

Bumps been kickin a lot this mornin,even woke me up! told hima million times MUMMY LIKES A SLEEP IN! haha.

had a talk with me mum this mornin when i woke up an instead of askin me to move out she was talkin about sellin the house for a bigger one so Jayden can have his own room. she is sittin my little sister, jess down tonight to tell her whats happenin.

got school today, to hot for uniform ahhh!! i hate wearin this thing haha.

will update on how school went + how jess takes the news later on xxxxx

hey hun im sorry to hear about your scare at the hospital i hope they see to you soon so they can put your mind at rest

:hugs: me too, when i thought things were goin to start goin ok i found this out but i guess these things happen for a reason an i will have to deal with what ever it is when ever it comes to it. xxx

im sure itll be fine, you just got to get through it youll be holding your lo soon enough something good to look forward to!

i keep tellin myself that. i need to be strong for my baby. xx

just realised i've moved up a box (don't know when like ha!) only one to go now :D:D xx

I bought little Liverpool babygrows and things the other day like the one in your avatar

So cute arent they!!

How u feeling? xx

Yeh little liverpool baby :D best thing invented ha!

Am feelin ok today how u feelin ? x

31 weeks + 3 days

Feelin pretty run down + tired today, hmm that might be down to all the walkin i've done the last 3 days like ha! been into town today with the girls from the young mums group, ended up at one of the girls ex fellas haven murder, katie (funniest girl ever) was screamin in the street tellin him to fu** off an get a grip an everything.

bump is gettin really big i feel really uncumfortable now which is a pain! bump is havin a really quite day today, not moved much bu diggin me in the ribs as per usuall haha.

xxx

Yeh little liverpool baby :D best thing invented ha!

Am feelin ok today how u feelin ? x


:happydance:

Im good...!
My backs killin me though :cry: x

:happydance:

Im good...!
My backs killin me though :cry: x

:hugs: mine too, what are we all like ey, if its not sore backs weve got its mornin sickness or tired 24/7 an complainin about the heat hahaha the trauma we go through whilst bein pregnant TUT haha xx

Ano!

Im sure it will be worth it though!

You got everythin you need for your little one yet? xx

Yeh just need nappies now :D

me pram, wardrobe, cot mattress + cot bumper arrives all within this week + next week :D

Have you? xx

31 weeks + 4 days

Feelin exhausted, had no sleep last night but that was down to my dirty stop out of a mum ha! she went to her mates party last night + never came home untill 2 oclock today! SHOCKIN! :P

Bump is kickin away like mad, lettin me know he's alright in there :)

(Don't Shout) but i swapped rooms with my sister today by meself, was proud of myself + now i am sufferin with a sore back but it was worth it haha.

xx

Yeh just need nappies now :D

me pram, wardrobe, cot mattress + cot bumper arrives all within this week + next week :D

Have you? xx

Yeah got everythin!
Weve just bought all the stuff for the nursery, gotta put the wardrobes together and fix a curtain pole then its finished

:D xx

my wardrobe should get here between 10 + 2 tomorrow, can't wait. just moved into my sisters room because its got a little extra room added on which i can use for babies nursery type of thing. just needs a lick of paint haha xx

my wardrobe should get here between 10 + 2 tomorrow, can't wait. just moved into my sisters room because its got a little extra room added on which i can use for babies nursery type of thing. just needs a lick of paint haha xx

Im hopeless with painting so ive left the walls of the nursery :baby:

Just have to do with pictures and wall stickers :blush:

hiya rach,
hows your weekend been?
friggin hell you swapped rooms i was done in when my little brother swapped rooms with me, an that was a few weeks ago an he helped me!!!
Dont plan on staying here as you know but Iam holding off on a house straight away so ive got spare cash for house and baby things instead of rent ill seriously get crackin on the house hunting about 30+ weeks (sounds mad).

Heya vicki, yeh i've had a good weekend went into town for me diner with me mates yesterday.
hows yours been?

Haha ano i was fucked after it like, done one coat on the walls an just got to get some more paint now (think i over did it on the first coat haha)

I really wasn't plannin on stickin round in me mums, was offered places but i realised after my 'lump' scare i'd like to stick with me mum aslong as she'l put up with me lol.

xx

Im hopeless with painting so ive left the walls of the nursery :baby:

Just have to do with pictures and wall stickers :blush:

:rofl: i'm crap with paintin too, you want to se the state i've left these walls in an its only first coat haha. babys nursery is only small cos its like a add on room next to mine just got me cot up an that in there.

Ha i've used wall stickers too. And Rach, have you been lifting again?? Leave that to the non pregnant people! lol

sorry but it had to be done! i was in on my own, i got more done in that day that i would have got done with the help of some one else doin it or waitin for them to actually do it themselves you no what i mean?

haha xx

31 weeks + 5 days.

My wardrobe got here at quarter to ten this mornin, just got to wait for some one to put it up for me, i've been put on a lifting ban haha!

Got my labour ward tour tomorrow an my midwife said while were there she will see if she can get a consultant to see my lump because she doesn't like the fact i have to stress over it for the next 4-6 weeks an wants it sorted out ASAP.

Bumps kickin away like mad today, don't think he likes the heat to much cos he kicks me like crazy when i'm outside (i'm now seriously burnt haha) suppose on e good thing came out of it, i got sunburn - sunburn means nice tan haha :D

xx

31 weeks + 6 days!

woooo heya girls in the best mood ever! i just found out my 'lump' scare turned out just to be a cyst which i am soooo happy about i cant stop smilin (i hugged the nurse hahaha!)

had my labour ward tour today was really good an found out a few things which i felt i needed to know :d i so cant wait for this birth now haha! :D bring on labour! :D (wont be sayin that when it happens like but ahh well hahah)

bump is fiddlin away in there like theres no tomorrow, havin a little dance in there, i think hes sharin my good mood today :D

xx

Aww cute. Glad you and bump are in happy moods! :)

Glad that lump just turned out to be a cyst hun, at least you can stop worrying about that for a while

Thanks x

yeh, i've never been so happy when she told me that it wasnt ... well you know!

xx

ok, i think i'm seriously ill, i've been cleanin up all day! i have washed about 8 loads of washin, i've washed dishes twice, cleaned my room an thats on top of goin to hospital today haha now i've just packed my hospital bag (i know, i know its a bit early but its clearin some space so haha)

Baby towel x1
Baby blankets x2
'Travel' changin mat x1
Cardie x1
'Liverpool' baby set x1
Dummie x1
Vests x8
Baby grows x8
Mittens x4
Bibs x15
Nappy bags
Johnsons baby wash x1
Baby moisterising cream x1
Sudocrem x1
Carex x1
Cotton wool
Wipes
Breast pads
Sanitary pads
Deoderant x1
Shampoo/conditioner x1
Toothpaste/toothbrush x1
Soap x1
Razor x1
Flannel x1
Wipes (for me)
Nighties x2
Night gown x1
Knickers x5

Still need:
Knickers
Bras
Socks
Slippers
Jarmas x4
Throw away cameras x2

Need to:
Wash baby clothes
buy the things i still need
Charge mp3
Charge Batteries for digi camera


Hmmm girls do you think thats it? xx

Ahhh 8 weeks left :D woo not long till i meet my little boy now :D:D xxxx

i recomend you take a few of your own bath towels with you maybe 3? cause you may get the urge to bath during labour aand may get in and out as you please so one towel will be a soggy yuk ball.

also for after the birth when you have your bath/shower to clean up.

also a dressing gown for same reason as bath for gettin in and out, trying to get dressed and dry in labour is so hard.

and a 6 pack of bottles water/drinks with a sports cap cause you can drink them from any angle and if you have a fair few bottles you can pick and choose around the room if that makes sence?

i know this might sounds like madness but i also wanted to put my make up on after the birth and for leaving tho hospital so if you wear it you may want to take it with you, also a lil bit of mascara in the after birth photos goes along way ha!

Are you planning on staying to live in the hospital Rach? Lol makes my hospital bag look a bit lame and I have everything I need. Might I ask how big is the bag you're putting this all into? Lmao. Also remember you need a car seat for when you leave. Hospitals won't let you out unless the baby is securely put in one and apparently the midwife usually carries it to the door because while the baby is in the hospital it's still her responsibility. Not that you can put a car seat in your bag of course. Although judging by the size of yours you probably could! :rofl:

Are you planning on staying to live in the hospital Rach? Lol makes my hospital bag look a bit lame and I have everything I need. Might I ask how big is the bag you're putting this all into? Lmao. Also remember you need a car seat for when you leave. Hospitals won't let you out unless the baby is securely put in one and apparently the midwife usually carries it to the door because while the baby is in the hospital it's still her responsibility. Not that you can put a car seat in your bag of course. Although judging by the size of yours you probably could! :rofl:

:rofl: haha, its not even that big you know! i've only put things in that i'l NEED to haha, just need a few extra things an i'm all done :d so can't wait for this to start happening :D :happydance: :D! i will be carryin my baby myself *PFFFFT* to the midwife who thinks shes carryin my baby outside before i do :D hahaha xx

32 weeks!!!

8 weeks and counting down!! Gettin really impatient an excited about bump makin an arrival (even though to everyone else it seems ages away)!

i *pooped* meself last night though seriously thought my waters had broke haha, turns out just to be me leakin water again, hmm really got to find out why this is happenin but oh wel :D

ouchy - water infection seems to be gettin worse rather than better but i suppose thats what they say, you get worse before you get better! :D (or in my case it wont go away or summit ha!)

bumps doin good 2day hasnt stopped kickin me (which so kills my side after like the thousandth time he done it) :)

really good mood today :D oohh ohhh by the way i made cookies + cakes at my young mums group (there the nicest things ever mmmm) were doin weanin from 3months+ - toddlers then party food ha! can't wait for that one haha

xx

32 weeks + 1 day.

feelin really low today, just really tired + this water infection doesn't seem to be going anywere any time soon an i will have to go the doctors for more tablets as mine have ran out.

bump is kickin away like mad today but is slowin down so much the past few days, dont know wether thats a good thing or not but i've got a midwife appointment next thursday so will ask all my questions then.

put my wardrobe up with my sister today as i couldnt bear to wait any longer for other people to do it, an i really had a good day spendin time with jess for once we didnt argue all day! :D

mums birthday tomorrow, :D Happy birthday mummy :D

First exam tomorrow !! 9 am, cant wait til there over!

xx

Good luck with the exam :) xx

Goood Luck ( i had one yesterday booooo!! ) bet you do fab, be such a relief to have it out the way!!

32 weeks + 2 days.

Really tired today, early mornin because of exam (9 in the mornin - who makes up these times perlease!) other than that doin good, awww me mums made up with her little prezzies of me an jayden :D should of seen her face when she opened a nanny card though, was a picture haha!

think i done ok on my exam, we will see when i get me results ha! bump didnt stop doin toss overs the whole way through the exam was drivin me nuts haha.

xx

glad the exam went ok hun!!

glad your exam went ok :) x

Thanks girls xx

:cry: In a really emotional mood!

why can't i stop thinkin about him?
I seriously don't want to be thinkin of Adam (bumps dad) 24/7 but i miss him so much!!! :hissy: Its times when am just sittin there an am like i wish i was still with Adam, the way we used to just cuddle watchin dvds or mess around fightin an end up jus gigglin together for ages cos we ended up doin sutton we shouldn't have been lol :blush:

:dohh: Why do i have to fuck things up all the time, i wish i could have Adam here with me now, Me + Adam + Bump, our own little family but i guess things never work out the way you want them too. :sad2:

Deep down i hate him bein with Sophie, because its only now (after 6/7 months of denyin it) that i admit i'm jelous! I love Adam, people say 'your only 16 you don't know what love is' .. but believe me I KNOW i love Adam, an i know he is goin to be a great daddy once he sees his little boy, he will grow up an see he is needed by his baby (*FINGERS CROSSED*) and i want to tell him every single thing i feel for him but i can't because it will complicate things between him + his baby an i don't want that at all. :hissy:

Guess i will just have to get on with the fact i can't have my own way in this situation an get used to the fact he's with Sophie now an not me! :cry:

sorry about the rant girls, needed to get this out to somebody :( xxx

Sorry you're not feeling so well:hugs: Things like this happen all the time and you just have to figure out what's best. I do hope the situation gets better for you, sometimes you just have to wait and see where the road leads you and not stress about it, you never know what can happen down the road.:hug:

Thanks capuru x

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